Tamaki's POV
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"Bye Tamaki, this was fun. Happy birthday again." I smiled as she hugged me.

"Thanks again Haruhi." The rest of the former host club had already left the restaurant.

We had all gotten together for a surprise birthday dinner, I went straight there after work. now I'm going home to my girlfriend. See she's not particularly fond of my old high school friends. So she didn't come.

I sat in the limo quietly absorbing the relaxing sensation of the cars vibrations. But my relaxation was cut short when we pulled into the driveway.

I stepped out thanked my driver and made my way up to the main floor.
"Y/N I'M HOME!"

She slowly came out of the upstairs room and walked down the stairs. "Hey hun, happy birthday." She walked over and kissed me on the cheek.  "How was your day?"

She looked slightly pained. But I didn't know why. "It was fun, they held an obnoxious surprise party thing at work. Dinner with the old gang was fun as expected. Kyoya got a really good reservation." I smiled.

But when I looked back down at her,  the pained look was intensified. "Hey,  Y/N what's wrong?"

She shook her head and smiled, I saw right through that smile though. She can't lie to me. "It's nothing Tamaki, just zoning out a little bit. So what do you want to do?  We could wind down with a movie?"

"No, I want you to tell me what's wrong." She groaned.

"Tamaki it's really nothing, I'm just tired.  So please drop it."

By this point I was getting irritated,  "Y/n why don't you jus- never mind.. I'll Just go to bed." I started to walk away,  but she grabbed my shoulder.

"Tamaki I don't want you to go to bed mad. Especially on your birthday, please just... I'm sorry. "

"Then talk to me!"

"I-I don't know how.... " She got really quiet and looked at the floor.

"Just talk" I said.

"I...I can't I'm sorry it's stupid"

I groaned. "I can't help if you won't talk!"

I yelled at her.

"I'm sorry!" She cried.

I put my hands in my hair and pulled on it. "THEN I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WON'T TALK!"

"BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY!  I'M CLUELESS ABOUT THIS TAMAKI!"

"THIS IS SO FUCKING STUPID!"
I ranted starting to pace. She had gotten really emotional and still wouldn't talk!  It was making me emotional!

She just stood there looking at the ground.

"WHY WON'T YOU JUST TALK! YOU STARTED THIS!" I motioned to her harshly.

She flinched. Her eyes we're squeezed shut, she was crying. I stood there wide eyed. Everything was frozen.

I had made her scared of me. I knew she had come out of an abusive relationship before being with me. I promised myself this would never happen. I felt myself get teary eyed.

"Y/n?" I whispered.

"I'm sorry" She whispered back.

She took a few steps back and held her arms close to her chest. I could see her shaking, her voice shook as she cried, she kept whispering she was sorry. Her body shook I could see her legs shaking.

She began to cry harder, her legs must've given up on her because she collapsed.  I ran forward and grabbed her setting her on the ground. I couldn't see her face. Her head was tucked down in her hands. I was crying too but I had to focus on her.

As soon as she was on the ground she moved back putting distance between us. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" She kept repeating.

"Y/N....Y/n I'd never hurt you. I'm not like him. I'm sorry I pushed whatever is going on in your head. I really didn't mean any of this. I hate seeing you like this. Please, please just look at me?"  I said slowly and calmly ignoring tears running down my face.

She slowly lifted her head. She covered her mouth and nose, her whole face was broken and disappointed. Red and puffy, tears just flowing like a river.

"Can I move closer and hug you? I don't want you to feel alone now."

She gave a short nod. I scooted closer and wrapped my arms around her shoulders slowly.

I lifted her legs and set them on one side of me and her body on my lap.

She cried into her hands again. Still muttering she was sorry.

"Hey, don't be sorry sweetheart. This was my fault,  I'd still like you to tell me what's wrong if it escalated this far. I don't care if it's stupid or small. I need to know. But for now just know you're safe and that I love you."

She clung to me and cried. I could tell the air in her lungs was running out. Her breathing was shallow but I could tell she was no where near calm. She was just becoming exhausted.

I rubbed her back gently. "Hey, take your time, take deep breaths. I don't want you to throw up. Please just know it will be okay."

She began to slowly calm down. I felt her limbs droop and she leaned onto me fully for support as she continued to calm herself.

She laid in my arms in silence for around 25 minutes. But I wouldn't rush her or disturb her. She clearly needed to get this out. Letting her release was the only way I'd get to talk to her.

"I'm s-sorry Tamaki."

"Y/N I told you not to be sorry. You're okay, I didn't mean to scare you."

She nodded and pulled her head off my shoulder and turned her face away from me.  She sniffed and rubbed her face with her sleeve.

She sighed then turned and looked back at me.

She looked so hopelessly sad. I smiled at her softly and she smiled back.

"Can you talk about what's going on now?" She frowned and nodded.

"It's really dumb after that whole mess but it's too late."

I grabbed her hand "it's okay, I said I didn't care if it was dumb and I meant it."

I really had no idea what this was about. It probably wasn't dumb knowing her, usually her self doubt clouds everything and it confuses her.

I hate the man who made her this way, she fought and still struggles after so long. He's in prison but he's not getting what he deserves.

She took a deep breath, it was still shaky but more controlled now. A couple tears had escaped my eyes

"So you didn't tell me you we're going out with the old club. I freaked a little bit waiting because I thought you just decided to leave me."

I began to say something but she caught me off.

"I know you'd never do that, but I haven't been in my right mind recently. The nightmares have been more frequent and it's screwing with my head. I'm sorry I should have said something sooner so it didn't escalate to this point. I have no problem with you hanging out with the club and it's fine that you forgot to tell me. You're busy and I understand, but I just got freaked out.. I...I overreacted and I screwed this up. I'm sorry. "

She said started talking really fast and I could feel her frustration.

"Why are you so mad about this?" I asked. I mean, I knew why but I wanted her to say it.

"I'm mad at myself for not holding it together. I've done this before!  I should've talked to you before this escalated. I'm repeating myself now because I really don't know what to do. I haven't seen him in nearly 2 years and I don't seem to be getting better... I'm just frustrated."

"You have been improving Y/N!  You have gotten so much better. I'm the one who messed up, I'm your lover you should've been my priority I forgot to tell you and caused you too worry."

I pulled her close and began stroking her hair.

"Y/n I love you and I'm sorry." I whispered fighting back tears.

"I love you too. Sorry for ruining your birthday" She mumbled into my shoulder.

"It's no issue sweetheart" I kissed the top of her head.

"Let's go upstairs and get you cleaned up. I'll run you a hot bath. Then how about that movie?"

I said picking her up bridal style carrying her up the stairs. With her still clinging to my chest. Her eyes closed her features screaming exhaustion.

"That sounds nice Tamaki."

A/N HEY that was short but not all of them could be 4000 words. I didn't really want to draw this out longer than needed of you get what I mean..