my mouth parts in surprise
candles, dinner and music
everything is to be seen

but something is missing

"i'm so sorry,"
he kisses my hands
he is sincere
he looks sorry
he hugs me
in his arms i let
my body unwillingly tremble

something is definitely missing

"oh my god, this is all my fault"
he drags me to his lap and stokes my hair
pressing me against his broad chest

now i know
this time
i don't believe
him

"i don't know why-"
"it's okay"

but it's not