She had reached home with all the girls who cast her worried looks continuously, the pity evident in their eyes as she forced herself to look out the window for majority of the journey. Her heart was bleeding and she did not have the will power to stop the blood from oozing out. Once they made it home she bolted out the car into her room and locking the door in a rushed frenzy. She slid down the door the next second as she drew her legs to her chest cradling herself as a fresh set of tears cascaded down her face as she sat there contemplating when their love had turned to poison. He was her love. Her hero. Her best friend. And now he was nothing. All in the space of minutes. She had forgotten it was her birthday, the idea of celebration thrown out the window as her sobs came out like a desperate scream for help. Her heart thudding violently against its cage. She hated him. The thought constantly repeating on her mind as she begged her heart to believe it. For once she let herself cry full well knowing that her teammates were listening, she was tired of being strong. It wasn't until a few hours later that she had looked at her phone, she saw messages from him. She opened her camera roll deleting picture after picture. Memory after memory. The torture becoming unbearable as she forced herself to stop leaving three photos before throwing her phone to the floor besides her. She could feel the exhaustion flow through her body, the will to fight leaving as she gave up collapsing to the floor in a heap. It wasn't until twenty minutes later that the girls had noticed it got visibly quieter, the tension apparent on their features as they banged on the door not hearing a response. They grabbed the set of keys unlocking the door and bolting in, their eyes widening at Irene's fragile form.

The next half an hour was a blur, she was rushed into hospital with doctors and nurses reviving her. The worry etched into their face. It took another hour for the girls to actually get some news, the doctor calling the girls and their manager into the room that held a now fully conscious Irene, who sat staring into nothing. "She's over done herself, the exhaustion caused her to collapse it was that bad because she's pregnant..." stunned faces stared back at him including Irene's who failed to process what the doctor had just spoken. Looking at her expression he questioned. "Didn't you know?...your two months pregnant." Irene looked at her manager and girls shaking her head violently as she struggled to breathe. "Woah woah woah Irene you need to calm down." Said the manager who sat on the bed grasping her hands. "It's okay child, we will get you through this. We will go through each step together...okay." Irene's eyes softened before relaxing as she nodded as he smiled at her, the girls pulling her into a group hug as the doctor left the room. "I'm going to be a mum." She said with tears in her eyes. She looked up at the others who smiled at her "And we are gonna be the best aunts and uncle." And for the first time that day...Irene had smiled.

They had got back home with the manager who came in with them. The girls instantly fussing over Irene who laughed at the way they were acting, she turned to her manager. "How are we going to do this? I don't want to leave the girls..." this caused all the girls to sit down, somber looks on their faces as they all sat there contemplating. Irene looked at her manager. " I have some songs that I've been working on, a album actually... I have the concepts that I want to do and so what if I release this solo album for my half. I've also written group songs as well so we can start choreography for them and developing a concept, I'm not showing yet so I can get away with it, then I'll go on a mini break. We can use something like I'm sick." The manager nodded his head in agreement, "that sounds like a good plan Irene, but then we need to start recording ASAP. Rest today and come to the studio tomorrow and we will go through everything." She nodded as he got up kissing her forehead saying "it's going to be okay." Before leaving. The girls sat down surrounding Irene whose tears had clouded, Wendy pulled Irene to her as she spoke. "It's Jackson's, Wends what am I going to do." Wendy just hugged her own tears falling at her older sister's plight. "Gosh I was so dumb to go through with it-" "Irene you didn't know about the cheating, he has done you wrong not the other way round and now he's getting his punishment...not having you and that's now his problem. Your main priority is your health and your child, you are going to have double responsibility but you'll get through it because we will help when times get rough. You need to be strong, forget Jackson." Irene looked up at her nodding at the pep talk. "Your right...we need to sort the music out, promote, make music videos as well, I'll see you guys in the morning I want to be out the house by nine." They nodded at her saluting as Irene laughed before walking somewhat confidently to her room the girls sadly smiling after her. "Will she be okay?" Asked Yeri. Suelgi looked at the door that just closed softly, "of course she will...she's Irene." The girls shared one last smile before heading to sleep. Irene lay in her bed, her hand on her stomach. "I'll fight for you baby. Your mother is not weak."

Dawn broke against the dark blanket wrapped around the once blue sky. Irene waking feeling fresh, the pain numbing by the second. She got dressed and made sure her notes were ready before walking out and making breakfast for everyone. The girls woke up to the smell of the aromatic food, which they engulfed before heading out. Irene sat down with all the girls and the manager presenting the group songs. The girls loving the concept and lyrics, the passion equally being shared by their manager. They set to work recording a total of four songs instantly, editing and listening as they took mini breaks in between for food and water. They had been working on the album for the past five hours, proud of what they had accomplished. It did not sound rushed whatsoever and that was because of Irene's brilliant planning as she had already designated everyone's lines and developed the concepts making life easier. Once they finished that Irene sat down in the conference room with everyone again. "This is the album. I've finished the songs and I've written what I want for the music videos... the title of the album is called perspective.... the song titles are 'in case you didn't know', 'Control', 'Lonely Nights', 'Don't leave me tonight' and 'I should have known.'The concept is essentially my thoughts on his perspective at the end of our relationship. The last two songs are more clearly my perspective whilst the others are a blur between mine and his. Here are the lyrics:
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In case you didn't know:
In case you wanna bring those same old things
That I'm not trying to do ah yeah
Don't be sure if you wanna keep riding on this tour a yeah
You know it too yeah
But you keep on moving
Telling you this shit ain't worth it
In case you don't know
I ain't been searching for love since we started to go out yeah
You keep loving me holding me touching me see that your not
Over me
That's not what I wanted don't take it further yeah
Watch out you burning my babe
Don't take a step closer before you go away
I know you'll go away
I know you'll go away
I know you'll go away
I know you'll go away
I know you'll go away
My eyes on the same prize
What I work for every night
You can't do what she do right
She the love of my life
Girl you worry bout the same old things
Guess you didn't know I kinda need them flings
So keep standing over there keep your eyes on me
Or hop in the back take a ride with me
Hop in the back take a ride with me
So many things on your mind but see
Baby know it's ride or die with me
In case you don't know
I ain't been searching for love since we started d to go out yeah
You keep loving me holding me touching me see that your not
Over me
Thats not what I wanted don't take it further yeah
Watch out you burning my babe
Don't take a step closer before you go away

Control
She tell me babe
Call me in may
I think it's too late
New money new ways
Got out my bag,
I'm counting these stacks
Now i won't call unless I'm feeling down
Sometimes I get a little lonely
And I just need someone to hold me
But I'm not giving in I'm over this shit
I only let my mind control me
Yeah
I fell in love with the shit you said
Used to tell myself that everything's okay
Now I'm on my own but I am still okay
Had to change my ways I'm done playing your games
I know, I know, I know
Ohhh
You're boutta come my way
Oh She tell me babe
Call me in may
I think it's too late
New money new ways
Got out my bag,
I'm counting these stacks
Now I won't call unless I'm feeling down
Sometimes I get a little lonely
And I just need someone to hold me
But I'm not giving in I'm over this shit
I only let my mind control me

Don't leave me tonight
I pray that one day you'll leave me, before I leave you
I used to see right through you, now I can't even see you
You said tonight is the last time, I still don't believe you
I hate to know that you don't need me like I need you
Like I need you
And I'm slipping through
Right back to you
Tell me if it's not you
Who's gonna stay here and keep me alive?
And who's here by my side?
Don't leave me tonight
Don't leave me tonight, oh
Why don't you give up on me?
Before I give up on you
Why don't you let go of me?
I just can't let go of you
Make the pain go away
Make me forget the truth
Tell me I'll be okay
I swear I'll believe it, too
Ohh, I swear I'll believe it, too
Yeah, ohh

Lonely Nights
Tell me, tell me, baby, is there something I should know?
If I don't know
Then I'll just go
If you really feel me you should come explain the truth
Let it come from you
So I know it's true
They told me "never trust him"
But I still gave my love to you
And if you're ever feeling hurt
Imagine what I'm going through
These lonely nights
They tell me lies
These lonely nights
These lonely nights
Every minute that I spend I swear I feel alone
You're in my arms
But far from home
Tell me something, why don't you just give up and leave?
It's clear to me that you're not happy when you're with me
I guess it's safe to say the reason why you're playing with me is her
It's her
They told me "never trust him"
But I still gave my love to you
And if you're ever feeling hurt
Imagine what I'm going through
These lonely nights (It's lonely, these lonely nights)
They tell me lies (I don't ever wanna know, know, I know)
These lonely nights (Cause I don't wanna know, these lonely nights)
These lonely nights (These lonely nights, no)

I should have known
I should have known that it would end this way
I should have known there was no other way
Didn't hear your warning
Damn my heart gone deaf
I should have known, look at the shape you're in
I should have known, but I dove right in
One thing is for certain
As I'm standing here
I should have known
Lay your hands in mine
Heal me one last time
Though I cannot forgive you yet
No, I cannot forgive you yet
You leave my heart in debt
I should have known, I was inside of you
I should have known, there was that side of you
Came without a warning
Caught me unaware
I should have known, I've been here before
I should have known, don't want it anymore
One thing is for certain
I'm still standing here
I should have known
Lay your hands in mine
Heal me one last time
Though I cannot forgive you yet
No, I cannot forgive you yet
You leave my heart in debt
No, I cannot forgive you yet
No, I cannot forgive you yet
You leave my heart in debt
I should have known
Maybe you was right
Didn't want a fight
I should have known
Couldn't read the signs
Couldn't see the light
I should have known
Though I cannot forgive you yet
No, I cannot forgive you yet
You leave my heart in debt
No, I cannot forgive you yet
No, I cannot forgive you yet
You leave my heart in debt
No, I cannot forgive you yet
No, I cannot forgive you yet
You leave us all in debt
I should have known
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"So what do you guys think?" Irene asked. They all spoke nothing but praise telling Irene that she had out done herself. She had already started developing the sound and so she got to work on recording the rest watching and listening, helping her record the very best version. She then started working on the album cover pointing out to them exactly what she wanted to show case. It was a picture of a a guy and girl but blurred representing the blurred lines between whose perception this album was about. The girls stood watching Irene who was talking with the man next to her, putting her vision on paper. "She's doing really well." They nodded in agreement with Joy as Irene walked up to them. "So we have the next two weeks to learn the choreography for all our dances and start filming music videos." Wendy grabbed her hand. "That's fine Irene but you need to relax, your over doing yourself again. Sit down for a bit." She nodded as she eased into the seat as she engaged in a conversation with her girls. She was going to be okay. And she was going to be okay for her child.

Jackson was a mess. He was angry at himself. He had lost the love of his life...and he couldn't blame anyone but himself. He had tried contacting her but she seemed to refuse to open his texts. He shut himself off from the boys who glared at him for breaking the heart of the girl who was like a sister them. She looked after them as much as she had taken care of him, and he not only destroyed his relationship with her but theirs too. He woke up to a hangover the start of the punishment under way. He walked out the guys looking at him in concern. Bambam walked up to him. "We are not gonna tell you that you've messed up Jackson we know your aware of that but you need to get yourself together. This is not you...we are your brothers and whilst we are pissed that you've hurt Irene, we can see that you need us as well, so let us be there to help you through it." Jackson finally looked up at all of them, the tears apparent in his eyes, shocking the boys as they stepped forward. "I've lost her." Bambam wrapped his arms around him as Jackson rested his forehead on his shoulders the other boys hugging him in a circle as they broke at the sobs of their brother. They stood their for as long as he needed being the support system he desperately needed. When they broke apart finally he looked at them, "Thank you." He whispered loud enough for them to hear. They patted his back as he sat down turning to his work to find an escape.

Two weeks had passed in a blur. Red velvet releasing their album with music videos following shortly after. They used this as a strategical platform for Irene to hint at her own album, by releasing the cover and keeping everyone in anticipation. She seemed happier, but only she knew how much she was struggling on the inside. He was messaging her everyday...each message different words that caused her heart a dull ache. She had laughed at the fact that he now found the time to message her now they were finished but could never be bothered as their relationship crumbled. It wasn't until Irene hit three months pregnant was the album released. The internet waiting in anticipation. The clock struck midnight, the videos being released alongside the album. It had only been a hour and she hit over a million views and streams. Her heart pounding as people commented their love for the story she portrayed. Her secret story. Her friends celebrated around her, at the success she had achieved but she felt nothing but bittersweetness. She forced a smile on her face soaking up the compliments before leaving the venue, the girls watching in concern.

The boys who had stayed up to watch a movie turned their attention to their phones that were blowing up all seeing the Irene hashtags and her new album. They cast worried looks to Jackson who's eyebrows furrowed at his own screen. "I want to listen to the album..." "Jackson are you sure-" started JB, "Yes...I want to hear it." The boys turned their smart tv to the YouTube section typing in Irene's name and clicking on it. They watched in silence the words razor sharp as they struck Jackson's heart over and over and over again. The concept of the video was cruel to his heart, the second to last song, showing her walking alone and being stood up by the man who represented him only for her to see him with another lady. The last one however was the worst, she bravely stood in front of the camera her tears falling down her cheeks as it flashed in between montages of their story." The album finished playing as he sat with his head in his hands the boys not knowing what to do. He stood up walking back to his room his foot colliding with the gift bag that was left their, he bent down picking it up before walking and sitting on the floor in front of his bed. His hands shook as he opened the gift bag to see two separate gifts, he opened the smaller box to see a ring and a note, he opened the note:

'The ring is the one that you wanted that time that we went out...see I pay attention, it has my name engraved in it, I tried keeping it simple because you like simple stuff.
Happy birthday my love.'

He looked at the ring, seeing her name flash over, he placed it on his finger rubbing her name as he moved to the next larger gift, he opened up a homemade album, it must have taken her hours, each page decorated with a picture of their memories and messages. As he flicked through his tears fell forth and he made no attempt to stop them. He read the last note on one of the pages seeing as she left half of it blank 'The rest are for you to add whatever you want. Happy Birthday, I hope you liked the presents.' He closed his eyes his cries becoming uncontrollable as he sat caressing the album hugging it to his chest. "I'm so sorry." He spoke incoherently. "I'm sorry Babygirl."

Authors note
Hey guys just a heads up  I do not own these songs they are legit, some words I changed to suit the situation but I hope that you like it. Stay tuned for more. I would love to hear your thoughts so do let me know what you think. Lots of love.