It hurts but it's fine. I'm about to break, look into my eyes. Of past memories floating by. Empty promises drifting apart. My heart's more elastic than you know. I can take a hit, let the bullets fly. From your mouth the words start to arise. My head in circles, your words on repeat. Feeling fantasies I must never dream. Hanging on the ledge up high. You held my hand and saved my life. Now throwing rocks, I'm backing up. Placing blame I wish to die. Your hand was soft but full of lies. My sober mind cannot collide. To the reality of what's here, I dread more than I can spare. Your face is in my mind, I'm full of soft cries. Lonely nights, watching time pass by. Slower than your texts combined. Banging fists on my legs, crippling fear of something lost. Sweet but seems so out of touch. Coming to terms is a knife in my chest. Stinging, spreading, I lost all meaning. Of people deep within their depths. A wildfire your love has spread, oblivious to the burns you left. A released balloon kept my mind afloat, drifting without my lack of hope. Far gone, where did I go? Watch myself under the sun, fading away without your smile. Drooping down far below. Looking for a hand to hold. Yours is what I picture. They warn it's a toxic sight, so maybe I have gone blind, of all your small hidden lies. Within my soul, it's become an addiction. An attachment, I'm not sure how to break. Two vases within my heart, a shattered picture, a hard distinction. You and I seemed to collide, I was just your tool in disguise. My mind's blank, losing grip picking out the you and I.

-hannah :)