Sometimes it's hard to even breathe.
I feel like I'm sinking,
Or hanging off a cliff,
Waiting to fall,
But wanting to fly.
I can't seem to clear my head.
And every mistake I make,
I can't never forgive myself.
And even when I'm close to you,
I'll never tell you everything.
I'm scared to trust,
Because I know I'll be let down.
And even when I say I'm okay,
I'm actually dying in all my pain.
If only you could read my thoughts,
You might actually understand.
I worry too much,
Care about every little thing,
That's probably my problem.
You can say 'I love you'
And I'll think you hate me.
I hate the way I look.
I can't even be with people,
Before I start to panic.
Everyone thinks I'm crazy,
And maybe I am.
I'm counting the days till it's over.
I'm not suicidal,
Life is just isn't for me.
I'm drowning in all
My thoughts.

-hannah