This chapter is dedicated to _aestheticdeath_ what an amazing soul❤️❤️my star⭐️

Melody's POV

We had the best honeymoon trust me I can't believe it too Paul spoiled me rotten and even got gifts for Freddie and Tia and their kids.

I didn't want to go because I enjoyed Bali so much...but we had to...so we packed and went back home we agreed to sleep in separate rooms...Ok, I lied I told him we needed to do this while we working on us, and eventually, we will share a room and a bed.....

Paul's house was huge and nice I actually loved it...we settled in and when he showed me my room...

"I love it, Paul"

"I knew you would.....you've always had this weird obsession with pink "

"it's not weird "

"here's your closet some stuff are new some are your stuff from your parents"

"thank you, babe"

"there's a small lab at the basement for your photos and stuff it's not a lot but..." he didn't finish that sentence I kissed him...

"thank you, Paul "

"Anything for you"

Then he left...

Our rooms were next to each other his house was big but not as lonely as our house, at first it was weird especially after that night of passion but we totally swept that under the carpet...he worked really hard and I love spending time with him and his niece Lea she's beautiful and looks a lot like him but what do I know..

I still need to tell him about the abortion but I Dont have the guts to...

The dinner party at Mr. Parkinsons went well even though my mom kind of got to me...anyway

He came home late from work, I cooked for him and we sat down and ate tonight was the night Pauls mom came to fetch Leah, we haven't made love since that day we both agreed to take baby steps after he explained how Jason played him again and how he still doesn't trust him. I actually told him about the night at the Parkinson's and he said he will prove my mom wrong.

We really have been trying to get along he promised to make sure I thrive in my work too so we have been looking for top photography schools so I learn more about my passion. We settled for New York Film Academy and the registration for the online photography course was a success but still had to go to finalize some things...

"I have to tell you something Melody"

"Okay what's wrong"

"Leah is my daughter not niece"

"oh I know that "

"what"

"Yeah I'm FBI you can't hide stuff from me" I was lying I had guessed she was.

"you Dont hate me"

"no, I understand some things are complicated" I understood because I have a secret too and I know how bad it is...

"thank you, it's been hard with the business my parents "

"I know trust me....and you're welcome "

"I wanted the right time to tell you "

"I know what a child out of wedlock will do to our "image" so I understand why you hid her"

"Fiona hurt me....then she just left and the last time I saw her was when she brought Lea"

"Have you looked for her "

"no, clearly she doesn't want to be found"

"Ohh okay...."

"Why did you love me in high school," Paul asked that was so random...we are talking about him and Fiona...

"I had a crush on you for a year before we dated I always pictured what it would have been like kissing you "

"really why didn't you say anything "

"so you and your friends could make fun of me no thanks "

I went to my room and slept hoping that next week will be a great week.

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Monday Morning

Paul woke me up and said its a celebratory breakfast for my first day at school Paul is weird....so I went to shower and wore something nice.

"you do know you're overdressed right"

"not my fault I look hot "
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we laughed and had breakfast when I was done he threw keys at me...

"whats this"

"your new car from us "

"us who"

"me and Leah"

I ran to him and hugged him which ended up in a very intense moment we kissed so much I thought we would make love right there on the kitchen counter I  needed to stop now...

"thanks "

Then left and got in my new Porsche cayenne a white one I felt like such a badass .....I'm supposed to go for lunch with Tia before she kills me I haven't seen her since that interview.

I got to school and finalized everything. I am finally doing something with my life and I couldn't be more proud thank God Pual believes in me or this would have been harder I need to thank him properly.

I got a call from Melai Art Gallery the well known Melai she wanted to see me and not talk via a phone call we are meeting Wednesday at 10 am. I was so excited I really hope it's because of my work and not just the man I'm married to...

It was 3 pm time for lunch.. . yes lunch with Tia.

I walked in at one of our favorite restaurants and she was waiting for me.

"Girl look at you, if I didn't know better id say you're pregnant"

"Hey girl and please shut up"

We sat down and I ordered cheese fries and double cheeseburger and she had a chicken salad.

"Really Tia"

"Look I need to get rid of the baby fat"

"oh please "

"so how's the married life "

"not bad.."

"omg you two totally had sex"

I looked around blushing...

"It was only one time at Bali it was nice, okay but totally one time "

She was screaming dancing happy

"did you at least use condoms"

"omg T I totally forgot"

"what" she was laughing

"We got lost in the moment and I didn't even think I swear we didn't "

"you mean to tell me you had sex with your husband a month ago and forgot to use a condom.....are you on the pill"

"why would I be on a pill when 1. I didn't have a man and 2 .you know what they do to me..."

"congratulations to me I'm going to be an aunt"

"I need wine," I said

"Oh shut up you're a grown-ass woman and you will make a great mom"

"Thanks, T"

"aunty," she said laughing I'm fucked imagine him leaving me pregnant what if he wanted sex but if he wanted sex only wouldn't he have left already.... my head is about to explode...

The food arrived and when I say I attacked them I did and she tried to have my fries oh hell no she must stick to her rabbit food.

"ohhh now I can't move"

"serves you right bitch couldn't even give me 1"

" you are a hater t"

"you look happy I am happy you're not miserable and I'll have a niece or nephew soon so I'm okay"

"I thought I'd be too but he's been amazing he really wants me to forgive him"

"he's just as in love as you are "

" I hope soT"

"Friday we should go out for drinks okay hit the club celebrate "

"what about Freddie"

"he had it 4 weeks back it's my turn we take turns "

"aaaaw okay id love to"

After that, I paid for our food and she took me to my car and I drove to the store and got some pregnancy tests.

He works very hard sometimes feel bad for him by the time he comes back he sleeps on the couch too tired to get up, it's nice though how hard he works.

I went to shower and got in bed watching Netflix You is my favorite I'm obsessed ill take the test first thing in the morning ...he came in my room and asked if I'm okay and I told him I bought him pizza didn't feel like cooking so he thanked me and left.

My feelings for him scare me I know it's been 8 years but I guess I never really dealt with the pain I just packed it away you can't hold in pain for too long and now I might be pregnant with his child...which terrifies me....maybe that's why I'm postponing taking the tests...I took out of the phone and checked Flo that period tracking app.....fuck it says I should have had my period 6 weeks back.....this can't be happening.....