Dedicated to TheEnigmaticJesse and Bridgette3005 my favorite future psychologists and new friend itz_anji ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

When we walked into our hotel I wanted to pass out when I say God is an artist guys I mean what the hell this is breathtaking....

"you love it don't  you"

"I do " for the first time I smiled

"you need to take a picture of this babe"

"1 I am not your babe
2. I forgot my fucken camera

"that mouth Mel"

"sorry"

"wait I got you something "

He went inside to look for something .....he interrupted my thoughts

"This is for you"

"if it's a bomb we will both be meeting our creator so don't try me, Paul"

he laughed a bit" I love that you still have that weird sense of humor"

I had to roll my eyes because I'm hilarious and I know that.

fine back to the story I start shaking the box it's kind of heavy but I opened it and when I saw my first love I cried happy tears it was

"wow, Paul it's... it is amazing how did you even....do you know how many pixels? oh my God, this is what I wanted but couldn't afford it" I was so excited I nearly had sex with him that moment.

"I know you've always loved photography, so when Tia called asking bout your camera I told her not to worry...... "

"uhm thanks Paul. But "

"but nothing Mel"

"I can't take this but thank you"tried to walk away but he pulled me back to his chest and held me as I cried thinking of what actually happened that night I gave him my virginity.

"I'm sorry for reminding you, I'm so sorry for hurting you I was an asshole and trust me karma won't give me a break I deserve it though you were amazing you still are" then he looked at me and wanted to kiss me but I moved back I can't trust myself around him he still has that effect on me.....8 fucken years later.

"I just never knew I needed to hear that apology ......i....i need to go freshen up thanks for the gift I love it "

"wait, " he said

"you need to take it everywhere it's time the world saw life through your lenses and how talented you are"

I  nodded took the camera left but this time he let me go and I put the camera on the bed to shower...i don't feel like going anywhere I just wanted to sleep so after my shower I wore my PJs then sat down watching some tv.

"Those pjz ......"

I ignored him and watched tv

"are you hungry "

"yeah a bit"

"We can go out and grab a bite to eat"

"I'm sorry raincheck? I'm tired I just want to sleep "

"ill order something for us if you're not going I'm not going too"

"thanks"

He ordered food for us and we enjoyed it in silence, I Dont want to talk just yet.... ill test my camera tomorrow and I can't wait to site see.

After eating we threw the containers away and watched tv I would catch him looking at me.

"Why are you looking at me like that"

"Just thinking "

"of ways to screw me over again," I said that with a devious smile

"ill sleep on the couch it's big and looks comfortable you can have the bed " that's all he said and walked to the bathroom may be to shower he came out wearing pants only his hair was dripping does he have to look so good.

fuck

"Now who's the creep"

I looked away embarrassed and he laughed at me but I rolled my eyes and told him goodnight...

"oooooooooh my God Paul help me "I was screaming and literally jumped on him while he was sleeping on the couch...

"what the fuck Melody"

"its...its big yellow and black it looks like it could kill...."

"what"

"creepy Crawley..."

"what"

"a spider Paul"

"So you fucken woke me up at 3 am because you're scared of a spider really Mel" he ran his hand over his face his hair was a mess my word he looks hot...

"I'm sorry okay please kill it or something anything really"

But I was literally on top of him his member poking my cooch and he wasn't complaining so thank you Mr 8 legs....no focus

"Fine I'll go check can you Uhm"

"ohhh sorry" I laughed embarrassed trying to pull my pjz down maybe they are too short ...

He stood up and I couldn't help admiring him he's back oh my God when did he get hotter I'm drooling I couldn't  help but laugh he looks scared of the spider too....but he took it and threw it out the window...

"thank you, Paul"

"you're welcome can I get my bed back"

"Sorry about earlier... okay can you uhm"

"what" he looked annoyed but he chose this life so whatever

"come join me in the bed what-if there are more"

"8 legged monsters"

"Don't laugh at me those things are scary"

"Yeah I'm totally scared babe"

"please we can put pillows between us so we don't...touch"

"that wouldn't be such a bad thing Mel"

"you are impossible Paul "

"fine but I have conditions too"

I rolled my eyes ready to hear what he has to say

"no, I won't have sex with you "

"not sex why is everything about sex with you"

"say it"

"I sleep on the bed for the rest of our time here in case we have other 8 legged monsters"

"fine as long as you Dont touch me" He rolled his eyes

Soon we were in bed

"Mel"

"so your other fear of spiders started from the janitors room"

"yes you asshole you locked us there for hours"

"im sorry I needed more time with you"

"yeah we had a good time" then I remembered prom and had to shut down

"nightPaul "

"night Mel I'm sorry and qomt stop till you believe me"

I woke around 7 am the following day and showered put my hair is in a messy bun and wore shorts and a  top no bra...

I went to the kitchen and made noise so he wakes up and he did he just froze looking at me my boobs decided it would be fun to act up underneath the top fuck now I'm the embarrassed one but still won't show him.

I told him we are having breakfast in 30 minutes and he agreed so he showered and wore shorts and a simple t-shirt with flip flops .what we saw when we were taken to the breakfast spot was breathtaking...

I didn't forget my camera so I took a few pictures...we had a nice conversation and enjoyed our delicious breakfast....paparazi seriously they took pictures of us and thought we wouldn't notice I rolled my eyes and he laughed.

"for 5 years my beautiful wife"

"what 5 years is it too late to run away"?

"ill run after you"

"so corny euw "

Then he came to me and kissed me passionately dammit my boobs calmed down and now.....urgh I hate this guy but hes lips omg he's kisses send me straight to heaven..

He pulled back we both tried to catch our breath...

"we....uhm we need to talk about that"

"about what"

"....really you need to stop kissing me like that I mean without warning "he had a good laugh showcasing his perfect dimples does he have to be so fucken hot all the fuckem time I hate him .....I made a mental note remember I need a serious meeting with my heart, feelings, and emotions we have to all be in sync .

"sorry he just didn't stop looking so I gave him something to look at I don't like warning you and won't promise I will "

After that, I couldn't answer and held out his hand and we left holding hands

"There is something I want to show you "

"what you wanna feed me to the sharks "

"very funny babe"

"uh uh I'm not babe melody"

"Sorry baby"

I made a weird face and he laughed we had a nice day finally he took me to his favorite place Kanto lamp waterfall...

"oh my God Paul"

"I love Bali and when I come here for business I always come here to pray "

"you pray" while taking pictures 

"no, I just pretend to pray "
He rolled his eyes

" I wonder what you pray for"

"for you to forgive me" I stopped taking pictures and looked at him...

"Mmmmm  smooth operator "

"do you want to go near it and take more pics"

"what if I slip and fall and die I'm  not ready to die I still need to have kids with Tom Payne"

He laughed but I wasn't  making a joke what's funny I raised my eyebrow

"that's not funny"

"ohhh okay sunshine"

We walked to the place and I went there first asked him not to break my baby and to take nice pictures.

I started stripping down and I was left with my thong

"what the hell Melody"

"what "

"Why do you strip I'm not taking pictures of you half-naked"

"and why not " this time I'm walking towards him I totally forgot my boobs are on display and stood in front of him where the hell did I get the confidence just showing him what his missing...

"can you.....uhm can you wear something "

"after you take my pics" then I walked to the spot and winked at him laughing

He took pictures and when he was done I wore everything and walked to him

"aaaaw baby you're too quiet," I said smiling

"ill pay you back for this melody"

When he stood up his friend was excited and wasn't calming down I laughed at him the whole way back to our room...

We walked to our room and ate some dinner then showered and back to bed this time we just laid there....

"Keep your hands to yourself"

Then I switched off the lights...

"wait before you pass out"

"what paul"

"Why haven't you done anything with your pictures"

"I was convinced it's a waste of time"

"Yet you went to workshops and worked your butt off"

"I'm scared okay"

"Of what exactly you feisty lioness"

"You haven't forgotten "

"That you are a Leo "

"Yeap Mr. Gemini"

"Just like you haven't forgotten I'm a Gemini"

"I'm scared of rejection and not being enough my mom says I'm not worth anything and I believe her "

"rejection is a teacher and you are always enough and your mom was just saying that to hurt you "

"Thank you, Rumi"

"anytime sleep, tight babe"

"you too Paul"

How does he do that calm me down and make me feel like this? Maybe he did change...