This chapter is dedicated to wendies20 if I start talking about this Angel ill cry so lets get on with the book🤧🤧🤧😭😭😭😭

40 weeks...

At this point, I really know why penguins walk like that cause goodness this baby ,I roll out of bed literally...I still stay with Rosie told Paul I'm still not ready to go to his house yet.

If one more person fucken asks me when am I giving birth, ill give birth in Prison.

"Rosie" I called her

"Yes dear"

"Please help me I can't do this "

I cried to her it's been a week since I last saw Paul at the baby shower I told him we just need a little time apart and he didn't pressurize me,  it hurts so much because we could be together but I had a point to prove...sex was supposed to induce labor now I'm doing it the hard way fuck...we talked and Rosie told me he set up the baby shower it's sweet I forgave him I just needed time...

My mother has been harassing me with calls and messages asking if I have given birth why is that her business?

" It's fucken too early for this" blocked urgh

"Yes you can my angel let's go shower "she helped me shower then gave me clothes.

Today is the final checkup I'm 9 months 40 weeks to be exact....pregnant arne must just find a way to get out ...

Mr.Marks came in while I was eating and Rosie went to fetch her car keys and bag.

"I haven't had the chance to talk to you"

"About?"

"I'm sorry for what I said"

"I've lived with a witch or 26 years who constantly brought me down and abused me and you think your comment might break me? Nope it just bounced off me at this rate nothing can break me, now if you Dont mind I need to get this baby out"

Before he could respond I left him standing there with his mouth wide open then told Rise ill wait for her in the car.

Finally, Rosie came and she asked me what she missed I said nothing, I was feeling too annoyed to talk so she smiled and drove us to the hospital where Dr. Miller was waiting for us.

She checked and said I can be admitted because I felt pain but it wasn't contractions this felt like someone was cutting me from the inside why didn't I tell Rosie last night.

We are at the hospital now and she gave me Cytotec it's meant to induce labor...

A few hours later the pains are getting crazy and that pain is worse than before told Dr miller and she notified the nurses I had a contraction but I'm only 3 I'm dilated what the hell arne...

I'm walking around in my room ready to jump out the window I want ice, no note ice I want coffee, but not coffee a soda, I Dont know I climb on the bed and the nurses calm me down asking me to lie down can you lie down when your Insides are on fire this nurse must be high...

"Can I have pain meds"

"No you're in labor it's normal the pill we gave you is working "

"Will I get arrested if I punch you "

The nurse laughed and ran away when she realized I was serious ..Rosie came in

"Rosie I'm dying I'm telling you"

"No angel you are not you'll be okay"

"Please call Paul please"

"Yes we are looking for him okay be will be here "

I nodded... I hate him now but I need him...no I need to squeeze his dick and his balls and make sure he doesn't make me pregnant again...urghhhhhhhh...

I calmed down but they came back again it's been 18 hours maybe is it punishment for the thoughts I had about my mom ... the doctor came 3 cm dilated it didn't move are you fucken kidding me.

They gave me a sedative because I need to sleep as everyone left ... I slept for literally 10 minutes I was tossing and turning the pain was driving me nuts and 3 cm dilation isn't helping.

"Baby please work with me please baby boy "I rubbed my tummy...

I checked the time and it was 7 am omg I've been here for almost 30 hours in labor this can't be healthy right? I remembered Paul screaming from the sting of the starfish I laughed and cried...

The nurse came in and I had to lie still while they put the hospital fetal heart monitor to check Arne's heartbeat ....the doctor was called and when she came she said his heartbeat isn't strong anymore and they need to have an emergency Caesarian ...

I didn't plan for this I've been exercising to have my vaginal delivery no I've never had surgery and this is not happening but my son needs it.......where the fuck is Paul I asked Dr. Miller to call my family but they were already outside ...

I was getting prepped for theater and I heard the doctor say...Mr. Marks I thought it was his father but Paul came in and he ran to me and hugged me I hugged him back he kept saying sorry ... we will finish this later right now I need this to go smoothly.

He got changed into scrubs and joined as the doctor helped me with the epidural God bless the person that made this I'm in heaven I can't feel a thing ...Paul's balls are safe🤷🏾‍♀️

They were busy with me and I felt a strong kind of pressure on my ribs when they removed him he cried so much his lungs seem strong enough... they brought him to me and I cried happy tears and Paul carried him but he needs to get checked.

My eyes felt heavy so I closed them I felt people shouting from a distance God I love you just please don't take me yet ....finally my eyes opened and they said "she's back"

She explained how I lost a lot of blood but they managed to spot where it came from and what caused it thankfully I didnt need a blood transfusion because the iodine in my IV helped.

After I was cleaned and stuff then was taken to my room found Paul crying "I'm so sorry I nearly lost you again"

"I know babe it's okay"

"He's perfect like you thank you for being so strong  "

"Thank you, babe " a tear fell down and he wiped and kissed me

My eyes felt heavy.....I was drained I didn't sleep for about 30 hours and now I need a nap.

"I can see you're sleepy take a nap I'll talk to you again okay"

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The following morning......

I nodded and slept for a few hours I got woken up by the pain the epidural had worn off and let me tell you it's like someone punched me ....shit

After the nurse gave me pain meds I was helped up and I had to be cleaned and stuff, getting up I looked down maybe my tummy is on the floor cause it felt like it.

I had to walk around to avoid blood clots and stuff and I had to suck it up walking in the room I saw Paul with Arne🥺I love the way he looks at what he loves, with so much passion I wish I had my camera it's moments like these.....

I couldn't help but smile how can you hate and love someone at the same time...he saw me and put him on his bed and helped me to lie on the bed.

"I'm sorry for what I did and said you didn't deserve it you are the best thing to ever happen to me and Lea showed me just how much I don't deserve you "

"How many times should we start over Paul" I smiled that's he's line

"As much as we need"

" I love you," he said smiling

" I love you too" damn

He smiled and I smiled too seeing our son we thought of Lea and promised to never keep secrets , Arne was crying and Paul picked him up again trying to calm him down and kissed him...

"Dont kiss him please no germs" 

"Daddy doesn't have germs only love"

We both laughed as Rosie and Tia joined us it was a nice day they left but I'm so happy they came and supported us. I fell asleep and got woken up by two voices.

"Melody needs help so you need to do a lot for her till she has healed okay"

"Yea mom"

"You've put her through enough next time you do that I'll kill you and I'm not joking"

"Yes mom"

"Now, I'm going home call me when you need anything"

"Will do"

She kissed my cheek and arne then she left.

"My mom loves you more than me you know"

"I'm happy she does. at least she can help"

"How is he"

"Sleeping the bottle helped I bathed him burped him and changed his charcoal diaper" scrunching up his nose...

"You better get used to it "

"Anything to win you back"

He fed him again and held him for a while....

I fell asleep again....and well he slept on the couch near me because I won't share this bed with him...

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