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I got woken up by loud women singing happy....they are happier than me and it is my wedding the irony ... My neck is stiff and sore so I got up to stretch my mom came in and looked at me like I make her sick I rolled my eyes.....then she took me to the bathroom and made me strip what the hell.

I was butt naked and she looked at my boobs

"they look nice, perky and full "then down at my coochie

"have you ever heard of a Brazilian wax what the hell is this.........now I see why you Dont have a man or a life "

What does she know about a Brazilian wax actually forget I Dont want to know!...

When I'm with my mom I can't stop rolling my eyes...

"no"

She went to her bag and took out a razor who the hell carries a razor in their bag....wow

"Oh hell no I know you are not about to shave me"

"I am....come here now"

"no mom"

"if you Dont sit still ill call your father"

The last thing I need is my dad reminding me how much I am a failure just because I Dont want to shave how the two things are connected only he understands...

"fine "

She shaved me....just like that, I saw her shaving me my mom is...shaving me with her razor I hope she doesn't rip my coochie out she's crazy but that's a topic of another day...

"dont cut my coochie "

"shut up Loni"

"I hate that name ma"

"I know now shut up so we can finish and get you married"

"Why do you hate me ma"

She kept quiet when she was done she instructed me to shower and I did then got dressed in a robe I sat down in her room and some nice lady got busy with my hair straightened it, then she made a nice Dutch braid with nice pearl pins....when she was done another lady did my make up.

"ouch"

"Sorry babe please sit still while I put these eyelashes"

when she was done I could barely recognize the lady looking back at me... I smiled the only wish I had was I wish It was real...

My mom came with a lady and dressed me I told her I'm hungry but she said I can't eat because I need to fit in my dress...when she was done the dress was white with lace I have never seen a perfect dress it hugged my curves and showed way too much cleavage...

I tried pulling it up but that didn't help my boobs were like two grapefruits I swear they were about to fall out of my dress. when I was done my dad came to take me to the venue...

I looked back at the house I used to call home....all the bittersweet memories I made in that house today my life changes forever and I'm scared because I don't know what to expect....we drove in silence like my dad couldn't look at me or talk to me losing him still hurts he used to be my everything together with Paul but they both hurt and gave up on me...we finally arrived at the venue and we got out.

He held my hand like a caring father when we got out the car it was breathtaking.... we got out and he walked me down the aisle with our hands nicely intertwined...if all this was real...

The hall was packed over a thousand people who the hell are these people...my dad pinched my arm and said smile...so I did what I was told.....my cheeks were hurting from this stupid smile and I saw him....the devil himself stood there looking fuckin hot...

He's so hot the suit fits him perfectly, his pink lips, I can just imagine those nice firm hands all over my......, no, no Melody he's the enemy remember focus...urgh

Why why does he have to look so hot and why isn't he upset like I am urgh....smile I reminded my self.

He was smiling too I wonder if it's as uncomfortable to him as it is to me...when we got to him my dad joined our hands and we stood there side to side but before he could do anything he pecked my lips...WTH...and the crowd said "aaaawwww" I felt sick maybe if I threw up in his mouth I'd get a pass.

My dad must-have seen me cause he gave me a death stare...

He held me as he cared and the priest began " we are gathered here today" fuck this is really happening.

I drifted off to a nice place...but then remembered how this idiot broke my heart and humiliated me in front of the whole school.

He squeezed my ass to wake me up the crowd laughed I couldn't react wanted to punch him ......and he knew it too because he smirked urg....we said our vows and when I saw the ring I loved it I mean everything is amazing I only wish it was real though.....

when we were done we went to the rooms somewhere in the venue and my mother was waiting and I had to change to the other white dress with a nice slit in the front I felt sexy I might make out with one of Paul's friends.

We got to the reception and I spoke to a few people... Justine Jazin was our photographer we spoke a bit and I told her how much I love her work she was here with her wife...when we were done I went back to my "husband"  Justine knew so much about me even the fact that I'm into photography and she even gave me her card she said Paul told her....i wonder why...

We had the dance and he looked at me

"hi"

Hi really hi after 8 years and after screwing me all he can say is hi bloody idiot ...

"Hi"

"We need to sell this you see the gentlemen looking at us now they own us"

I rolled my eyes...

All my life I've been told how to behave when to smile or laugh where to go etc so when he told me I decided not to fight him and just do as I was told the last thing I need is my mom to humiliate me in front of these strangers.

"Okay"

Then he turned me around holding me by my waist with his chin on my shoulder then he turned me around again and kissed me so passionately I almost believed him the "oohs and awws" we heard helped us wake up from that trance. Why did it feel good?

Why the hell did I enjoy that kiss I wanted to cry .... but we continued dancing he was touching me all over and every time I felt like punching him I saw those men and I smiled at them...

My dad made his speech, then my mom lying to her friends that she loves me....even cried she without a doubt deserves an Oscar...

After what felt like 50 hours the last man-made his speech it was one of the men in grey suits, the ones that "own" us.

"We at Parkinson's would like to congratulate the beautiful young couple on their wonderful wedding we can't believe he's married and we are giving you an all-expenses-paid honeymoon to Bali in one of our hotels  for 2 weeks hope you enjoy it"

"thank you," we said in unison.

People were going crazy clapping our parents were very happy, I, on the other hand, felt so much pain I excused myself to the bathroom after reliving my self Paul was waiting for me what the hell does he want.

"Thank you"

"For what"

"Not mentioning what I did to your parents"

"Whatever Paul"

"We were young okay"

"Fine can we go back inside I honestly Dont want to talk about that now"

I left him standing there he must be out of his mind if he thinks I'll forgive and forget I'm not crazy...then we went back inside.

This has been a long day and I can't wait to sleep because I'm tired of all of this ... when it was done we were told to sleep at the couple's suite and we should be ready because tomorrow we are going for our honeymoon YAY we sad our goodbyes and I can see how happy my mom is that I won't annoy her anymore...

We got to the room and there's only one bed and there's champagne so I decided to drink my sorrows away while Paul just sat there looking at me.

I needed to bath so when I got into the bathroom and saw this... I felt like having an assasin to finish me off...

I hated it but loved it again because it was so romantic and sweet just what I would do if?..?...I took out my phone and took pictures and texted Tia ill call her.

I finished bathing wore my underwear and robe... I really needed the champagne. He just sat there looking at me...

"why Paul....why did you marry me" he paused a bit

"I need to make it up to you okay"

"you expect me to believe that this isn't about money"

"melody can you calm down"

"You care more about money than your own happiness" I was screaming and crying

"You don't know me anymore Melody so don't judge me"

"I do know you, you are a selfish pig who only uses women I hate you and even after those years I still hate you"

"I'm going to drink with my friends I'll see you later I won't listen to this shit I have enough on my plate " he looked like he wanted to kill me

"What could be more important than this Paul"

"You know what fuck you, Melody". He said that then stormed off. I threw the cup at the door and it broke why did I do that urgh I got up and picked the pieces up and drank the champagne straight from the bottle because my stress levels are going crazy right now God please give me strength.....

Wait a minute did that fool just say fuck you to me I was about to go after him and remembered my parents...

So I sat down and called Tia because I need to talk to someone......