This chapter is dedicated to akratidwivedi14, my angels together with wendies20 ❤️❤️...

A week later......

Paul is still not talking to me...

A week has passed and It was another day but things were the same Paul isn't talking to all of us he's not home he isn't at work he has totally disappeared I miss him I love him so much I hope he knows I  didn't mean to hurt him...

Yeap Tia was ready to rip my head off I couldn't take calls I was tired.

I was in bed tired and ended up drifting off to sleep...

My phone rang shit its Tia......and I was happy thinking it's Paul but it was Tia she wanted to face time me and I answered or she will kill me literally,

"What the fuck Melody"

"I'm sorry T.....I was I mean I...."

"Shut up Melody and listen to me"

After scolding me for 30 minutes she said she was coming to see me at Rosie's house.

I opened for her and she came in and hugged me...

"I don't know what to do " crying my eyes out

"He will come around he's mourning he just found out something that hurt him maybe he even blames himself "

"I know but I matter too, we matter too(rubbing my huge belly )I went to Dr miller alone he was supposed to be there he promised me, T.

"I know I'm sorry to give him time if you ever shut be out again ill kill you...bitch" she smiled

"I need to get it together for Arne, I'm sorry okay" she nodded

"Aaaaw what a cute name "

"Lea gave it to him"

"Awwwww"

"He's acting like an asshole now but he's in pain and you kept that from him I'm not saying it's okay but "

"I know Tia I just can't take it back I made a promise to Rosie and that moment I chose her "

"Yeah, and it sucks I know but it will pass okay Freddie has divorced me maybe 10 times " I chuckled...

"Thank you crazy Bitch"

Just then I remembered the letters and I yawned and told her I'm going to take a nap we said our goodbyes after a while and she left.

Got to my bag and removed my letter

Dear Melody

I just want to say I love you for my dad he never used to be happy I mean me being sick was like he gave up on life or love or both.....but you gave him something to live for again.

Please take care of him for me
1. He's a big baby

2. When he's hurt he hurts others too I've tried telling him to tone it down but he doesn't listen I guess in life you feel better by hurting people who are helping you to heal....but that's a messed up coping mechanism you don't deserve that.

3.He loves you so much with all his heart so when he's inlove with you there's no one but you

4. Please don't call my little brother Paul junior that's euw

5.Granny tried to be tough she needs love too cause grandpa has his own life.

6. Take care of yourself too I'll be looking down at you from heaven so don't worry about anything okay.

That was the most important point, but If you miss me just know I'm  here always.

Love you so much
Lea,

P.S Aunt Jessi helped me with the letter(TheEnigmaticJesse )she's a true angel.

I cried so much and showed Rosie who cried with me ,so we made a vow to always be there for each other.

I told her I needed to see Paul at first she didn't like that idea but then she said I'll just have to be careful I agreed and left.

I drove to our house and saw Paul's car thank God it's time he saw these letters too.

I got out and found him in the study

"You dont  have to say anything lea gave me  before she passed on , and said I should give them to you please read them when you are sober, I'm so sorry I hurt you I didn't mean to hurt you it was so hard being close to you knowing what I knew......it was so hard for me because I love you hope one day you forgive me"

He put his glass down picked it up again and it flew above my head and crashed on the floor this is what's Lea was talking abut..he's been drinking nonstop.

But he scared me.

And I can't be around him he might harm me and Arne I need to think of my unborn child.

He didn't say anything there was nothing in his eyes no Paul nothing I closed the door swallowed the last tears that threatened to fall and took some stuff and left.

I got to Rosie's house and she had cooked I ate with her and told her how it went she was surprised she told me everything will be okay and said goodnight and left me alone I took leas letter and framed it and put it near my dressing table when I was done I got in my bed and went through my phone...

Seeing all our pictures I cried he was so happy pictures of him and Lea ....and of us when we went to the park, his awesome office view and everything else that made him laugh ...

There's a video I took of him when I pranked him I asked him to get me water and put paint in our cupboard when he opened it the paint fell on his head and paint was all over his favorite shirt ...

He chased me around the house doing what I hate tickling my feet I could hear us laughing happier looking at those pictures I remembered why I fell inlove with photography those moments don't last forever but the picture captures the moment and keeps it forever no matter what and you can always relive them ....looking at the pictures...urgh

I miss him I miss our fights I miss him fussing over what I'm wearing I know I'll have him back ill just give him time...

So I went through them over and over again, but I heard Rosie and her husband fighting about Paul and what happened.

When they were done he left and I went to check if she's okay we hugged and I told her this will pass...finally I got in my bed and called Tia but she couldn't answer I knew she was busy so I sent her a text saying I was just checking on her I took my laptop and copied all my favorite things that I wanted to print.

All our pictures and I saw Leas ohhh, my poor baby...Then I remembered her letter I know she's here and she will help Paul I Dont want to give up on him not yet...

He believed in me when my parents gave up on me and he nbr told me I'm useless he showed me what I coukmtnseebin myself an for that I love him...

After I was done I fell asleep.

Things got better for me and Rosie, sometimes Tia joined us they wanted to make me feel better and I felt better I missed Paul but I know we will find our way to back to each other again....

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