6 weeks has passed since Pauls shooting he's doing do well it washard seeing him in pain but he's feeling better and everything at work is going well too he's so excited that my baby bump has grown I did warn you guys that he is weird...

We stayed at the hotel for a few days after the shooting ,while they sorted our house out it was scary being there the first few days but it got better .

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16 weeks checkup

Today was the day we finally find out the sex even though I know I mean lea told me I just want to see this rascal making me crazy...
Paul wasn't going to work.

"Wait Dont get up"

"Why Paul "

He was taking a picture.

After the session.

We showered together and got ready...

"Are you done paul we are going to be late"

"Oh really now you're saying that I've been sitting here for 30 minutes waiting for your cute ass"

"Whatever"

We got in the car and he drove us to the doctor the ride was loud because we kept rapping to the classic "what a man by salt and pepper"...omg we went crazy rapping...

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Yes, my man says he loves me, never says he loves me not
Tryin' to rush me good and touch me in the right spot
See other guys that I've had, they tried to play all that mac shit
But every time they tried I said, "That's not it"
But not this man, he's got the right potion.....

Before we knew it we were looking for parking at Dr. Miller's office and just as we found it he parked and opened the door for me we walked in.

There were like 5 Pregnant women there and we found a nice 2 seater couch which we took and paul went to put my name down so I get called as soon as they are done with the others.

"Are you nervous"

"A bit I mean when Fiona was pregnant I didn't even know so I get to experience it and I won't let anything stop me this time"

The mention of Fiona made my blood cold I didn't know what to say knowing what I know I mean...

"Okay" then smiled at him

He held my hand and kissed the back and told me he's not going anywhere. It feels good that he's here and is excited I just feel bad for what I know why did Rosie tell me though...

"Mrs. Marks"

"That's us "then we both stood up and we were shown where to go.

I walked in first and we sat down at the chairs facing her

"Welcome you are here for your 16 weeks check upright"

"Yes"

"Any concerns you have," Dr. Miller asked

"No just the usual I'm always tired eat a lot and he's addicted to cheese," I said laughing.

"Can you lie on the bed and pull your dress up"

I went to the bed pulled my dress up and she covered the exposed part with a towel she gave us and applied cold clear gel on my tummy and started looking for the little bean...

His heartbeat was the first thing we heard and we looked at each other smiling.

"Congratulations you are having a boy"

"Awww little Paul "

"Oh hell no we are not naming our son paul"

We both laughed he wiped the gel off me and we stood up and got ready, the doctor prescribed a few vitamins for me telling me the tests were okay.

We went back to the car and Paul was quite,

"Are you okay "

"I just feel overwhelmed in a good way just thought of what I missed with lea and soon she will leave us"

"What"

"Yeah I can tell she's getting weaker her little body can't fight cancer anymore "

Moment of silence what do you say to the person you love...seeing him so broken is so hard for me.

"Here " I handed him the scan

He laughed so much...

"Every time you feel down please look at that and let it be a reminder that a mini you is on the way and we love you "

"Thank you melody you....you're the best thing to ever happen to me after Lea"

" We are here for you okay"

He kissed me and said thank you as we drove away....he wanted donuts so we parked near Dunkin donuts and he bought some I Dont know but his boy hates sweet things I can't stand them...

"Dont look at me like that," he said

"Please dont"

"We will go get your cheesy fries and steak"

" I love your love language "

He laughed and we went to get some food and when we got home my mother was waiting for us.

This was a good day....but. Urgh

"Mrs. Ackles"

"Good day my boy "

I rolled my eyes and went to put our things down I started eating ignoring her while she spoke to Paul honestly why can't she....got interrupted maybe because I was being bad God forgive me for my evil thoughts.

"You should stop eating fries look, how fat you are" looking at me

"In case you didn't know I'm  pregnant"

"Is Paul the father, you trapped the poor boy"

"Why are you here because I know, you Dont miss me"

She laughed and that moment the evil thoughts came again God please forgive me...

"We are having a party that's good for our image I need you and Paul next week Saturday "

"You didn't have to come all the way here to tell us that"

"Why are you lying to paul"

I froze what is she talking about I've heard Paul saying our mothers are friends please Dont let that be...

"Firstly is that really his child"

"Who else I only slept with him"

"We could never be too sure"

I rolled my eyes and finished eating my fries

"When are you planning on telling him about Fiona and lea"

Fuck why he hell did rose to tell her...

"What....a cat caught your tongue"

"I'm not his mother she can tell him"

"But have you ever imagined how it would be if he knew, I mean he did all this for lea hmmm I wonder if he knew you knew...would he still want to be married to you"

"Do what you want ma I really Dont care " when you are at war with the devil never show her she scares you always pretend to be brave or just be brave ... Maybe if she thinks I don't care she will let it go...

"You are in love with him of course you care"

"Mom I'm tired I need to nap you will see yourself out"

I went up the stairs and got in my room Paul was showering so I lied on the bed

"Is your mom gone"

"Dont know Dont cre"

He just gave me a Look and went downstairs I heard him say goodbye as he closed the door and came back up but I was fast asleep.

"Babe I know you hate been woken up but you need to wake up please and wear your pj's"

"Says who"

"The tickling monster "

"Paul no"

"Melody"

"Fine"

He then took off my dress and helped me in my PJs the rest is a blur.....this little guy drains and sucks the life out of me literally...