The most Expected Dhiya's Pov!!!! Enjoy Reading!!!

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"We shall leave, Madhan?" said Dhiya immediately after reaching the flat.

"Dhiya, already you are very weak. You should take care of your health. It is not necessary to leave now," he said looking into her eyes.

"Madhan, Akshadh came to the U.S. It is not good to stay here......," She lengthened as Madhan knew everything. She shared it to Madhan during their travel from orphanage to flat. Akshadh's maa came to know about their love ~ Akshadh's divorce plan~ Allen's adoption ..

"How long you will run for Janu? At one point you need to stop and now almost everything was okay. Again, If you wish, we shall move to wherever you want because your health is more important to me" he said immediately after seeing her pale face.

As per their plan, They were getting ready to move India by next day. At that time, Madhan got a call from Akshadh and he informed about Allen's adoption. Later, Madhan informed this to Dhiya. Happy tears fell from her eyes. She controlled everything and they reached the airport.

After getting into the flight, Dhiya laid her head back to the seat. Travelling again to India, started flashing the memories one by one. She closed her eyes and those past days where she missed Akshadh badly occupied her fully and the memories took her to the past...

Flashback. ..

Dhiya's POV

On that day, In between the Sangeet function of Akshadh and Janu, I came to the home with Madhan as I couldn't stand there for long. I have no enough guts to face my loved one's Sangeet function with another. I never knew till that moment that my love would kill me in alive. I did sacrifice my love for Janu and till that I didn't know that love would make me go mad. Many times after the function, I understand the mistake that happened in my side that I didn't fight for my love apart from the situations and relationships.

That day night, I was crying uncontrollably before Madhan for so long. Madhan is trying very hard to console me . My parents came after attending the sangeet function. They were in a happy mood and seeing us together, after an hour, they started the marriage talk. It was very shocking to me and Madhan.

I came to know that my parents had the secret wish to marry me to Madhan. They asked me straightly before Madhan. Both Madhan and I looked shockingly at each other. I got furious and for the first time, I shout my parents for the stupid wish. They tried to convince me but I can't accept it. Later, I came to know that the people who attended the sangeet function spread this rumour too..

Already, I was broken and these words irritated me to the core. I apologised Madhan for my parent's wish and he took easier than me. I used this chance to escape from my house because the talk about Janu, Akshadh, rituals, wedding etc will finally kill me. I can't hear this. I am not a saint and I conveyed this to Madhan. Understanding the situation, Madhan supported me.

I wrote a letter to my parent's reference that I need to be alone for two months to pursue my studies. Then, we came out at early morning and reached Bangalore where Madhan is currently working. I didn't attend Akshadh's marriage that relaxed me at first but when time passed by, I was thinking madly that what will Akshadh do now like, Akshadh in wedding attire~wedding Mahal ~ Rituals ~ Did Akshadh tie the knots? My God! I was unable to breathe even.

Madhan drops me in his apartment and he went to the hospital. I was thinking the same again and again. I didn't take a sip of water that day. I was sitting like a mad person. Tears almost got dry. That day evening passed by overthinking and crying. Madhan came from the hospital, he compelled me to have food. I took it hardly and end it in vomiting. I had boiled water at the end of the day. The whole night I didn't sleep. I was trying many ways to sleep but I couldn't. I was rolling here and there in the bed but I couldn't. I wish to shout and behave like a mad person that everyone should hate me for missing my love. The time slowly moves and touched at 6 a.m.

I woke up and sat on the chair. I was staring at the fish tank. Finally, I came to the thought that I shouldn't live anymore..Even, I don't wish to talk to Madhan. I hate everyone. My biggest enemy is myself for missing my love. I got calls often from my parents, I threw the phone away and till today I don't have the mood to use the phone. I would take food with Madhan's compulsion and a week passed by slowly.

That day night, my depression changed to suicidal tendency. I wished to commit suicide. I don't wish to live in this life. I decided to end my life. Life without Akshadh is completely meaningless. At that time, none occupied me neither Madhan nor my parents. If I died in his apartment then he would face the consequences, nothing came in my mind that day . The only thing occupied me is without Akshadh, I have no life. I took heavy dose sleeping pills and slept peacefully after many days. "I didn't fight for my life. I knew I was a coward, let it be..I can't live without my Akshadh. I wish, Let God take my life,"

After a day, I got my conscience back. I was in the hospital with a mask covering my mouth. I was provided with artificial oxygen, trips going in both hands. Tears flowing from my eyes thinking that God didn't help me here too,,,, I was alive....I hate myself for living...Those days.....Worst days....I can't even think about it now.....

The doctors who examined me informed Madhan about the depression and the suicidal tendency that I am going through. They arranged a psychiatrist to help me to recover from it. I took almost a month to show a small sign of changes. Madhan, my Savior of my life took care of me well. He mentioned often about my likes in school and college days. He took me to my favourite places but I didn't get a bit of satisfaction there. Apart from Akshadh, the love for Allen took me to the U.S along with Madhan.

I found my happiness back when I saw Allen in the orphanage. Often, I would feel Akshadh's presence there when I was in the orphanage.

"Mumma, why do you look so weak? I couldn't recognize you first," Allen said worriedly.

I looked at Madhan who was standing opposite to me and then I glanced at Allen, "Nothing Baby, Mumma got fever last week....," I convinced Allen hardly that day. After sometimes later she talks casually to me and Madhan. She was friendly with Madhan though he was new to her. I was very happy that Allen recovered from Xenophobia completely.

That day, from Allen's talk only I came to know that I lost my glow, colour and weight. I didn't even look at the mirror for the past two months. I have a thought like I lost my Akshadh then why should I care for physical beauty and appearance. My beauty is only for him and to rule him. I don't want anyone other than him to get impressed by my physical beauty. Let it be, I didn't care for my appearance after that too.

Those days after meeting Allen, my heart started giving me a message that I would soon going to meet Akshadh. I didn't believe that till the moment I met him on that day. I feel like to hug him and cry my emotions out....

How would I describe my feelings at the moment I met him? His words echoed in my ear, "I will come into your life again and take you to mine," He returned back with the same feelings. I don't know how to react? I knew I am killing Akshadh. Marriage is a sacred bond and how would I took it off..I don't have enough strength to fight even,.....I am scared....My worst days. ..I didn't fight for my love before. Fighting for love now, I can't even imagine.....I am scared that I shouldn't go back to that depression stage, that is the reason I am flying India as soon as possible after seeing Akshadh in the orphanage.

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Dhiya's parents happily invite their daughter. They were worried about seeing her health. Later, She convinced them somehow. Dhiya felt a bit better.

A week passed by,

Janu contacted Dhiya through her aunt. She opened up the divorce topic to Dhiya. She cried and she finally used those words that, "I would kill me if I lose Akshadh,"

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Dhiya is Back.....

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