My life may be more complicated than you think, but that's just the way I like it. I want you to think I'm normal and nice, not weird and strange. That way, I can blend in with the crowd more. It's just easier that way.

My eyes flutter open to see the ceiling of my room. My head is pounding with pain. I quickly sit up and touch the searing pain in the back of my head. Feeling the dried blood on my scalp, I remember the events of last night. This wasn't new to me. it happens often. It's the result of my stupidity and forgetting to do the summer assignments.

I'm not abused. I just banged the back of my head against a wall for hours until I passed out... as usual.

I look over at the clock on the nightstand. Shit! It's 7:50! I rush out of my bed and quickly and sloppily slip on any decent clothes I could find. Why did I have to sleep past the alarm on today, on all days? Today is the first day of senior year. A day that I have been through multiple times, but Benjy has been extremely excited for this day and I promised him that I would meet up with him! He's not going to talk to me this week.

I quickly brush my teeth and run out of my tiny apartment...

I forgot my bag.

I walk to the door and open it slightly. I grab the bag that is leaning against the wall next to the door. I quickly sling it over my shoulder and run to the stairs of this building. Down the stairs, take two small lefts and down again. I took another left and onto the sidewalk it was. In the distance, I could see Benjy running as fast as he could, but I ran faster. With every second I got closer to him, but he was still fast. "Benjy! Wait!"

I got closer and closer and soon, I couldn't get any closer. I reached out for him to try and grab him. "Benjy!" I yelled out in desperation. He turned around and started to run backward. He points at me with a glare, "You cannot call me fucking Benjy! You have already made me late!" He turned back around and started running again.

"Please? I am really sorry Benjamin! I accidentally slept passed the alarm!" I plead. He slowed down and so did I. He looked at me, obviously annoyed. "Yeah, you slept in on the one day that meant the most to me. It's the beginning of the end today! The start of the Senior year! How in hell am I supposed to slip that by?"

I honestly traveled off while he was saying that. He has said it so many times that it is ingrained in my head! "M? God dammit! Are you even listening to me?" He huffs and folds his arms over his chest. I look at him with plea and sigh. "Look, Benjy, I am so very sorry! Hey! You know what? I could get you some ice cream." I smiled my most mischievous smile and started to poke at his chest as I leaned closer to him.

He looked at me with a stern face, trying to resist the temptations of ice cream. "Because, you, Benjy Myers, loves me so much and can't and never will stay mad at me? And because it's free?" I pushed a little harder. He rolled his eyes and sighed, letting his arms let go of each other.

"I'm only going because ice cream tastes good!" He started to walk to school "I guess we can be a bit late to school..." he mumbled as he looked at his watch and I started to follow him towards the school grounds. "It's also because you love me, isn't it?" I like annoying him. It's fun.

"Shut up M!" We were now off to school. Hooray.

Don't be bothered by my name, it's not M. In fact, I actually don't have a name. I was born without a name, a family, and without physical aging. I stopped aging when I was 17. I was also confused at first, but after many years I realized that I also can't die of old age.

I keep going to this same school and have been for over a hundred-fifty years. I change my appearance and voice every time. Nobody even questions it. It can still be confusing nowadays.

My thoughts wonder around about Benjamin. I want him here, yet he is right in front of me. I want him to hear me, yet we talk to each other every day. I wish he was in my arms. God! That sentence is so repetitive that it is starting to get annoying! I have said that about many people.

He doesn't know that I have a crush on him and it's better that he doesn't. It's just a simple crush, just like every other person I have fallen in love with. I know how this will all play out. I will fall in love, find out that he loves someone else, he confesses to said person and they get together and live happily ever after while I'm still here waiting for mine. It's repetitive. So fucking repetitive.

Many minutes later, I watched as Benjy looked at his watch. It was 8:15. We were late for school. Again, nothing new so I didn't care, but I bet Benjy did. We were almost at school and Benjy seemed to get more impatient the closer we got. He started fast-walk and soon... he was running. Of course, I ran after him! It's not like I was going to let him abandon me that quickly.

We ran into school grounds and Benjy then jumped up as high as he could and screamed. He was so happy to be here. So am I. I have nothing better to do with my life than to just go to school. It's easy here. I looked around at what the previous seniors did. The whole school was TPed. It was a tradition. The seniors, as a going away thing, would toilet paper the whole school. The trees and everything! I've done it a few times. Again. Nothing new. Nothing was new to me. It's just another school year; another disappointment.

My story already began, but I know it will never end no matter how much I plead for it to. No matter how much I beg. The universe just will never be on my side.