Chapter 9 : Regrets
While the air between De'Shawn and De'Mario's Love began to thin, their hearts become colder. With the help of Kacey, Shawny doesn't want anything to do with De'Mario. When De'Mario arrives home in a few hours, he will regret the day he lied to the one he truly loved.
De'Mario's POV:
After I done flew for about 5hours and drove for about 10, I was finally back home. I can feel my heart warming up the closer I get to Shawny's crib.
I was on my way to surprise my baby girl when I seen Kay Kay pushing a stroller. I asked the driver to let me out right there. When I hopped out she looked scared and relieved at the same time. She still looked good. She smiled and gave me a big hug. When she pulled away, she opened her stroller to show me the baby who was inside. When I seen the little girls face, my heart dropped.
Kacey: "This is your daughter, De'Maria LeeAnn Smith."
I let out a deep breath and threw my hands over my head. I done fucked up. I know I done fucked up. I need to get to Shawny before she find out and kill me. I can't believe this shit is happening.
Me: "How old is she?"
Kacey: "Five months"
I shook my head in disbelief, yeah this IS my baby. I knew I should've wrapped it up that last time. I was to drunk to care.
Me: "Fuuuuck! Do my girl know about this?"
She nodded in confirmation. My blood began to boil.
Kacey: "Babe, it's okay we straight. I got you boo. Im just glad you home."
I looked at that bitch like she just asked me to marry her. Umm, No bitch. Everything I've been holding inside me that pissed me off took over my body and I slapped the dog piss out her mouth. The baby was startled and started crying. Kacey held her blood red face where I just smacked her and tried to mug me down. Tears rolled down her face as she stared at me surprised.
Me: "I don't know where the Fuck you thought you stood but you you need to step back down before I put you in your place. You should know that shit already. Im done fucking with you bitch. Just because you got my baby don't mean shit. You bet not had fucked my relationship up or I will handle yo ass myself!"
I mushed her in her face and stormed off. Pissed off and scared at the same time. I walked past De'Shawns crib. Her car was there and door was wide open. When I got home I forgot this bitch was staying here while we was gone. Uh,uhh. That bitch gotta go. I opened my bed room door and nearly had an heart attack. All my shit was moved and her and the baby's shit was all over my room like it was her shit. I was about to flip Df out. I heard the front door open to find that it was Kacey thot ass.
Me: "WHAT THE FUCk IS THIS!?"
Kacey: "Stop fucking yelling around my daughter and I know you not mad about your daughters shit being in your room."
Me: "We told your dumbass to sleep on the fucking couch. Don't touch my fucking room. You did the complete opposite."
Kacey: "I thought I WAS doing the right thing Legacy. All I wanted was our daughter to have a happy family. I've been trying to get ahold of you since I found out I was pregnant. Im sorry about your girlfriend but she doesn't deserve you. DE'MARIA DOES!"
Me: "Kacey, Save that shit. I would never want to have a family with you, I just Fuck you when I need my dick wet and Plus you our driver so it's easy access. I really don't need you now because I love my girl and I can Fuck the shit out of her whenever I want."
Kacey: "Well, don't be saying that shit when you come back for more Legacy."
Me: "Trust me, I won't be. You tired ass bitch. If that wasn't my baby, I would throw you out my fucking house. How about you go find you something to occupy your mouth like you usually do."
Kacey: "This ain't your house, It's Eric's. You cant talk for shit. If your momma didn't die, you wouldnt even be here. You can't even rap. If I was your momma, I would've died too."
I punched the shit out of and storm into my room. I slammed the door Shut. I can hear her ass wimpering in the living room. you better keep my momma outta this.
I took a shower and layed in bed while watching a movie. I managed to find my phone and of course my shit hella slapping. I posted a selfie on Facebook & Instagram saying "Im Back Bitches!" and got 348 likes in 10mins. I tweeted my mind until I decided to call De'Shawn.
Blllrrrrrrrrr! *pause* Blllrrrrrrrr! *pause* Blllrrrrrrrr!
Damn, she not even gone answer. I know she at home cause her car was there and her front door was wide open. I knew I should've went in. You know what, matter of fact, Im finna go to her house right now.
I put my black sweats, black sweater, black and white Jordan sandals on. I braided my hair back and put in my all black percings. This time, I put on Shawny 's Favorite Axe. And I headed out the door. On my way to De'Shawn's house, I try to choose the words I need to say to her before I get them twisted and she leave my ass. Im not ready to do this. But it's too late already. I have a 5 month old baby by a bitch I barely know let alone by someone Ion even love. It is Bout 3 in the morning and Im approaching Shawny's crib as we speak. I knock on the door plenty of times before she actually asks "Who is it?!". I didn't answer, I wanted to surprise her but when she opened that door and seen that it was me, she said the three words that will forever be branded on my heart.
Shawny: "I HATE YOU."
I looked at her with pain in my eyes and she walked off into her room. I stepped in the house and Shut the door locking it behind me. She came back with the necklace in her hand. I didn't even notice that she didn't have it on.
"Here, now get the Fuck out and take this with you. I don't want to see you ever again. Go be a family with your babymoma and your daughter. I hope that bitch does you just how you did me you fucking lying ass nigga. I hope you rot in hell!"
She kept pushing me away and punching my chest but I wouldn't let her go. She started crying, but this wasn't No ordinary cry. This was a cry from the heart. Everything that has happened Within the last year is coming out right now.
Me: "Baby, Im so fucking sorry. I dont have to words to say to you but Im not going nowhere. I love you, not her. I need YOU, fuck her. Bae, Dont do this to me. Come on"
She shook her head in disbelief and yanked her way out of my arms. She left to her room and slammed the door shut. It wasnt until moments later that she locked her bedroom door and turned off the light switch. I can hear her breathing on the other side of the door.
Shawny: "De'Mario get out of my house, please. & Dont come back."
I shook my head and let a few tears fall. I walked up to her bedroom door because I can feel her on the other side.
Me: "I guess, Ill see you later then, huh?"
Im just hoping I can change her mind. She really dont mean this. I cant lose her like this.
Shawny : "Goodbye, De'Mario"
I sniffled and punched a hole in the wall. Then, I threw the necklace and left shutting the front door softly.
Damn, I fucked up and cant fix it. I want to cry like she did. It wasnt long before I cried like a little girl when I got in my room. I dont care who heard. My girl dont love me no more. I buried my head in my pillow to muffle my cries. My tears soaking my pillow.
After a while, the tears stopped coming. I turned over my pillow to lay on a dry side. I scroll through our pictures on my phone and some of her selfies she took on it. I can't believe She's not mine anymore. Shes done. I put away my phone and lay on my side. I Soon fall into a deep sleep.
Kacey's POV:
Earlier, Legacy put his hands on me twice infront of our daughter. I don't give a Fuck what he going through but he bet not fucking touch me again before I put the law in this. I don't care that he doesn't want me but he doesn't even deserve to have De'Maria in his life because he can't man up to his responsibilities.
I'm going to stay in this house until Eric gets back because this is his house. Im not going No where. Legacy just gone have to deal with me here. If he don't want to help me take care of this baby, that's fine with me. We'll be alright without him. I just don't think it's fair to her. When I leave this house, I'll be on my way and he can kiss this baby goodbye.
I been sitting in the house fucked up. My lip is busted and my face is swollen. My tears have dried up but Maria keeps crying. I can't get in the room cause De'Mario is in there crying like a lil bitch. I hope he ready to realize that it's time for him to find himself. I guess I'll just wait until the morning to bother him.
De'Shawn's POV:
After D left, I remained in fetal position on the other side of my bedroom door wimpering and wondering what just happened. Sitting in the dark, alone and cold hearted. I just lost my Bestfriend and gave up on my man. I know, I thought I was prepared for this too. But it happened so Soon and unexpectedly. I guess I lost track of time and it startled me. I don't know what to do. I thought I was done with him. I thought I didn't love him anymore, I guess, I thought wrong. I wouldn't be crying like I am If that was the case. Well, He's gone now and Ill get over him, forreal this time.
Im waiting on information about Keisha that should be coming soon and I will began my new life without love tomorrow. I feel as If I wasted my time. Took 2 years to realize you can't trust No nigga. They will lie to you dead in your face and tell you they love you in the same sentence.
I rolled over on my plush carpet and cried myself to sleep. Maybe I will be able to forget all this happened in the morning.
A few days go by. It's is now Thursday and tomorrow will be Keisha's funeral. De'Shawn had moved on with her life, going on with school, dance, hair, and her job. She's adjusted to the change that happened Monday. De'Mario has started his new lifestyle and is more colder than ever. Him playing the role of Boss Man now, he had to be. Nobody has fucked up yet so He's been gaining money. Shawny's avoiding him and ignoring his calls. She has yet to return them. Kacey and him haven't spoke since the day he came back. Life for these two are back to where they started, now where to next?
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