De'Shawn's POV:

One Year Later...

Its hard not to think about my baby, I miss him beyond memory. I hope he comes back soon. Its been a year and I lie to myself everyday that hes coming home tomorrow just to keep the faith. I cry every once in a while but not as much as I used to. I still wear his necklace around my neck. It reminds me that hes thinking about me too. Keisha keeps telling me hes not but I think shes just being a hater because she dont like him anyway. Im not giving up on him. We were dating for 6 months. You cant just let that go. My 19th birthday was like a memorial for him. I went to his favorite resturaunt and ate his favorite food. I even went shopping for an outfit of his favorite color. I love it. I got his picture printed on a tshirt of mine that I wore on his birthday. It makes me feel closer to him.

Do you think im crazy for doing this? Honestly, I think its insane compared to any other 6 month relationship but hes an acception. We have a bond like no other. We may argue and fight but when it comes down to it, we need each other. Lord knows I miss him with all of me but I know he wouldnt want me moping around. So, Ive decided to make it seem like he has never left.

My job has been the usual, School is the same, my dance career is doing fine, but it feels like everything else in my life is falling apart including my bestfriend, my relationship, and my heart.

Keisha has been going through hell and high waters with her medical issues. A month after finding out she had HiV she was diagnosed with full blown AIDS & that she was pregnant. My girl has been in and out of the hospital and Im the only one whos been there for her. Shes unable to go to school or work. She can barely do anything now so I let her stay with me so I can take care of her.

It hurts me to see her like this. She lost the baby and my bestfriend is slowly dying, theres nothing I can do about it. Shes in denial but we both know the truth. We just dont have enough money to give her more time. We didnt even have a funeral for the baby. Im so stressed out because of this, mostly because I dont have no one to help me cope with this besides her and shes fading from me slowly. I try not to let her hear me cry at night because it hurts me to know that she suffering like this. She stopped crying a long time ago and now shes quiet. My bestfriend, sister, and partner in crime cant even speak to me anymore. I live in a world of silence right now.

She lost her emotional ability to speak due to a near death experience with strep throat. She's traumatized, so she won't even try. She doesnt like going out anymore. The pounds she lost, you wouldnt believe. It breaks my heart to look at her struggle everyday.

Today, I take her to the hospital for her monthly check up. They will decide if they want to keep her or send her home with some meds. I just hope she gets all that she need.

Me: "Wake up Sissyyyyy...."

I gentlely rock her to wake her. Shes in alot of pain so she grunts to the movement.

"We have an early appt. We cannot be late Key."

She waits a few minutes before struggling to sit up. I helped her out of bed. She didnt want get in the shower because she can barely move. I gave her some clothes to change into and we drove to her appointnent.

Keisha: "Dee, why do you put up with this. You take care of me like im your child and you show no pity. Its like you don't see what's happening to me. Like, I'm still the Bestfriend you used to know. She's thick, cute, funny.... Happy... *Sigh* she was living. Living life as If she was promised tomorrow... "

On the ride to the doctor's office we sit in the car while the radio played. This was usually our time to think as we get prepared to continue fighting life's battle. Keisha finally spoke to me, after all this time she actually spoke to me. As I look at her puzzled, she continued.

Me: "Key, you ARE my Bestfriend I've known since freshman year of college. The same girl that been real with me since Day 1. I miss the Key Key I used to laugh with on a regular basis but I know it's hard to catch any humor out of the situation you're in. Im just glad you finally talking to me. You're not gone yet Sis, you're still living. I don't want to watch you die before you actually go.. Im dying with you Sis. You don't see it but I am because it's killing me inside to see you suffer. I try not to cry but it hurts to see you like this. We do everything together! This just isn't fair. I love you Sis, Im not leaving you. I'll die before I even think about it."

We cried silent tears on the rest of the way to the D.O. She just let my words simmer in her head. She wiped her tears as she stepped out the car and walked inside to the doctors office.

Doctor: "Well, you're definitely getting worse but there isn't anything we can do about it besides trying to treat it but that will only buy you a few extra weeks. Other than that, weve done everything we possibly can."

Key grabs my wrist to brace herself as she asked a painful question.

Keisha: "How long?"

The doctor sighs before responding.

Doctor: "A couple months. Three, at most. You're immune system is deteriorating almost dramatically. We've tried everything we could. Like I've mentioned before, we can give you more treatment went to buy you some more time but its inevitable that this will destroy your immune system within the next few months."

We all were silent for a moment and Key was trying to hold back her tears.

"Anything else you want to know?"

Keisha shook her head without saying a word. I decided to speak for her.

Me: "No, Thank you Doctor, that'll be it."

Doctor: "Alright, you are all set to go. Unless you want to stay?"

Keisha shook her head again, but this time she walked out the room and headed for the car.

The drive back home was silent. Key and I both had a lot of shit on our mind. I just wish I could make this all go away. Hoping, and praying that this was a dream. Just to think that my Bestfriend only has a few more months to live, it's heartbreaking and disappointing.

Keisha: "I'll be okay, just don't worry. Let's enjoy the time we have left Sis. Im tired If being miserable. I don't want to leave on a sad note."

With that being said, I took that into consideration and agreed. Now it's my time to give her the happy ending she always wanted...

A few weeks ago, the Doctor told Key she only had a few months to live. She told me to stop being sad and that's exactly what we've been doing. Having fun. I took her out to eat today because we were being too active all week, it's time to settle down. It's Friday and I wanna chill.

We enter the Qudoba Grill take our seats. We order a whole bunch of food for here and to go. Key is glowing, She's hella happy and she cant stop smiling. Before she starts to speak, I spotted a familiar face sitting in a Booth on the other side of the building.

Me: "This bitch."

I spoke my thought out loud, Which caused Key to glance over and make it obvious that I was staring at her. The female got up out her seat and started walking in our direction. She stopped at our table with an concerning look on her face.

Female: "Umm, Aren't you Legacy's girlfriend?"

Me: "Yeah, why?"

Female: "I wanted to know If you've spoke to him lately?"

Me: "No, why?"

Female: "I'm sorry, I've said too much already. Have a nice day."

She attempted to walk away but I snatched her ass back.

Me: "Nooo, you finna answer my damn question."

Female: "Well, after I dropped him off in Mexico, I started getting sick. I didn't know what was wrong until I went the doctors. Turns out I was pregnant... By Legacy..."

My heart stopped and I wanted to punch the shit out of her but I let her finish.

"I had his daughter De'Maria Smith 3 months ago. I've never told him about her because I can't get ahold of him. I've been trying for a while now."

A babygirl? From my man? He did this to me? He fucking lied to me? I asked him If he was fucking her and he said No. This can't be happening. This bitch lying.

Me: "Well, he told me that you and him ain't got shit going on. You're just the driver."

Female: "The hell I am! I fucked him over 5 times, I know that for sure."

Me: "Bitch, why don't you move around and go get you some business. Stop being a fangirl and change yo child's last name"

She put a smirk on her face and shook her head at me.

Female: "My name is Kacey. You're man calls me Kay Kay or Mami. I know he the daddy cause the baby looks like him so you better get used to me. You're going to be seeing me a lot."

I was tempted to kill that bitch with one punch but Key set her in her place for me. After Key set her straight, we continued to enjoy our time.

Kacey's POV:

I've been trying to get ahold of Legacy since the I found out I was pregnant. I regret letting him go in raw but I didnt expect to get pregnant. I bet he don't even remember that night because he was drunk out of his mind. I really like Legacy but I think he just want to Fuck like the rest of the niggas.

Im not foreign but I am lightskinned. You may say I look like Cassie, she could be my sister. My real hair goes passed my ass and it's a brownish color. My ass and boobs are a fair size but I still be pulling them. I love the attention I get. I honestly like to have sex. If a man could do me right, Im all for it. But when I seen Legacy & his boys mannn I almost fainted. Im pretty sure they needed a driver so I offered. But as fine as they were, I couldn't help myself.

Tony, I fucked him only one time because I heard that nigga got something. Im glad that I ain't catch it. Eric, he's my lover boy and I think he like me but Legacy does it the best and I want him. He doesn't want me of course but we're good friends I would say. That's what really got me stuck on him.

After I found out that I was pregnant, I knew it was his. I just knew. Now, my daughter comes out looking like him? Yess, this is his baby. I hope he comes and be a daddy for his daughter. We can be a happy family. Just daydreaming about it makes me smile. I can't wait until he comes back. Imma get my man.

I tried to warn his "girlfriend" but that bitch don't listen. She'll be alright when he leaves her for me. She don't know that He's gonna be gone for whole nother year. I gotta go pick him up from Mexico too. So, Imma get to him before she do, just watch.

But as for right now, Im just hoping that he actually comes back. I don't need my baby growing up without a father.

Little do his girl know, Im staying at his house until I go pick them up. Im paying the rent, the bills, and keeping food in the fridge. Im doing what I would be for Legacy when we become a family. They told me to stay out the rooms and sleep on the couch but I figure that If Legacy 's the father don't you think I should be in his room? I pretty sure he won't mind anyway.

My baby girl De'Maria looks just like her father, I don't think he would even have time to deny her when he see her face. She's only 3 months old though.

I go pick her up from my mommas house and take her home. Today, Im feeling sad so I need her to cheer me up. I give her a bath and put on her pink onsie with her pink hat with the pink bow on the front. She inherited her daddy's eyes, they're so beautiful, it's like looking at the horizon while the sun is setting.

Me: "Heyy, Maria. Mommy loves you sooooo much baby"

She smiles as If she knew what I said. Moments like this makes me want to be a better mother. I don't want to depend on No man to take responsibility. Im sure I can do this myself but I don't think it would be fair for her. She deserves a happy family. That's all I want to give her.

After getting Maria dressed, I fed and burped her, then we sat up and watched some TV. When she got sleepy, I read her a book and put her to sleep. I fell asleep as well. I guess I'll be getting a good nights rest, today was a long day...

*THREE MONTHS LATER*

De'Mario's POV:

When I arrived at the DR a year and some months ago, they informed me that I was working in the streets again. Turns out, my boy Eric has been a hit man in the trap for a while now. They heard about my dope business in Indiana and heard Im a fearless cat that noone can touch. Anybody who tried got popped. Now, the head boss want me in charge of the trap house in Cali. Not to mention, it the biggest one. He says, all I have to do is collect the money from the dope dealers and give the money to the hitmen. We ain't hoeing No tricks cause they always talking. He pays me 50 G's a month If business is good and money is where it's supposed to be.

He's training me right now to gain his trust and prepare me for the title. They gone be calling me Boss. I like the sound of that. But the bad part is, If I wouldn't have came, One of us would've gotten hit. Im not trying to die. By the time I get back home, I'll be a heartless ass nigga. More than before. Since I've been here. I've killed over 20 niggas for fucking up the job, and I've set up over 100 hits. This shit is getting easy. Im making easy money as well.

I would be lying If I said life was great because it's not. But I enjoy having money. I hate what Im doing to get it but ion got No choice. So I might as well make the best of it. We live in a mini mansion and it's has a beautiful view of the beach. We sit on top of a hill so it makes it even better. We have maids and a private driver so we don't have to worry as much. We all have our own rooms and bathrooms but what we don't have is a phone. We can't make any contact with anyone at all. If the Boss Man wants us, he will come to the house and speak to us. I find that clever but I'd rather not make my face seen If I wanted to be secretive.

Mannn, it's been a minute since I even heard my girls name let alone her voice. I miss my baby, the fact that I didn't tell her that Imma be gone for two years makes me wanna leave right now. I think about her every night before I go to bed. I still got the empty box that the necklace I gave her used to be in. I took it because I needed something to remind me of her. I kiss the box and tell my baby goodnight before falling asleep. I started doing it a few months ago after I stopped crying. I needed something to help me man up, you know? I told my boy Eric about how we met and all but I ain't get to tell him everything because he be busy at night. Hit men do most of their business at night. My boy Tony been sick lately so we haven't really talked. Ion be seeing him forreal unless we got a meeting with the Boss. Eric said he think he caught something from one of them prostitutes he be fucking with but I know E always talking shit.

Tonight, I get a day off cause the Boss Man had an "emergency" Which means he tired and don't need to be bother. I understand him though, a nigga need some sleep. I popped a movie in and chilled with Ma nigga E. Maybe, it's our time to catch up with each other.

Eric: "What up, fam?"

Me: "Wassgood with chu, cuh?"

Eric: "About this girl of yours, who is she? Do I know her?"

Me: "Nah man, but you seen her before. Aye, remember that chick that we see that one night before the party? Them bad ass kids rung her doorbell."

Eric: "Awe, her!? Hell yeah, she was bad asf bruh. I nearly walked up her stairs."

I laughed before responding cause this nigga stupid.

Me: "Yeah, that's her."

Eric: "Mann, I bet you miss her. I know I would. Especially, If she looked like that."

I tried to fight back the tears that were forming after I heard those words. Lord knows I miss her.

Me: "I felt like, my moms had died all over again when I left her."

E knew this was really bothering me so he listened well.

Eric: "Bro, Im sorry I got you into all this shit. I don't know how to make you feel better but I can say that, If she really cares, she'll be waiting for you to get back"

Me: "See, that's the problem. She's been waiting for me and she needs me. I should be there for her. I know she is going to wait. I don't think I love her anymore, I know I do. Cause Im not thinking about No other besides her. She got me in my feelings B and I can't get out of them. I never cry, but the thought of her makes me want to cry a river."

He looked at me dumbfounded.

Eric: "Damn son, you in love. I thought Id never see the day that you would find the girl that'll set you straight. But you did. Im proud of you Bro. Now, it's time for you to drop your hoes and get serious Ma nigga. Don't Fuck this up while everything is good. I know, you know what and who Im talking about."

I smirk cause he always got jokes but still nodded in agreement cause I know it's true. He was talking about Kay Kay, Half of me think that she likes me a lil too much but the other half of me think she just cool asf. But either way, I need to tell her we done fucking around when I get home, before Shawny finds out.

Me: "Mann, I knowww. But I think she like you anyway. That girl just can't stop fucking with me. You her lover boy (lol)"

We both had a good laugh for that one.

Eric: "B, Shut up. You know I don't want that girl"

E would say anything to try to convince himself and I that he don't like that girl but I know he do. She don't look to bad, she just loving the crew. Eric don't want to be seen with an everybody ass female whether he like her or not.

Me: "Mhmm."

We both laugh and continue to watch our movie.

When the movie was over, I decided to go lay down. E stayed to watch another movie. I know what and who was on his mind. But thats none of my business. I went up stairs and hopped in my bed. I sat still staring at the ceiling, hoping that my girl was next to me. I wonder what She's doing, what She's wearing, what She's thinking, and how She's feeling. I want hold her tight and never let go. This empty feeling where my heart should be is growing the longer Im away from her. I need to get to her before it's too late. But until then. I'll remain heartless.

I dozed off in the middle of thinking about her. I'll be happy If I get to dream about her tonight.

The next morning, I woke up well rested and ready to start my day. I hopped in the shower and contiued with my hygene shit, you know. I pulled my dreads back and dressed for business. An all black longsleeve Jordan shirt covered my frame, some Camo Cargo pants with black Tims finished me off. I decided to not wear no peircings today cause I wasnt feeling them. I sprayed on my axe and called it a fit. The Boss came around noon for an announcement.

Boss: "I got some good news and some bad news. Which one do you want to hear first?"

We all got nervous and chose bad news first.

"Well, we lost a soldier last night. Tony. Tony Spencer. Good news, one of you get to go home. I will be shipping his body with you so he can get the proper burial and funeral."

I put dropped my head in shame and dissapointment. I punch a wall to let the anger out but that didnt help. But whatever I do, I wont be crying infront of Boss Man. Eric walked to his room without saying a word. The other homies just looked shocked. Me, Tony and Eric were the closest ones. I can believe my brother gone, mann. I aint even got to really sit down and talk to him since he got sick. I hope thats what took him because if it wasnt, got was trying to show me a sign.

Homie: "So, whos going home?"

Boss: "Eric is going. D, I need you here cause Im not done with you. E, already know what the deal is."

I looked at him like he was crazy. I wanted to pull my peice out on him but I didnt, I just nodded and turned to walk away.

"Im not done talking to you, you dont turn your back on me."

I kept walking towards my room, then suddenly I felt a hand around my neck and a gun to my head.

"I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU WHO DF I WAS. YOU BETTER BE CAREFUL YOUNG BUCK."

I managed to get out of his grasp and pull out my peice. We both were pointing our guns 3ft from each other aimed at each other domes.

Me: "MY MOMS IS GONE, I LEFT MY GIRL ALL ALONE, AND MY MOTHERFUCKING NIGGA JUST DIED! I AIN'T DOING SHIT BUT WHAT THE I WANT TO DO. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT DYING, BUT YOU BETTER HAVE A GOOD REASON TO SHOOT ME CAUSE YOU COMING WITH ME BITCH."

With that, he put his gun down and laughed historically.

Boss: "You've passed young Buck. You can go home now."

I looked at him puzzled and just when I thought I lost a brother, I heard my nigga Tony's laugh coming from down the hall. Eric and him were rolling on the God damn floor at me. I don't know what they seen what was funny about faking his death.

Me: "Df?"

I Honestly need an explanation right now.

Tony: "Bro, I didn't know nothing about this, Eric just told me what was going on"

Eric: "Yeah man, it was all for your own good. I had pulled some strings last night so I could get you home. & we came up with this"

Boss: "I decided to test you on how real you were to yourself. I know Im your Boss but you need to know when it's your time to stand your ground. You're ready youngin."

I felt a wave of relief while all the muscles in my body relaxed. I hugged my homeboys and gave the Boss Man a handshake. All I could think about is seeing my baby.

Me: "Thank you man, I appreciate it."

Boss: "No, Thank you. Cali needs a HNIC like you. I'll have a jet take you to Mexico in 30mins and a ride will be there for you when you land. It was nice to meet you youngin, stick to the business and be smooth."

Me: "Good Looking, you too."

Well, with that being said, he left. I look at my homies and laughed.

"Yah niggas got me!"

We all had a good laugh and joked around for a lil bit.

Tony: "Man, you should've see your face when you seen me. Like, you've seen a ghost or some shit!"

Eric: "Right, But Nah mann when he heard your name, that nigga turned into to stone!"

Me: "Man, Stfu!"

Tony and E laughed some more.

Tony: "D, it's cool. I know you Ma mfing brother and I don't know how I would react If I heard you were gone Mann."

Eric: "Hell yeah, me either. But he sure as hell had the best one!"

Me: "Man, Yah play too much. But on God, I love yah."

Both T&E: "Shit, we love you too ma nigga"

Hugged them and then went off packing my shit. Ive been here so long that I actually got shit to pack when I came here empty handed besides that box. That golden, rectangular, carboard box with the white bow on it that used to have that diamond necklace I gave Shawny in it. I pack up everything else except for that. Im leaving just how I came. With the memory of her right in my pocket. As I make my way to the chopper, I feel a smile cover my face. A tear escaped and I let out a chuckle of joy. Im actually going home.

I'm coming home baby...

Keshia's POV:

Every since the doctor told me I only had a few months to live, I been making the best of my time. I couldn't go out miserable. My girl Dee been making this easy for me. Even though She's stressed about her boyfriend and that girl with Legacy's so called baby, She's been holding up for me. I love her for that. She's a strong girl, so Imma be strong for her.

I feel weaker and weaker each day but I can't help but fight it. Today, I've decide to chill at home while Dee goes to school, then work. Usually, I would go to the movies or something but today, Im too weak.

I sit on the bed in my blue onsie watching a movie called After Earth. It's a really good movie. I love watching this movie. It's so sad, but it teaches a life lesson. In the middle of the movie, I get hungry. I pause the movie and head for the kitchen.

The moment I open the fridge I got a headache from the light and I started to see double. I began to feel light headed and the shortening of my breath. I can feel my head pounding, but maybe it's because Im scared. I got a sharp pain in my chest and I started to go numb on my right side. I tried to reach the phone, but I couldn't.

Me: "Help... Me.. Shaaa.. Sh... Hmm..."

Those were the last words spoken by Keisha before she passed away from a severe stroke. R.I.P.

De'Shawn's POV:

The news I got a few months ago made me change my life around. Got me on my Fuck love, and live life to the fullest type shit. I stopped crying and all I do is laugh now. Im being strong for my girl and showing her the best things in life. I feel like a single mother who just got rich. Im only 19 but I sure am getting old from this shit.

Speaking of single moms, I seen that girl Kayla or whatever her name is baby. Im so sad to say that she looked just like her daddy. She had De'Mario's eyes and all. She was beautiful I MUST say. That broke my heart the see the evidence of him lying to me and cheating on me sit right in my face. I know that girl was feeling herself when she proved me wrong. But I'm good now. I mean it hurt, but I can't let that shit phase me. My heart been broken plenty of times. I don't need a man. I can handle myself. That Fuck boy can kiss my ass, to be honest. Since he ain't here, it made it even easier for me to get over his sorry ass. Im not falling in love again. I won't be giving my time to No one. I don't even wear that niggas necklace anymore. Its sitting right on my dresser, for him to take with him when he comes back. Im done with his ass. I just want to see him to tell him goodbye.

He got his job, his baby momma, and his daughter. He sure don't need me. So I guess we done with this subject before I mentally Fuck this nigga up. Not that I care or anything.

So, Today I woke up ready to tackle my day. I was ready to get some school hours in and I got work tonight. After that, I gotta redo Keisha's hair just to make her feel brand new. She don't know it yet. She been complaining about her hair for a week now and I finally got the strength and motivation to do it.

My rooster alarm woke me up this morning and it had me alert. I bolted out of bed and into the bathroom like a race horse because I suddenly realized that I had to pee really bad. Im surprised Key was still sleep cause I did make a lot of noise getting up. It's 6:30am and I am wide awake right now. I can't debate If I want to eat or get in the shower first. If I eat first, that would blow my time. But If I get in the shower first, Ill have to brush my teeth again because I'll feel dirty. You know what, Im wasting time already. I'll just get in the shower. I turn on my favorite playlist on my phone and connect it to my speaker on top of the medicine cabinet. I remove my clothes and stare in the mirror for a while. Examining myself. I think every girl does it. This is the moment I realize my flaws and my best features. My dimples, my curves, my nice boobs, my smile, my full lucious lips, and my eyes. Opposed to my damaged hair, my acne (on my face, shoulders, back, and neck), my scars, my stretch marks, my long neck, my big ass head, my cleft chin, my thin eyebrows, and my dry skin. I learn to accept Im not perfect but I am beautiful in my own way. There are girl out there that can't have what I've been blessed with so I appreciate having it. The moment I heard July by Drake & Jhene Aiko come on my playlist, I was snapped back to reality. This is my song. I turned on the shower faucet and tested the water. When the water was warm enough for me, I climbed in. I let the water run through my hair first, then my face and turned around to get my back. I lathered my body in my coconut oil body wash and rinsed off. Next, I grabbed my Dove bar soap and washed my face. Last I shampooed my hair with a flowery fragrance. After I rinsed off and got situated, I brushed my teeth and turned off the water.

When I got out the shower, I dried off with my pink towel. I put conditioner in my hair and blow dried it. I flat ironed my hair and then wrapped it. I put on a scarf to keep it safe until I leave. I then went and got my clothes. Im feeling blue today. The color blue. I put on my white cargo pants with a silver belt. I threw on a baby blue crew neck sweater that had silver letters that said Beautiful on the front. I felt it was only right to wear my silver custom made Tim's. I topped everything off with my white, blue, and a hint of silver Beanie after I combed out my hair. No make up. Just a little perfume and that's it. I decide not to eat breakfast cause I look too damn good. I kissed my Sissy on the cheek bye and walked out to my car. I sent her a text letting her know what was up and that I'll be back to Check up on her before I go to work tonight. She's a big girl, Im sure she can handle it.

I turn up my radio and it's blasting my favorite song by Chris Brown, Loyal. I made a remix and a dance to it but favorite part is when Tyga say "All these carrots, Like Im a fucking vegetarian" I laugh every time. In the video, I love the ending. My favorite. I decide to sing along while I make my way to school.

I missed being at school, I haven't really been going because I been taking care of Keisha but I need to get on my shit, I been slacking. Dance class is the best. I love it the most. It's what I hope for through out the day. The different ways I can move my body to express my feelings. I just believe it's amazing.

After I put in some school hours, I decided to go get something to eat. I don't want No fast food though. I guess I'll just go home and make me something, then. I think that's going to happen. I halfway speed home and almost hit this mysterious looking limo on the way there. I swear they were in my way like they knew I was finna turn. Anyway, I get out my car and spotted you know who walking her daughter in a stroller past my house. She waved and I rolled my eyes and kept walking. The minute I opened the door and could see what looked like Keisha sleep on the floor while the fridge was open, I panicked.

Me: "KEISHA!!!"

I ran to her and checked her pulse, then blacked out...

All I can remember is the police asking me questions after the paramedics took her away.

"No, Officer dumbass. I didn't kill her. I found her dead. I wouldn't have called you in the first place If I killed her."

I said before bursting out crying. It's been months since I cried, I just wish I was there for her. This is some bullshit. I chose the wrong day to leave her alone.

The police left me alone and the paramedics took her away. They said they'll let me know anymore information by next week. I on the other hand couldn't sleep. I sat up and drunk hot cocoa. I don't drink or smoke so hot cocoa, tea, and, coffee are my bestfriends. Now, they are my ONLY ones left. I finished the movie Keisha was watching and went through our picture book. I silently cried to myself as I walked through our memories. We've come a longs way, I miss her so much and She's only been gone for some hours.

I remember the day I met her. I was new to LA and She's been here longer than I have. She asked me to be her friend in the kindest way possible. She thought I'd be cool to talk to because I wasn't like the rest of the rich kids in class. She showed me some dance moves and I showed her some to. We went to the movies that night and chilled. She opened up to me like we've been friends for a while and I thought that was nice. So I put my trust and her and we've been bestfriends ever since.

The last pictures we took were yesterday at the festival. She was so happy. Im glad I put that smile on her face. I did that. She passed away happy. And That's all that matters.

I love you Keisha Marie. Rest In Paradise My Baby

*Keisha in MM*