De'Shawn's POV:

Life has been absolutely great for the last month. Tomorrow is Maria's first birthday and even though Im not her step mother anymore, I still have love for that Lil girl. She's still my daughter No matter what, Kacey don't seem to mind so I ain't gone stop seeing her.

No, me and D have not spoken since then. Mia & I have not either. Eric still brings the kids over because they're my babies. I moved on with my life and I am very proud with myself.

Im dancing again it is now my Junior year in College. Just 2 more years to go and I will graduate with a bachelor's degree in Medicine. I'll become a pharmacist and get into medical school to become psychiatrist. Not to mention, I will be a certified choreographer.

Tonight Im having dinner with my real father Ray. We need some father and daughter bonding time. He knows everything that has been going on because I would call and tell him but we never got to know each other frfr.

We're going out to eat at this Italian restaurant called Avenue Italy Trattoria. I think I should dress a little nice so that they won't think Im disrespectful. I decide to wear a nude color longsleeve turtle neck. I slip on my cream color heels that has pearls on the side and open toe that shoes my french tip pedicure. I flat iron my black sewin with a split down the middle. I put on nude lipstick and decided to put cat eyes with my eyeliner on my face. I placed my pearls in my ears and grabbed my matching MK purse. Right before I head out, I get a text from my dad.

Real Dad : "Im outside. You don't have to drive there, sweetheart."

I laughed to myself and respond.

Me: "Thanks dad, I'll be right out."

I turned off all the lights and locked everything you before heading out the door and jumping in his black Camaro.

Me: "Hi, Daddy! "

I hug him and he hugged me back with a charming smile. Yes, I look just like this man.

Ray: "Hey, baby. How you been doing?"

Me: "Alright, & you?"

Ray: "You already, feeling like the king of the world."

We both shared a laugh and head off to dinner.

Im having an amazing time with my father and we found out that we have a lot of things in common. The conversation has gotten deep by now and Im not about to cry. But it feels good to vent to someone that really cares.

Ray: "What's that?"

He points at my chest.

Me: "What?"

Ray: "Under your dress, by your collar."

I cover it with my hand and look away embarrassed.

Me: "It's the necklace he gave me."

He took a deep breath and examined me.

Ray: "You still love him, Don't you?"

I was quiet and in deep thought for what feels like forever but he was patient for my response.

Me: "I will always love him, Dad. I just can't anymore. What we had was just... I don't know. I really don't. We rushed things too quick and got caught up and forced our love. When I finally fell for him, he fucked up. Im done. Im tired of giving people chances. Why can't I have one?"

Ray: "Shawny, I fucked up and you gave me a chance. You're mom fucked up Nd you gave her a chance. Everyone is going to fuck up. No one is perfect, sweetheart. Sorry. I hate to say it but it's the truth. You need to stop pushing everyone away and pretending to be happy."

Me: "I get what youre saying but Im not pretending. I am happy. He fucked up and that's all there is to it. He's done it once before and Im not waiting for a third time. My happiness, my dreams and my love is more important than anyone else's. Im moving on with my life whether people like or not. I don't need anyone."

Ray: "I see, it's my fault you turned out like this. Yes, I am the same way but you're a woman. You're also my daughter, I want the best for you. Don't get upset with me, Im just talking to you. It's your choice, Shawny. Im just telling you what I think."

Me: "Dad, I feel you and Thank you. But I will be fine. Just fine. Can we go, now?"

We paid the bill and left. Since he knows we're the same, he won't even push me any further with the whole situation. I don't wanna think about it. I just will let it be.

The car ride to the house was silent and kinda awkward. When we stopped infront of my house, he turned off the car.

Ray: "Shawny... Life isn't fair. No one is perfect. Happiness isn't always visible but I can tell you right now. You are not. You're afraid. Afraid to get hurt. I know it's hard, sweetheart. I know, I know, I know. But you need to find when your heart is and fight for happiness. Believe it or not, you have to buy happiness. Just not with money but with time and strength. You gotta be smart. You see Jr settled down. He settled down before you and it surprises me. *chuckles* Sooner or later, you'll see what I mean for yourself."

He sighed and rubbed my arm.

"Im sorry you had to lose so much but everything happens for a reason. Losing that baby took a lot from you and Everyone else. Well, you would see that If you werent pushing everyone away but like I said. You're not alone. Now give you're pops a hug. Your mom is waiting on me and I ain't been home early lately so you know what's finna happen."

We laughed and hugged before I got out. He watched me walk inside the house before he drove off. My birth parents being together and in love is weird to me but it feels good. I love them both dearly and No matter how much we've secretly been through all my life, I will forgive them because it's true. Everything happens for a reason. But it's also true that some aren't meant to be. De'Mario is one of those things. My love for him will never leave because I shared things with him and been through things with him that I wouldn't with anyone else so yeah, Im going to feel some type of way with him. Not to mention he took my virginity, or have you guys forgotten? I have many reasons to love him but No one is worth me being unhappy. Sorry.

After getting in the shower, I threw on my spongbob jammys. Im still a kid at times and don't really care who got shit to say. It's not too late so I think Imma camp out downstairs. I grabbed my blanket and pillows and set up the couch. I made me some chamomile tea and watched Unconditional. As always, I fell into a peaceful sleep.

The Next Day...

I wake up to a call from Kacey.

Me: "Wassup?"

Kacey: "Umm, I don't think it'll be a good idea If you came to the party today."

I sat up and anger flooded my heart.

Me: "Why is that?"

Kacey: "Oh, nothing. It's just that, you know. It would be weird."

Me: "Yeah, whatever. I don't see how it would be weird but okay."

She sighed over her phone and spoke again.

Kacey: "He's bringing his girlfriend and he doesn't want you to be there... It's all for Maria, Shawny. Otherwise, you would be invited. He her father and it her party, you know?"

I was kinda hurt but I can't be upset. She's right.

Me: "Yeah, tell her I said happy birthday and Can I drop her present off tomorrow?"

Kacey: "Yeah, sure. That would be fine."

I hung the phone up and just sat there in deep thought. Im guessing him and Cassie are together. Im not surprised.

I decide to chill out at home all day and eat snacks and watch movies while everyone goes to Maria's birthday party. Just me, myself, and I.

De'Mario's POV:

I wake up next to Cassie's head on my chest and check my phone. I have just enough time to get us ready.

After we shower, we got dressed in matching outfits. We both put on white Ts, black trus, and all white air force ones. I grab my Iphone6 that Cassie bought me and my keys so we can go to Maria's birthday party.

I know you probably think why am I with this girl and what about Shawny but what else was I supposed to do? One, Shawny doesnt want me anymore, clearly. Two, Cassie came that day to tell me that she was pregnant and its mine. Honestly, Im not sure if this is my baby or not but Cassie has been here for me since Shawny left me.

We made it to the party and greeted everybody. No one likes Cassie and I think she knows that but she having my child and Im not leaving her. By the time we opened her presents and chilled, the tension got stronger. I ain't even gone lie, this shit is boring and Cassie all up on me. Shit, the only reason we had fun together was because of Shawny but it's all different.

Me: "Well, now that were are all here -"

Mia: "We are not all here, an you know that. I may not be talking to her right now but that's kinda dirty for you to not want her here. You know she would've wanted to see Maria on her birthday."

Eric: "Yeah, man. That was wrong. She was looking forward to going. I seen the presents she got her."

Cassie: "Well, it doesn't matter cause he with me now and she his ex. We are going to have a family and that's all there is to it."

Me: "Cassie Shut the fuck up! Well, now Yah know that She's pregnant."

I heard someone laughing and I turned to see Jr laughing up a storm.

Jr: "So, you really think that bitch can replace my sister? You a fufu ass nigga. *chuckles*"

Everyone laughed and shook their head at me.

Rico: "You crazy as hell, ma nigga. If that was the case, you should've just brought her back to me. Shit, Jr know how we rock"

Everyone continued to laugh and I grew furious. I just sat down holding Cassie close to me.

Mia: "Look, you can sit here and be mad all you want but I know she only said those words she said because she was hurting because of the miscarriage. I forgot that she says hurtful shit when She's upset because she wants to test If we'll be there for her. But uninviting her to Maria's birthday party and getting another bitch pregnant is just plain out wrong. Im finna go spend the rest of my day with her."

Everyone: "Right, me too"

I felt kind of bad now but why am I always the bad guy?

De'Shawn's POV:

I was in the middle of the move when I got a knock at the door. I looked through the peep hole and everyone was there. I rolled my eyes and acted like I wasn't there. I don't have time for fake ass people. All of them knew she about me not being able to go but you finna sit in my face? No, fuck you.

Once I seen that they were gone for sure, I got dressed in a red and black maxi dress and black flats. I curls my hair and put a red and black flower headband across my forehead. I put on my black lipstick and No make up, just mascara.

I decided to go for a walk along the beach. So I wanted to look cute as I walked around.

Once, I made it to the sand, I put my flats in my purse. I let the wind blow through my hair and kiss my scalp. I was very relaxed to be here. After about 30mins of walking I decided to get something to drink. When I walked up to the bar, it looked kind of busy so I just sat in a stool. A guy that many of you know by Drake bumped into me and I mugged him.

Drake: "Im sorry, Miss. I shoulda been watching my step. They hired you?"

Me: "Huh?"

Drake: "For the video shoot."

Me: "Umm, No... Why am I on your set?"

She chuckled and nodded.

Me: "Oh, Im sorry. I didn't mean to-"

Drake: "Nah, you good. Continue your time."

Me: "Thanks, good luck with the video."

Drake: "Thank you, call me. Aubrey."

Me: "Nice to meet you, Aubrey. Im De'Shawn"

Aubrey: "That's a beautiful name, Miss De'Shawn. Well, I gotta get back on set, check you later."

Me: "Okay."

He just made my day. I mean, I wasn't attracted to him or anything like that but he gave me a friendly vibe. I liked that.

I went to continue to walk for about another hour and a half and then came back but this time, Aubrey was behind the bar with 3 other amazing Artists. Chris Brown, Tyga, and August Alsina. They all greeted me when I came because I've met them before.

Micheal(Tyga): "Look at you looking beautiful"

Me: "Thank you."

Chris: "Where's D- Nevermind. Im sorry."

Me: "It's okay, it's been happening alot lately."

We were all chilling until it started getting dark. The dancers were chilling with us too. These girls were wild though. Chris started singing and my heart warmed. I always loved the way he sings. His voice is amazing. He began singing my favorite song by him and we both went into a trance singing the lyrics. All Back by Chris Brown.

"
Ooooooooohhh!!

If I had the moment
I'd capture that moment
You would be right here next to me
If I had the secret
The secret to your love
I would pledge a treasure beneath my heart
Lock it all up
And throw away the key
I would never give it up
'Cause I was just a fool
A fool for you
When I loved you so childishly

And I want it all back
I want it all, I want it all, girl, I want it all back
I want it all back
I want it all, I want it all, girl, I want it all
You never miss a good thing till it's gone,
I want it all, now I want it all back

If there is a green light
And it starts to turn yellow
Pedal to the floor
'Cause I know your heart is turning red
If I had the minutes, I would turn 'em into hours
And make love to your mind and not your body instead
I was just a fool, a fool for you
That didn't know what I had until I lost you
And every single moment that you're not here
You said the evident to me that everything just seems so clear

And I want it all back
(I gotta have it all)
I want it all, I want it all, girl, I want it all back
I want it all back
I want it all, I want it all, girl, I want it all
You never miss a good thing 'til it's gone
I want it all, now I want it all back

Now everything isn't everything
If everything, everything isn't with you

And I want it all back
I want it all, I want it all, girl, I want it all back
I want it all back
I want it all, I want it all, girl, I want it all

You never miss a good thing 'til it's gone
Want it all, now I want it all back
Now I want it all back, now I want it all back
Now I want it all back..."

We both opened our eyes and look at each other. It was an honor to sing my favorite song with my favorite male Singer. I actually blushed and everyone cheered. August, Aubrey, Michael, and Chris all smiled and clapped.

August: "Damn, ma. You got a voice on you."

Michael: "Hell yeah."

Aubrey: "Damn."

Chris: "That was-"

Me: "Amazing."

He nodded and bit his bottom lip. I blushed and someone cleared their throat behind me. I turned to see De'Mario standing behind me. I smirked and nearly busted out laughing. I don't see why he's jealous he got a new girl that got a better body that me and everything. So, I don't feel No type of guilty.

Me: "Well, I guess I'll be going. It was nice seeing you guys."

They all gave me hugs and Chris smiled at me.

Chris: "Here's my number. Call me tonight."

I nodded and smiled as I walked away to my car. I glanced at D who was mugging and I turned back around laughing to myself. Well, this was a nice day...

All night, I've been smiling while I watched TV. I decided to call Chris just to hear his voice.

Chris: "Hello?"

Me: "Umm, Hey it's De'Shawn."

Chris: "Oh, I can tell by your beautiful voice."

Me: "Thank you."

Chris: "Its the truth, you should come to the studio tomorrow. I gotta song for you."

Me: "Sure, I would love that."

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That's Shawny in the MM with Aubrey.