Zayn's POV

Iniwan niya lang ako sa penthouse namin, hindi ko alam kung ano gagawin ko. Should I turn back and talk to her? Tell her everything my Dad told me. Gulong gulo ako ngayon, kanina pa ako iyak ng iyak.

Putangina naman kasi, Zayn Landon. Ang bobo mo gumawa ng desisyon! Sana hindi ka na lang nabuhay.

It was very hard living without her, minsan wala ako sa wisyo pag nasa trabaho. Even when in court hindi ako focused eh. As in when she left my whole world fell apart. Then again, ako naman ang may kasalanan nito dahil ako ang umalis.

Umalis ako para sa buhay ng kanyang mga mahal. I risked losing my hapiness just for her and her family to be safe. Who knew I would be this selfless for love?

Tangina, ngayon lang kasi ako nakaranas ng genuine and pure love and it's from a girl like her.

She didn't deserve getting her heart broken by me. Especially since I'm her first relationship, and first heartbreak.

What a dick move, Zayn!

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"Attorney Domingo, what the fuck are you doing? Bakit ka nagkakaganyan?! There's an upcoming case assigned to you, and if you fucking lose that you're going to lose your job." sabi ng head Attorney namin and I just scoffed.

"So I lose my fucking job! I don't care. I'll leave this firm and start my own. You all are no help with my career as a lawyer anyways." I spat bago kunin lahat ng aking gamit at umalis na ng firm.

Dati ko pa naman kasi plano umalis sa firm na ito, puro pagpapahirap naman kasi ginawa nila sa'kin. Pero mayroon pa rin akong nakuha na lesson dito. No mercy.

Pagkauwi ko sa bahay ay agad kong tinawagan si Luca. Yeah, hindi pa kami nagccut ng communication. He's been a very good friend para sa akin pero I'm planning on telling him the whole truth and ask if he knows how to get to Caitlyn.

"Hey bro," sabi ko sa kanya. Umiling lang siya sa akin bago umupo sa couch ko. Alam kong may halong galit rin siya sa akin dahil nga sinaktan ko si Caitlyn. Araw araw 'kong sisisihin ang sarili ko dahil doon.

"Look, I know you're still mad at me pero I need your help." I told him at tumango naman siya sa akin.

"Do you know where Caitlyn is?" tanong ko sa kanya and he just scoffed. "Hindi namin alam. She just left bro, communication namin through the internet lang." seryosong sabi niya.

I feel like he's lying, pero wala naman din akong magagawa. Kasalanan ko ang nangyari kaya kailangan kong tanggapin ito.

"Well... at least help me with my situation right now." I said at walang gana siyang tumango sa akin, hinihintay ang aking sasabihin.

"Natanggal ako sa trabaho, and I'm planning to build a firm. Can you ask Caitlyn to make a draft or a sketch of a modern firm?" I asked him and he nodded before getting up.

"Makakarating." he said bago tuluyang umalis ng aking bahay.

God, I really miss my baby. I miss her.

----

Habang nasa construction area ako kung saan ipapatayo ang aking firm ay may nakita akong babae at isang bata na dumaan sa kabilang bahahi ng kalsada.

Bigla naman pumasok sa isip ko ang sinabi ni Caitlyn noon. Buntis daw siya, pero damn it, kahit ang dahilan na 'yon ay hindi pa rin ako nanatili sa tabi niya.

Napaisip ako, pinalaglag niya kaya yung bata? O di kaya hahanap siya ng bagong lalaki para maging ama sa anak ko? You're such an asshole, Zayn. Nagawa mong iwan ang fiancee at anak mo! Sinong bobong gagawa no'n?!

Kailangan kong yumaman para maipakita ko sa kanya na kahit wala na siya sa buhay ko ay patuloy ko pa ding kinamit ang aking pangarap.

But the memories of us still taunts me. Our memories together will always be like home to me. It's like whenever my mind wanders it always find it's way to think about her.

Higit isang taon na ang lumipas noong naghiwalay kami. I still love her, with all my fucking heart. The unfortunate part is that I will most likely end up loving her even if she is longer in my life.  That may seem strange to some. But the truth is that the amount of love you have for someone and the impact they have on you as a person is not proportional to the amount of time you have known them.

Hindi na 'ko magmamahal ulit.

Kung hindi siya, hindi na 'ko magmamahal ulit.

----

"Congratulations Attorney Domingo on winning another case!" they threw another party for me dahil nanalo na naman ako sa isang kaso ko. I mean, hindi naman na kailangan 'to eh. Kuntento na ako sa isang congratulations lang.

It's been a year after my firm got built and I'm going to say that this is the most fun and thrilling experience I have ever got in my entire life. Plus, my income became much more higher since then.

Marami rin akong nakilalang magagaling na abogado na tumulong sa akin. Nagkaroon rin ako ng maraming kaibigan.

Para sa'tin to, Caitlyn. I promise, I'll find you and hope that you'll end up back in my arms. I would court you if you'd let me.

Kahit mukhang masaya ako ay umiiyak pa rin ako tuwing gabi. Tangina, she really gave an impact on me; and I can't seem to fucking move on.

I even once gone to court kahit may hang over ako eh. Dinadaan ko na lang sa paglalasing para kahit papaano ay gumaan ang aking pakiramdam. Numb up the pain I'm always feeling.

Sa kanya ko lang 'to naramdaman eh. Ganito pala magmahal 'no? May kabaliktaran pala siya at para maintindihan mo ay kakailanganin mong masaktan.

Grabe ka na pag ibig.

I also noticed that sometimes we hurt the ones we love, but hurting ourselves to avoid it doesn't make it better.

Ang dami kong narealize ngayon pero buo pa rin ang desisyon sa akin utak.

I want to see her, feel her, kiss her, hug her, and make up to all the times where I wasn't there for her. Kahit sampung taon niya pa akong taguan, kapag ready na siya... buong puso ko pa din siyang tatanggapin.

----

Nasa bar ako ngayon at nagulat ako nang mahagip ng mata ko ang magkakaibigan. Bakit silang apat naririto?

I was already tipsy or maybe even drunk kaya wala sa sariling lumapit ako sa lanila.

"What the fuck?" galit tonong sambit ni Azaleah.

"Gago, may lasing! Bakit nandito si Zayn?" takang tanong ni Yuki.

Naramdaman ko lang naman ang masamang titig ni Luca sa akin. Damn, 3 or 4 years nang nakalipas at galit na galit pa rin sila sa akin?

"Anong kailangan mo? Alam mo putangina nito eh-" hindi natuloy ang sasabihin ni Yuzu ng pigilan siya ni Azaleah. She sighed before turning to me.

"Speak up, what the hell are you doing?" tanong ni Luca and I cried.

"Please tell me where Caitlyn is." I sobbed and they all looked at each other before looking at me with pitiful eyes.

"Hindi nga namin alam kung nasaan siya." sagot ni Azaleah at suminghal ako. "Imposible 'yon! Tangina ilabas niyo siya!" I shouted at agad naman tinakpan ni Luca ang bibig ko. Ang ibang tao naman ay pinagtitinginan na kami.

"Attorney Zayn Domingo, okease don't make a fucking scene." Yuzu said with gritted teeth.

"If you see her... tell her that i will do anything. I need her." pahina ng pahinang sabi ko sabay luhod sa harapan nila.

"Alam kong hindi ako perpektong tao but we were. We were perfect." agad naman ako pinatayo nila at inupo sa couch nila.

"Lasing ka lang, Zayn." aniya ni Yuki.

"If she says she doesn't love me anymore... w-wag niyong paniwalaan." utal kong sabi.

Kahit anong pagmamaka-awa ko, wala pa din silang sinabi. Ang tibay nila! "Zayn, umuwi ka na. Wala nga kaming alam."

Fuck, Caitlyn. Why do you have to do this to me? Apat na taon na kong naghihintay mahal ko, hindi ka pa ba babalik sa buhay ko?

Lord, give me a sign na 'wag nang umasa na babalik pa siya ulit sa akin.

----

While doing some paperworks ay nakatanggap ako ng tawag galing kay Luca. Kahit puno ako ng pagtataka ay sinagot ko pa rin naman 'yon.

Ano kaya kailangan sa'kin nito?

"Hello? Attorney Domingo speaking." I formally answered the phone dahil baka isipin niya na feeling close ako kahit dati pa nawala ang closeness namin.

[Attorney, I need your help. I have a client, nagnakaw, kinasuhan.] mabilis na sabi niya sa akin at napaisip naman ako. Hindi ko kailangan ng ganito kaboring na kaso.

"I'm not interested, I'm sorry. But I can find you another lawyer." I told him at natahimik naman kami. I was about to end the call when he spoke.

[You'll get to see Caitlyn if you accept the case.] doon naman bigla nagbago ang isip ko. Isa lang ang kailangan niyong sabihin sa'kin para lang mapapayag ako.

See the love of my life.

"Fine, meeting tomorrow any time beyond 6 pm." sabi ko at binabaan niya na ako ng tawag. Aba bastos naman talaga!

Pero okay lang, naalala ko na inabala ko nga pala sila sa bar last month. Kaya may atraso ako sa kanila kaya gagawin ko na 'to. Para rin makita si Caitlyn.

The next day ay nasa loob lang ako ulit ng office ko, kanina ko pa nga hinihintay si Luca pati ang client niya eh. Medyo naiinip na ako pero wala akong magagawa. Para lang makita ko siya ulit maghihintay ako. Kahit maglakad pa 'ko sa uling ay gagawin ko kung kapalit naman ay makapiling siya muli.

My secretary informed me na paakyat na si Luca kasama ang client kaya naghanda na ako.

Nakarinig naman ako ng tatlong katok, kahit alam ko kung sino 'yon ay tinanong ko pa ulit para sigurado. "Who is it?"

"Luca."

Agad ko naman inayos ang suot ko, "Come in, it's open." I said and as the door swung wide open my eyes didn't met Luca's. It met... Caitlyn's. Bakit siya nandito?!

Agad naman ako nagulat at medyo nataranta sa aking kaisipan. Kaya tumalikod ako sa kanila nagkunwari na may iniisip. Hindi ko kasi alam kung paano ako aakto sa harap niya.

Well damn, it's your ex fiancee dumbass!

Ilang taong lumipas na sabik na sabik ko siyang gustong makita pero hindi ko naisip kung ano naman gagawin ko kapag nangyari na 'yon.

"You guys can take a seat," I cleared my throat as I sat on my chair. Hindi ko tuloy mapigilang mag isip, si Caitlyn ba ang nagnakaw? Why would she even do that? Hindi ba siya mayaman o may kaya sa buhay dahil base sa suot at bag niya mukhang mamahalin.

"So how may I help you?" I started at hindi naman sila sumagot. "Are you here to file a case against someone?" I asked kunyari hindi alam kung tungkol saan ang kaso. Para lang naman sunagot si Caitlyn. I want to hear her voice so bad.

"I need your help," she said softly at grabe parang kinabahan ako bigla. It's like my heart fluttered when I heard her again. Grabe, halatang halata na in love pa rin ako sa kanya ah.

"Someone pressed charges against my Dad. He said that he has been doing illegal transactions and recently had been caught, just to make money and save our company. A few months ago our sales went down; the reason why my family is finding a lawyer to represent him in court." she explained to me at tumango tango ako.

Woah, ganito na pala ako hindi ka-updated sa mga Flores. Sinulat ko naman ang mga impormasyong sinabi ni Caitlyn sa aking notebook at may tanong na biglang pumasok sa utak ko at wala sa sariling tinanong 'yon sa kanya.

"Have you eaten yet?" nagtaka naman siya sa tanong ko bago umiling. "No. But that's not important. Are you going to represent my Dad?" bobo mo naman kasi Zayn! Bakit mo tinanong 'yon?

Niluwagan ko naman ang neck tie ko at hinubad ang blazer bago siya sagutin, "Okay." tipid kong sagot at mukhang nadisappoint siya doon.

Napangiti naman ako ng palihim, still cute as ever.

After discussing a few things ay tinanong ko naman kung kailan libre si Tito para makausap ko tungkol sa kaso niya.

I got a piece of paper and wrote my number para may contact kami sa isa't isa. It may or may not take long for her to love me again, but at least she's here and we have contact again.

Paalis na sana sila ni Luca pero hindi ko mapigilan sarili ko na tawagin siya, "Caitlyn."

"Hmm?"

I smiled, "It was nice seeing you again." Agad naman siya umiwas ng tingin halatang namula ang pisngi niya.

Well, at least I know that she still has an effect from me. Her eyes tells me that she still loves me. Hindi niya kayang itago 'yon sa akin.

Caitlyn, I do still love you.

----

I was constantly looking at my watch, 3:30 ang usapan namin ni Caitlyn at lagpas na doon ang oras.

Ayaw ko pa naman malate! I want to be punctual since it's our first meet up again after seeing each other yesterday.

Sa segundong natapos ang meeting ay agad na ako lumabas at nagmaneho papunta sa bahay nila.

The guard let me in their property at nagparada naman ako malapit sa kotse ni Caitlyn.

Nilabas naman ako ni Caitlyn at ang ganda niya. Kahiy simple lang ang suot niya ay napaka ganda niya.

"Our parents... hated each other, right?" I asked cautiously and she just gave me a warm assuring smile. "Hindi na sila galit, Zayn. Nawala iyon nung dumating si..." natigil naman si Caitlyn sa pagsasalita at nginitian na lang ako ng alanganin.

Sino? Nacurious tuloy ako. Is she not... single anymore?

Pagpasok namin sa loob ng bahay nila ay naramdaman ko agad ang titig ng mga kaibigan niya. Bakit naman kaya sila nandito?

"Zayn, welcome to our home. Thank you for accepting the job to defend my husband." Tita told me and I gave her a smile.

"No problem po, Tita. Anything for Caitlyn." sagot ko at nakita ko ang pag mula ng pisngi ni Caitlyn. How cute, my baby.

I started discussing some of the information they have to know and I have to gain in order to defend Tito successfully.

At habang kinakausap ko sila ay si Caitlyn naman ay manghang mangha sa akin. Siguro naguguluhan siya at 'di maintindihan ang mga salitang lumalabas sa bibig ko pero nagiging interesado siya dahil malinaw ang pagkakausap ko sa magulang niya. Like a real Attorney.

I was sipping water when someone shouted, "Mommy!" isang magandang bata ang bumaba ng hagdan. Teka, tinawag niyang Mommy si Caitlyn? 'Di kaya... siya ang anak ko?

Tinitigan ko lang yung batang babae, her eyes... looks like mine. Damn, ito na ba ang anak namin? Alam kong baka nagaassume lang ako pero mukhang malaki ang chance na totoo. I want to hug her and our daughter. But I have ro restraint myself because she might not be ready to know that her father is in front of her.

"Mommy, who's this? Is this the Zayn you and Tita are talking about?" she innocently asked at inilipat lipat ko lang ang mata ko sa bata at kay Caitlyn.

"Yes, anak. This is Attorney Zayn Domingo." pagpapakilala niya sa akin at lumapit naman sa akin yung bata. "Hello po! My name is Zairah." she cutely said at agad ko naman siya nginitian.

Zairah... what a cute name. Even based on the name I know that... she's my daughter.

Lumapit si Zairah sa kanyang Mommy at may ibububulong pero ang lakas no'n kaya pati ako ay narinig 'yon.

"Mommy, he is handsome. You should marry him!"

Agad naman ako natawa, oh Zairah. I would love to marry your Mom.

"No anak, Attorney Domingo is already married." sambit niya sa kanyang anak at kumunot naman ang noo ko. Saan naman 'yon nangaling? Siya lang ang babaeng pakakasalan ko.

Natapos na kami at pagsakay ko sa kotse ay pumasok ulit sa utak ko ang sinabi nita na kasal na ako. So I wanted to clarify it to her kahit hindi niya kailangan. Para alam niyang sa kanya pa rin ako.

"I'm still... single you know?" I shyly said and she just nodded. Hindi alam ang gagawin.

I just chuckled as I drive away. Soon enough, I know you'll let me know that I'm the father of Zairah

----

The next few days where fun because I'm actually spending time with her again. It's like we're both looking for certain clues and evidence together for her Dad's case which makes my job more fun.

"Have you eaten yet?" tanong ko sa kanya, kanina pa kasi kami pumunta sa kung saan saan just to gather some witness to testify her father. Umiling naman siya.

"Why? Are you going to take me out for dinner?" she smirked and I smiled. "Do you want me to take you out?" balik kong tanong and umiwas naman siya ng tingin. I bit my lip to stop myself from smiling, ang cute niya kasi.

"Sige." sagot niya sa akin at ngumiti naman ako bago ilahad ang aking kamay. Nagtaka naman siya bago tanggapin 'yon and it felt like we were back in our carefree times. Noong nandoon pa kami sa Ilocos. Hindi naman ako magrereklamo, dahil 'yon naman talaga gusto ko eh.

Namiss ko ang dating kami kaya umaasa akong babalik kami sa ganoon. "Para kang teenager, yung galawan mo pang teenager." siningkitan niya ako ng mata at tinawanan ko lang siya as I drove off to a fine dining restaurant. Iniwan niya kasi ang kotse niya sa firm ko kaya hindi kami nag convoy.

While eating ay may lumapit sa amin ang isang naging client ko, "Hi Attorney Domingo, what brings you here?" malanding tanong nito sa'kin. Sanay naman na ako sa mga ganyang clients, masyado silang nagagwapuhan sa mukha ko eh. Tiningnan ko naman si Caitlyn and she was glaring at the woman. 

She looks intimidating, at nagseselos ba siya? 

"Can't you see that I'm having dinner with someone here?" masungit kong sagot at nakita ko na napangisi si Caitlyn bago isubo ang pagkain sa kanyang bibig. She must really like me turning down a girl huh?

"Sino 'yan? Client? I thought you don't date clients?" tanong niya sa akin at huminga naman ako ng malalim. "Look, 'wag kang makisawsaw sa personal life ko, okay? She's my girlfriend, now let us be." I replied at nasamid naman si Caitlyn. 

Nang makaalis ang babae ay sinipa niya ako sa ilalim ng lamesa, "Girlfriend huh?" she said before drinking water. 

"Why? Girl na friend." palusot ko at umiwas na lang siya ng tingin. After eating ay bumalik kami si firm at pinaalala ko muna sa kanya ang mga importanteng bagay sa office ko. 

"Are you going to take... Zai tomorrow?" I asked and her expression changed, not expecting na itatanong ko 'yon. I saw her bit her lip before she answered. "Do you.. want me to bring her?" I then nodded.

"I want to see my daughter again." mahinang sinabi ko at hindi niya naman 'yon narinig kaya safe. I don't want her to worry muna na alam ko na anak ko si Zairah. Pinaulit niya naman sa akin at umiling na lang ako. "Wala, I said I want to see Zairah again. She's cute and all, just like you." she took her gaze off me dahil alam kong namula siya. 

"Una na ako, hinahanap na siguro ako ni Zairah." Paalam niya sa akin kaya tumayo na ako para ihatid siya sa parking. Ito na ba ang perfect timing na sabihin sa kanya na liligawan ko siya? 

"Hey, would you still be interested if I court you?" I asked at natigil naman siya habang nakatitig diretso sa aking mga mata. I was about to take back what I said pero sumagot na siya. 

"Court me then. Prove to me that you're willing to correct all your wrongs... prove to me that you are willing to love me for who I am right now." she said as she drove off. 

I then smiled kasi pumayag siya. I will prove to you that I am willing to love you. 

----

The next day ay naitupad na ang hearing, I was pretty calm and composed while doing that which was very weird of me. Baka kasi nanonood si Caitlyn sa akin, I don't want to show her my other side in court kasi baka matakot siya. Besides, madali lang naman ang kaso kaya mabilis ko itong maipapanalo. 

Hindi na kailangan ng second trial dahil alam ko na masyadong malakas ang ebidensya namin to prove the other side guilty, or so to prove that Caitlyn's Dad is not guilty. 

After slapping the dirt on the oposition, wala naman na silang nagawa kaya ang ending ay nagdecide na agad ang jury.

Pagkalabas ko ng courtroom ay nahagip ng mata ko sila Caitlyn, lumapit naman si Zairah. "Mommy, I want to be like Attorney!" she said and I just chuckled. Sure, baby. Papagaralin ka no Daddy sa law school na pinagaralan ko kung gusto mo.

After we were called back to court they have decided and of course, I won the case. Pagkatapos namin doon ay lumabas na ako at nagulat na lang ako ng maramdaman ko ang yakap ni Caitlyn.

Niyakap ko rin naman siya at hinawakan ang likod ng ulo niya, "Thank you," she whispered. I smiled before answering her.

"Anything for the person I love." hindi akong nagdalawang isip sabihin 'yon sa kanya. He just hugged me tighter before her Dad treated us to the alley.

"Mommy, Attorney is handsome and nice, you are pretty and also nice. Why don't you two just marry each other." napangiti naman ako agad. Oh Zairah, I will marry her. Just you wait, anak.

"Zayn, anong masasabi mo? Gusto ka maging tatay ni Zairah." tanong ni Tito sa akin at agad akong naintimidate, grabe nakakatakot si Tito.

"I can be her father, Tito. I can propose to her right now kung gusto niyo." I replied at ang mukha ni Caitlyn ay parang kabadong kabado. "Do you still love our daughter?" sunod na tanong ni Tita.

Buo pa rin ang sagot ko sa utak ko, "Four years of separation, it's still her Tita. Mahal ko pa rin ang anak niyo." I answered.

After eating ay nagmessage sa amin ang aking mga kaibigan na may celebration ulit sa firm. Inaya ko naman si Caitlyn and surprisingly pumayag siya.

Medyo nagkagulo pa nga doon dahil mayroong humalik sa akin doon but good thing I announced na asawa ko si Caitlyn para wala nang gulo.

Well, soon to be wife pa lang. I'm sure I'll make her mine again.

That night, I felt her lips on mine again. God, I missed this feeling. It makes me want to own them every day.

----

"Zayn," she called my name and I turned to her.

"Hmm? Why po?" I asked.

"Do you know that you are the father of Zairah?" she asked at medyo nagulat naman ako pero I was already expecting this long time ago.

I smiled and gave her a kiss on the side of her temple, "Yes. Imposibleng hindi ko makita ang resemblance namin sa isa't isa." I replied at natahimik naman siya, not knowing what to say.

"You're not surprised?"

"Why would I be? Caitlyn, Love, iniwan kita noon with Zairah just because of a stupid reason. So okay lang sa akin na itinago mo muna ang totoo." I assured her.

----

Spending time with her and Zairah feels so surreal. It's fun loving to persons, my daughter and my soon-to-be wife.

I promise you I won't ever leave again, my love. Sayong sa'yo lang ako.

Though life has its ups and downs, I will do anything for her love, and I will never leave her to face any challenge alone.

I know she feels the same way; my love for her are pure and genuine. I'm willing to go to any length for her. Simply to ensure that she is at ease.

She is stunning when she smiles. She has brightened my recent days, and she is my peace in the midst of the storm.

Whatever they say about me, she is my world. I will always go out of my way to make her happy.

----

We were at Paris, pinapili ko siya kung saan niya gusto magbakasyon dahil deserve niya naman 'yon. It's also Zairah's first out of the country and I'm happy that she's traveling with me.

Plano ko naman na magpropose na sa kanya dito sa lugar na ito. Sayang naman, City of Love tapos hindi ko pa gagamitin para magpropose ako?

Bigla namang tumawag si Daddy kaya sinagot ko muna ito. "Yeah?"

[How's Paris, anak? Sigurado ka ba talaga na babalikan mo yung anak ni Flores?] tanong nito at agad akong sumagot.

"Hindi na nga magbabago isip ko, Daddy." seryosong usal ko at huminga siya ng malalim.

[Fine, basta dadalhin mo dito ang apo ko. And you'll let me kidnap Caitlyn for a prank.] he jokingly said at agad naman ako nagreact. 

"What the fuck, no Dad! Pag ginawa mo 'yon hindi mo mahahawakan si Zairah." sabi ko bago ibaba ang tawag. 

We were having so much fun here in Paris at nagprepare ako para sa araw na iyon. My proposal day, in the top of the Eiffel tower.

"Bakit naman sobrang aga, Zayn?" sabi ni Azaleah habang kinukusot ang kanyang mata. Ginising ko kasi sila para tulungan ako. I already called the staff sa Eiffel tower na irereserve ko yung tuktok no'n.

"Para hindi naghinala si Caitlyn." sagot ko at tumango naman sila. Lumabas naman kami ni Luca para bumili ng singsing. I bought her the most elegant looking one, perfect for her finger.  

"Pre, sinasabi ko sa'yo. Kapag nagawa mo pa ulit saktan si Caitlyn, papatayin na talaga kita." banta niya sa akin at tinawanan ko lang siya. "Dude, I promise you, I won't hurt her again. Wala nang rason para iwan ko siya. Wala nang hadlang sa aming pagmamahal." sagot ko at tumango naman siya.

The day went on and of course I enjoyed every moment of it, kasi lagi kong nakikita ang ngiti ni Caitlyn. That smile that I always want to see. 

We are currently at the top of the Eiffel tower and I am already ready to propose to her. She was surprised sa pinrepare ko but it's for her and she deserves this. 

She's too pretty. Naiiyak na nga ako agad eh, kasi I'm going to be proposing to her again and this time we will both end up getting married. 

Her beauty is beyond praise. She was looking at the starry night and it gave me the chance to observe her. I also looked  at the sky. Although the moon is the most magnificent of all lights, it is the stars that make the night appear gorgeous. In my opinion, she is the most divine, but it is the stars that twinkle in her eyes that make her stunning.

"Caitlyn..." I called her name and she turned her full attention to me at nagtama ang mga tingin namin. 

When I look into her eyes, I see beauty, when I look into her soul, I see passion, when I look into her head, I see knowledge, but when I look into her heart, I see the world. The world in which I aspire to live. She's such a lovely lady with a lovely heart. We'd all forget how to hate if the rest of the world discovered who she was.

"Surprise," I smiled and she gave me a warm hug. "Para saan?"

"Wala lang, you deserve to be surprised." I answered her and she nodded, natahimik naman kami. I was compiling all of my thoughts before I spoke. 

"Thank you, Caitlyn. For loving a person like me, for choosing to try again with me even if I broke your heart years ago. Thank you for letting me be a part of your life again and Zairah's life too..." I paused and took her hand to kiss it.  

"You saw my imperfections, and insecurities. I wasn't a good man for you, but you changed me to become a better person for us. I want to grow old with you, love. You mean the world to me and I don't want to lose you again." I leaned in until both of our foreheads were touching.

Tumulo na ang kanyang luha kaya pinalingon ko siya sa mga bituin. "Look at the stars, Caitlyn." Nang tumalikod siya sa akin ay kinuha ko ang singsing sa jacket ko at dahan dahang lumuhod. I waited for her to turn back to me.

And when she did, ngumiti siya as she looked at the ring.

Nginitian ko naman siya,  "I promise you, that this time... I will marry you no matter what happens. I promise you a lifetime of never ending love." I sighed before I continued. "Caitlyn Nicole Flores, would you share the rest of your life with me? To be officially Mrs. Domingo?" 

After a few seconds she nodded, "Yes. Of course, yes!" sinuot ko naman sa kanya and she looked  at it first before I hugged her.

"I love you so fucking much, Caitlyn." I told her.

"I love you more, Zayn."

I kissed her until we both needed to catch our breaths. 

She said yes!

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It's going to finally happen, I'm going to get married. Today!

Simula nang lumapag kami rito sa Ilocos ay hindi na kami ulit nagkita ni Caitlyn to follow the tradition.

There are 3 hours left before the wedding at kinakabahan ako. Malakas na ang kutob ko na iiyak ako pag nakita ko na siya maglakad sa isle.

"Are you excited bro?" tanong ni Geo sa akin at syempre tumango ako sa kanya.

Si Geo at Luca ang dalawa kong best man. Sila na rin ang magdadala ng singsing pati ang cord.

"Pustahan bro, iiyak so Zayn mamaya." sambit ni Luca kay Geo at nagtawanan naman sila. They've become really close since we landed here which was cool.

After 2 and a half more hours nagsimula na ang kasal at unti unti kaming pumasok. I practiced my wedding vow again and again para kabisado ko na.

The door closed again para mag ready for the entrance of my bride.

Nagpatugtog ang falling like the stars ni James Arthut at bumukas ang malaking pintuan and it's like my whole world turned into slow motion.

Nakita ko naman si Zairah na manghang nakatingin din sa kanyang Mommy. I know anak, your Mom is so gorgeous.

Tumulo naman ang aking mga luha dahil ito na 'yon eh. I'm finally getting married after so many years of waiting for the person I truly love.

When she reached the end of the isle inilipat ni Tito ang kamay ni Caitlyn sa akin at sabay kaming naglakad sa harap ni father.

The wedding ceremony of course proceeded.

Nang walang mag object sa amin we proceeded exchanging our vows.

"Zayn. I remembered the day when we met here in Ilocos, more specifically in Vigan City. If I were to be honest, I didn't plan on talking to you, because there was no reason for me to approach you. But it's like destiny was pushing us, aligning us to each other. That's why we happened. Unexpected thing happened, we got together that quickly. Even if I didn't experienced being courted, you made me feel so special that you were consistent in everything. You were courting me during the process of being together. Sadly we ended our relationship 3 years later and Zairah... our daughter was with me." she paused for a second to smile at me. I held her hand and reciprocated the smile.

"But we met 4 years later.. and I'm glad we did. Being with you made me feel at ease. You are my comfort, may hapiness. Thank you for choosing to be with me even if I am very complicated. Thank you for always being patient with me, I really appreciate you."

I was already so tempted to kiss her pero bawal pa. "Sabi nila you'll only get to experience love three times. In my case, you are my first love, greatest love, and hopeful love. I will cherish you forever my love. For better, for worse." she smiled.

My vow was simple compared to hers. Kaya mabilis ko lang 'yon binanggit.

"Do you Zayn Landon Domingo, take Caitlyn Nicole Flores as your lawfully wedded wife? To have ant to hold, from this day forward. For better, for worse. For richer, for poorer. in sickness and in health. Until death do you part?"

I smiled and looked at Caitlyn directly in the eye. "I do po."

"Do you Caitlyn Nicole Flores take Zayn Landon Domingo as your lawfully wedded husband? To have ant to hold, from this day forward. For better, for worse. For richer, for poorer. in sickness and in health. Until death do you part?"

"I do, father."

"Then I announce you, husband and wife. You are all gathered here as witness for Zayn and Caitlyn's union. You may now kiss the bride."

I then cupped her face and kissed her.

This feels so good.

After that agad naman silang nagpalakpakan. Lumapit naman agad sa'min si Zairah at niyakap kami.

Everything fell back in place. With my wife, my daughter.

Caitlyn Nicole Domingo.

Thank you for being my end game.

I will always love you.