She's just so beautiful

I say to myself

Almost in complete and utter amazement

As if I had watched an angel fell from the sky

And came to rest right in front of me

Her darkened wings lying softly folded on her shoulders

Her blue eyes and gentle eyebrows focused

Her delicate fingers writing gracefully on the parchment in front of her with a quill

And of course her halo

Shining so brightly that no other light could shame it

Not even the sun could outshine the golden ring around her head

And I too wear a ring upon my head

But it is not a halo

But a crown

A crown of blackened thorns

Growing and grafting, digging their way deeper and determinedly into my skull

I sit pressed against a wall

The point of a gigantic nail against my chest

My lips and body dried and cracked

My mind delirious and shattered

And my heart exploding out of my chest as it pounds away inside

Then I felt it

To my horror I felt it

The cracking

The nail being driven into my chest

With a hammer wielded by me

I watch as I drive the nail, hearing the metal ring

Blood flying from my mouth with anguished cries

Blood seeping from my gaping wound

My breath raspy and wheezing

I grab at the nail trying to pull it free

Trying to free myself

I look to see the angel

Setting her quill down upon her paper

And walking towards me her eyes fixated on my corpse

Her hand outstretched I grasp it with shaky desperation

I open my mouth to speak but can't

I have so much to say but I can't form the words

Almost in silent understanding she grabs the nail with her hands

And jerks it free from my chest, killing me, my blood soaking her

And staining her beautiful halo

I sink to the ground in a crimson bath of my own blood

I look up at her the sun shining past her

Tears form in my eyes but before a single one can drop

I slip into the infinite darkness

My body feeling cold but then I felt it

A warm, wonderous feeling on my forehead

I force my eyes open to the angel, my angel as presses a gentle kiss to my head

Easing my pain as I finally slip away