I need to actually stop putting out books im never going to pursue, so if this gets taken down kill me.

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Walking to my downtown school was fun. Not really, I honestly hate the outdoors when its hot I dont even go to school, I'm just a volunteer. My sister, madi, told me that she was going to have nick over again tonight, nick is one of madi's friends she always brings over, when he is in-town. I have never made contact with him but as of right now he had a wine red mullet and a intimidating look to him. 

Nick and I are told to be the same age, madi said I should hang out with him and his brothers but thats not happening, I keep my friend group tight and simple, ever since the incident I cant be letting people in. 

While I walk to the school im volunteering for, I think of the incident and other remaining problems surrounding me. As I walk into the school I get hit with the scent of playdough and hundreds of snotty kids and the deodorant the year sixers spray. 

It is hard to believe I was one of them at one point, as they are almost one of the most vile creatures on earth, the smell of adolescents is strong and almost over baring as I see high schoolers roam the little kids footpath and staff taking up space in hallways while they walk with their coffee mugs.

I pull out my phone as I set my stuff down in the support room, its madi ringing so I pick up instantly, its always urgent if she calls me while im at work. "Yes?" I say, "yeah so the triplets are staying over instead of just nick, you can come and sleep in my room or with mom cause the others are going to take up your bedroom" she says, my eyes widened and I froze for a minute.

My biggest concern would be if the boys found my notes or secret thing I dont like showing others including drawers with period products and snacks. In some cases sharing is not caring. "Madi, who made this decision, you or mom?" I say calmly even though every other part of my body is quacking with fear and curiosity.

"Me, but mom agreed she said it would be fine since they are like a second family" madi informs, "so you're telling me you and mom made this intolerable decision without talking to the person its going to impact most?" I say earning looks from other staff. "Yes but its for a week and a week only" she says, knowing it wont change how I feel.

We conversed for a while before hanging up I honestly dont know what to do, triplets staying in my room, I didnt even know they were triplets either until just then.

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The incident----------- 03/08/2020-

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Not too long ago I had a friend named karter who eventually turned into something more than just a friend, the decisions made in the relationship altered who I am and what mental positions I'm in today.

I went over to his house one morning on the third of august, he showed me around while warning me about the fighting that went on with his parents. He said he never got along with his baby brother cole, apparently they would fight all the time since he was now old enough to talk.

An hour or so later his parents were heard screaming while we sat with our backs against his wall, legs crossed watching a movie. Karters hand slid up my thigh as my eyes darted across his room noticing a knife and some sort of bullet.

Feeling uncomfortable I speak up, "Karter, I'm going to get a drink" I say getting up, "I dont think so your staying right here" he says in a menacing tone, I try to get away once more. As I untangle from his grip he reaches for the knife, I run from his room passing the one his parents are fighting in and un able to get any further his brother approaches me.

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"Hey are you ok?" his brother asks with a cute baby-ish laugh, it made my heart melt but race even faster at the same time. Knowing it could be my last moment a few tears escaped my eyes as I let out a simple, "yeah".

I hear his brother coming, "your brother and I are playing hide and seek, dont tell him where I am ok?" I say making up a desperate lie on the spot, "ok piper" he chuckles and continues playing with his toys. 

The door I try to escape will not budge, so instead of leaving I hear threats, "fucking cunt, tell me where she is or you get it" I hear karter yell, 'what the fuck' I mumble as I fiddle the lock with my bobby pin.

I hear the little boy scream in pain as I finally unlock the lock and turn back to see cole laying on the floor unconscious with a trail of blood near his face. I immediately scream as I leave the house, getting in my car and stepping on the gas.

Tears streamed down my face, how could he kill a little boy that brutally. I  could have been the one to die that day. I should have been the one to die that day. I should have been the one on the floor, bleeding out. That laugh of his as he killed him will forever be trapped in my mind.

That is one of the reasons we moved houses, the main one in fact. So if you're still wondering how that affects any of my friendships you have to dig deeper and think for yourself, you never know if anyone is going to be a creep, I never had known karter to be a monster.

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"Hey natalie" I say to one of my students, Im a help teacher which is basically a guidance councilor. "well if it isn't my favorite teacher" she tells me sitting on the beanbag, "right back at you, except your a student, who should be in class" I inform her, "blah-blah, I hate math, pleasseeeee get me out of it".

"teacher?" I ask, "Mr, tunes" she says as I put that she is in here in the notes, "make yourself a drink and something to eat" I tell her as she stands up and take a bite out of the crumbly brownie I keep on the desk.

"somethings bothering you piper" nat says, she always knows what's wrong and I believe she is the most observant person on this planet.

students. 

people surrounding me.

who will look after me?

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Will piper find the answer to the question she has been asking for years?