Eunmi's POV

"She deserves it." I close my phone and sit at a couch. The news wasn't even shocking. She's too dumb.

Who's she? Seoyeon of course.

Her mental health dropped again. She shouts every night. She says the name 'Yoongi' too many times. She might be crazy.

In a blink of eyes , I cried. Why did I do this?! Why do I thought she deserved it?! Did I just...

Did I just wanted to eliminate my rival?!

I made a game in myself. I...Fought for someone who is dead... This is all greed... All lust...

I shouts in fear , scared that I'm controlled by the greed to win the dead Jungkook and my 'full of lust' love. I curled in the corner of the living room.

I love him too much. I made a false step and I lost him from my eyes. I killed him by myself! I'm...A murderer!

I stepped quickly to the sink. The water rushed and I wash my hands. The guilty when I killed him will not dissapear. I still see some blood on my hands. Jungkook's blood.

I shouts in fear and dissapointment. Even if I cried blood , neither Jungkook or LUNAR will come back. All of them dissapeared from my eyes!

"All of them are dead , Eunmi! Can't you accept the truth?!" I shouts to myself as I cried at the kitchen. I could hear someone knocking my door , but I ignore it.

The tears , guilty , love and sins will never dissapear. No matter how I try to get away from them. My life was destinied to be like this. All of the happiness are not permanent.

Yoongi , Jungkook , LUNAR or even Seoyeon will not stay permanent in my life.

They're nothing but a placeholder before I cry even more when they become even more important.