Regraining After
Dylan version
That one night I stayed in our room with Suz was the best. Today marks seven almost eight months of my pregnancy and therapy. We just talk about about things and how to cope mostly communication. The therapist to me well us to should start the maternity leave. I'm thinking about it but not now at the moment. The drives going and back are still quiet I don't know we do the talking in therapy but after it's just small talk. Anthony said he might be leaving soon than what he said. He offered us to drive us to therapy. But Gerald wanted to drive to the office. The one thing is we want to regain everything after it happened to us.
After the therapy session we did seen a lot of processes during but at the house it seems like the same. Anthony left to the house he was interested to buy for his family. I was in the living watching the television. Gerald was in the kitchen cooking for the kids. "The food is ready."
"I'll come over in a bit." I respond but knowing myself I would take the food to the living or in one of the guest room. Gerald looks at me "what?"
"Nothing." He looks the other way. He take a breath not trying to get mad "why isn't this working? All the process we do in therapy. He even says we're progressing well but here it's the same like you're avoiding me or don't want to be around me." A tear goes down on his face "what's the one thing you want me to do so we can get back like the old good days where we didn't go through this. How we got excited for the arrival of our kids. We couldn't stop smiling or talking about our future."
"I...I..." I went to the room. I'm causing him pain to him not the other way around. I didn't hear anything from the kitchen. Gerald must of took the kids somewhere for space. I went to the master bedroom. I see a box tied with a ribbon. I opened it. It was all pictures of us, me and Gerald going on dates, going on tour, the day when Suz and the twins were born, our wedding day, our honeymoon, photos of us in festivals before he or we performed and our vacations. Everything he collected from us because he cared. Underneath the photos I seen the necklace the one my mother gave me and after Gerald fixes it to me. Then I seen the heart shaped necklace that I left him when the whole scandal happened. Still the same. The one thing he wanted us to happen. I put on the necklace. "What have I done." I seen myself in the mirror. I have to fix this and put in my part.
I was sitting in the couch waiting for him. The door opens, it was him and Anthony. "Can I talk to you Gerald, alone?" I get up from the couch. Gerald looks at me
"Yeah sure." Anthony looks at us "I'll catch up with you later bro, and thanks for showing me the new house. It's going to be lit having you, Monroe and the kids here again in the bay."
"Yeah I know she's going to love it. And don't worry I'll pick up the kids from your moms house." Anthony leaves. Gerald closes the door.
"I just want to say I'm really really sorry for always ignoring you and not wanting to talk to you. After I seen the box with our photos together I just want that back."
"You're wearing the necklace?" He looks at me "after you left the one thing I seen was that same necklace on the table. I thought I lost you forever. I know you're here now but I don't feel the real you here."
I hugged him "I'm so sorry Gerald."
"It's okay, Dylan. I have you back. That's the only thing I want." He looks at the bump. "Can I touch my son?"
"Yes." He lays his hand on the bump. I put my hand in the bump. "I feel him move."
"I do to. How long are we going to meet him?"
"Two months."
"Did you think of a name yet?"
"Not yet. What were you thinking?"
"I'm not sure. Since you're good with names."
"I'll think about it. We should take baby steps to regaining everything." I nodded my head.
Gerald and I talked about where is the baby sleeping or the room. We both thought it was an idea to have the baby in Hayden and Ashton room so they can be more close. Suz will be lonely for a while but she's happy that she didn't get to share the room but will be a big sister when her baby brother is born. While us we're still working on it.
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