Dylan version
It's already been a month not knowing anything of Gerald. I know were not together but I can't keep him away from our kid. It hurts me how he's hurting himself because of my stupid decision I made. There's so many things he's missing that I can't turn back time but each day I wish I could do.

Guilt is what I have now.

I came back home from the doctor. Everything is going well. Everyone thinks I moved on with my life like I said I would. No I couldn't. There's so many missing pieces that he's missing, that we should be doing together. Not this way.

Jess and Mia gave me all the company that I needed at this time but the only thing I actually needed most is Gerald.

Jess came back from meeting with Gerald and Matt. She doesn't want to tell me anything but I know what he doing. He thinks that I don't care but I do care a lot, I want to help him. I want to make things better between us now then ever.

Mia was finished preparing dinner. Her classic spaghetti. I was getting more hungry. I went to the kitchen to get more food. I heard voices from the other room. Then I heard the door open. I turned around and thought it was Gerald. It was Matt.
"Oh, hey Matt"
"Hey Dylan, feeling great?"
"Um yeah."
"So where's Jess?"
"She's in the other room with Mia."
"Okay thanks. See you later."
"Okay." He walks to the other room. That was strange. I placed my plate down. I quietly walked to the door. I heard them talking of something. They didn't want to tell me. Then Matt opened the door.
"Dylan?" They we're staring at me
"I know what you guys were talking about. Is it about Gerald?"
"Yes but..." Said Mia
"What's going on? What aren't you guys telling me?"
"Cause we thought that you didn't cared and moved on with your life so we stop telling you." Said Jess
"No I didn't! I know what I did wrong. All of this is my fault. I can't move on because deep down I still want him to be in my life, I want to be with him. So what's going on with him that I don't know."
"Go ahead Matt. This was the moment to tell her." Said Jess
"Tell me what!? What's going on that I don't know!?"
"Dylan, he's dying slowly. He's not him. It's someone else." Said Matt
"It's Eazy isn't it?"
"No. Not even him. Since you ended he has been drinking alcohol nonstop, consuming shit loads of drugs that I didn't even know about. I took him one day to the E.R and his doctor told me if he continues doing this shit. His heart with stop functioning and he will die. And never meet his kid. Last night he had his last drink, he said no more. He quit doing that because he wanted to be with you and his kid."
"This is all my fault. I'm doing this to him."
"It's not Dylan. That that moment you were angry, upset for what he did." Said Mia

They were right.

"Matt take me to him."
"Dylan?" Hesitated Jess
"I want to see him myself."
"It's not the right time." Said Matt
"It is! I've been here acting that I don't give a fuck of my baby or him! But no, the only thing I've been going to stress, because of my fault. And I know I'm not supposed to. I want to be with him like the old days. I want to tell him how much I love him and apologized for what I done. Matt please take me to him."
"Dylan I think you should rest." Said Mia
"No! If none of you guys don't want to take me, I have no problem to go to each place and to look for him."
"Alright I guess nothing or anything can't stop you." Said Matt.

I went to the room and changed. I dressed in a decent outfit. So he can see how is it growing. I walked out to the living room to put on my shoes. I got into Matt's car.

Here goes nothing.