I Can't Do This
Dylan version
Lately everything has been great at the moment. Gerald has been more around us. But I need to tell him now before he finds out himself. Okay I found out that I'm pregnant again. That's was what Gerald and I wanted more kids. I'm eight weeks. I don't know what to do.
I was at the office. Gerald was at his office. My time to tell him. God why am I scared. I should be excited about this. I took a deep breath before walking in. I seen him with a smile "Hey baby."
"Hi." I seen him pretty busy "are you busy? I have to tell you something, it's umm important."
"I'm never busy for you." He stops what he was doing "what is it?" I show him the two pregnancy test
"I'm pregnant. We're having a baby." By the looks of it he wasn't happy. I get nervous. He gets up from his chair grabbed his keys. I had to follow him and grabbed the two test. I got in his car. He was talking to a colleague then he gets in the car. We didn't talk on the way home. He parked his car in the driveway of the house "how long are you?" He asked without looking at me
"Eight weeks."
"Um okay. This is to much. What are you going to do about it?"
"What are you talking about?! I'm going to keep it. It's our baby?! I'm not just going to have a fucking abortion?!" He doesn't talk or look at me "you don't want it, don't you?"
"It's not because I don't want it... I just can't do this right now. I can't do this! To you it's very simple because you surprised me with more and more. Can't you just quit it for once?"
"Me? Quit it for once? You're the one who told me a fucking month ago that you wanted to complete your family! You want to have five kids and now you say this shit!"
"Yes that was in the past now it's now! I changed my mind! We have to many kids. I can't do this now." He doesn't talk for a while "I don't what are you going to do but I'm not going to be part of that baby life."
"I can't believe you. You're seriously acting like you're own dead beat father. Not caring for his child. But for the other kids you do. That's great to know." I get out of the car "Well since you can't do this, I can't just lie every time about my feelings about this whole fucking situation! Where's my husband that I married? Where's the man I fell in love with who was happy and wanted the good for his family?" I closed his door. I walked in the house to calm down. I heard Gerald car turn on.
If he doesn't want to be part of this baby life then I should move on with out him with the kids.
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