This story is actually a re-written Stray Kids fic turned ATEEZ fic that I started around two years ago. I updated a lot of the early chapter content and word usage! Up until chapter fourteen is where I had stopped writing, so after that, it should read more familiar to anyone who's read from me before. 

ANYWAYS, let's get right down to it... This story will have quite a few trigger warnings and I always want my readers to be safe, so here is the great big list!

Content Warnings:

PTSD

Heavy drug and alcohol use

Addiction

Drug dealing

Graphic smut

Death and suicide mentions

Overdose

Mental, physical, and emotional abuse

Toxic relationships

Grooming

Age-gap relations

Dubious sexual situations

Withdrawal

Psychiatrist visits (and likely incorrect information regarding their speech and how they would actually handle things)

Panic attacks; emotional breakdowns

MxM, MxF, FxF

I really want everyone to know going in, just in case you are sensitive to any of these topics. These topics will be present throughout the entirety of this story, and if you are, in any way, uncomfortable reading about them, then I suggest skipping out on this one. I will not be putting specified warnings at the beginning of chapters.

Summary:

Wanting to better his life and find happiness within himself, San tries to let go of the past and be okay with the changes that come with leaving old habits behind. But first, he must confront those demons head-on and realize what's truly good for him.

Seonghwa or Wooyoung?

Or... maybe a whole other person altogether?

A rollercoaster of a story about drug abuse and addiction, love that you just can't let go of, and coming out on the other side with nothing holding you back.

Will you join us?