HAZEL ARORA

Tears streamed down my face as I cried and cried. I was wailing my eyeballs out. I couldn't even understand what the fuck was this. Why did it ever have to happen?

Why Kaia?

This was my entire fault. If I was careful enough with the tracker back then, Kaia would be happily sitting in her bed with a magazine in her hand as usual.

I sat down the small bathroom floor and turned the showerhead on with the hottest degree possible, as if I was drowning myself. I have had spent days, even nights, locked up in attics but, I felt extremely claustrophobic for the first time ever. I felt my body burn and my throat sounded extremely retchy.

I kept crying and burning my skin and suddenly the bathroom door barged open.

"Oh fuck! Hazel, love, no!" Ayushmann's pleading voice echoed round the bathroom. In a second, he turned the shower off and he held me by my shoulder in an attempt to rise me up. I barely stood up, half falling on to his body. He held me gently and I heard a slight wince on his body as he came in my contact.

"Uh!" I broke out suddenly and my eyes widened instantly. I went to the toilet seat and retched the bile.

Ayushmann held my hair in his hand and rubbed his hand on my back softly.

"Hazel, love, please look at me." He said in an extremely worrying voice after I finally finished vomiting. "Come here." He said as he directed me towards the sink.

I had no energy in my body, and I felt as if I would faint any second soon. I obeyed involuntarily. He splashed cold water on my face which felt refreshing, and I opened my eyes.

I could see Ayushmann's eyes watered. I had barely stopped crying when I choked out, "Ayushmann, Kaia!" And I started crying again. "Shh! C'mere." He said in a reassuring voice.

I let my body fall into his as he hugged me tight despite me being drenched in hot water.

"It's all my fault, Yush! The tracker" My voice sounded the ugliest, but I couldn't help it.

"What? No! Love, it's not your fault, please don't say that." He said in a voice that sounded like he already understood why it happened.

"How can I not? Remember I lost my tracker the night we went for Ollivsanse's meeting?" I said in between cries.

"I know! But it wasn't your fault, Haze. That fucking bodyguard almost choked you, and it just fell off. You were in a grave danger that night." He said and I could feel his body heating up in anger.

"I- I don't even know what to say. If it weren't for me, she wouldn't have ......"

He took a pack of sleeping pills from his pocket and before I could stop him, he had popped one in my mouth. "Please, Hazel." He pleaded. I gulped some water barely and before I knew it, I was lying on my bed in a deep slumber.