Mmk I just need to vent about something that happened yesterday

--Just coming out of gymnastics....feeling real depressed and hurt.

There's this girl today (yesterday) who, for some reason, was feeling really sassy? So first off, we're moving mats in the pit, and she says "Grace's face looks like a butt....like it actually does if you really look at it!" and hit me over the head twice with a pit block after I grabbed her ankle to get her attention and she practically screamed "EW GET YOUR DISGUSTING HANDS OFF ME!"

When she commented on my face, I'm like 'um, what? That was really uncalled for?'

And ok yeah I know I sweat a lot, but that's not really something I can control without taking pills to regulate it. I don't need more medication for something so small as perspiration, especially when compared to other things.

Then later, I'm trying to avoid her, and she comes up to me and says "why are you hiding in the back room?" At this point I'm totally emotionally exhausted and not feeling great, still mulling over what she said maybe 15 mins earlier, so I don't respond so she than says "is it because you're like "oh I know the jo people better than anyone else?" (Jo is the junior olympics program)

Inside I'm thinking 'Uhhh what? Is there an issue with me having friends?'

I tell her I'm trying real hard not to punch her, she laughs, turns around, and let's go of a rope that then swings and accidentally hits me in the face. I know she didn't mean to, but it hit my face and came pretty close to my eye with a little more force than necessary.

Then at the end of practice another teammate gives me a pit block to squish because I'm so upset, and we've got the last 5 minutes as free time. Somehow she got a hold of the block and when I asked "may I please have this pit block back?" She asks "why do you need it?" I'm about to move away when she throws it at my face and mutters "well you're full of sass today" don't know if I was supposed to hear it but I did

She sounded so annoyed with me. I don't know what I did to make her so mad and hate me, but she somehow managed to capitalize on a lot of my insecurities. I don't like how I look already, people think it's really disgusting that i sweat a lot which isn't something I can control. I don't think I was being rude when asking for the block, but she acted as if I had practically snatched it away from her.

She makes me wanna quit bc if I have to deal with this I can't. Confrontations like this leave me emotionally exhausted and i just can't handle it. Im really upset, hurt an down rn and what she said today legitimately has me wanting to throw myself off a cliff so I don't have to deal with this bullshit anymore--

Um so on another note

I might be bi? Like I've had crushes on guys and stuff before but I think I'm falling for this one girl?

Uhhh

Ye