Hayes and I spent the day in bed. I then pulled him out of bed and outside to the beach. I didn't want to do this, but I no longer had a choice.

from BLOCKED

Don't think about telling him. Im watching your every move

I swallowed the lump in my mouth walking down to the beach.

"Hayes we need to talk." I stuttered. He looked at me waiting to continue.

"Im sorry but I cant do this anymore. I think we need to break." I said faintly, holding back all the tears I could. He looked up at me, gazing into my eyes. I think he new something was up.

He squinted his eyes shaking his head. "No no, you don't mean it." He said looking away. "Hayes I-"

"Please don't leave me again. I have worked so hard to get you back. I I love you." He begged. I felt a tear stroll down my face. "I lost the spark." I lied.

He sighed. For once in what seems like a million years, he had tears run down his face.

"If it makes you happy. Then Im happy." he whispered with a half smile.

I hugged him as tight as I could before he let go and walked away from me.

I sat in the sand crying, letting my emotions flow everywhere. Why?