It has been two days since the encounter with the, still unknown, man. I have not had the strength to even get out of bed . Jimmy brings my food up here, but thats it. No encounter with any other human being for Two in a half days, not even on social media or TV.  I would be lying to you if I said I didnt miss Hayes, but at the same time, I would be lying if I said I wanted to see him. 

"Knock Knock." I shot my head over to the door, seeing Hayes standing there with a rose. "How ya feeling?" he walked over to me, sitting the rose in my lap, laying next to me on my bed. "Im fine now, I want to do something." I looked up at him. "Lets go to the beach!" I yelled springing out of bed. "Lynn its 10:00 at night." I looked back at him, "Your point is?" he shrugged and pulled out his phone, waiting for me to get ready.

I put on my bathing suite and shorts and a crop top, then jumped on top of Hayes. He then picked me up over his shoulders running down stairs. "Hayes put me down!" I screamed laughing. "You shouldnt have tackled me." He said sitting me down once we reached the gate, leading towards the beach. "I did not 'tackle' you, I jumped on you, theres a difference." I stated. we  began walking. "How are they different?" I was trying to think of something to say.

"Ugh whatever." I rolled my eyes. We walked down to the beach, The water was just now setting, the tides wernt too low, or too high. Just the way I like it. I had felt a little weird being in my bathing suite around Hayes again. I dont know, but it felt weird. When he slipped his shirt off, It was like his abs had gotten even sexier. he then walked closer to me. I had my arms crossed over my stomach. "You dont have to be weird around me Lynn." he whispered in my ear. I nodded as he grabbed my hand, pulling me towards the water.

The water was calm and warm, just the way I liked it. We had regular conversations, and an occasional water splash fight. A big wave had hit us pulling us under water. When I came out of the water, I looked around not seeing Hayes. I then felt a two arms wrap around my waist. I turned around and hit Hayes."Don't do that!" he had just bent over laughing, as we got closer to the land.

I turned around crossing my arms. He walked towards me wrapping him around me. "Im sorry beautiful." he begged. I turned around with my hands resting on his chest, as his were around my bac and waist. I instantly felt the sudden urdge to kiss him, but I couldnt. Half of me still couldnt let everything that happend to us go. He licked his lips and slowly leaned in. I found myself leaning in two seconds before his lips were met with mine.

I pulled away and turned away from him. "I-I cant." I felt the tears coming into my eyes. "Lynn, dont fight it. If you have feelings for me tell me." He stepped closer. "I-I dont." I said vagley. He grabbed my arm turning me around. "Your lying." I shook my head, squinting my eyes."N-No I am not." I looked down. "Kiss me again, then look me in the eyes, and tell me you dont have feelings for me still." Before I could answer, his lips were smashed onto mine. The kiss was long and passionate. As much as I wanted to tell him I still wanted him, I couldnt let him off this easy, like I did the other two times.

We both pulled away. He was starring me down waiting for an answer. "well?" I just looked away. I couldnt tell him that I still loved him, but If I told him I didnt, he would know that I am lying. He picked my chin up,"Please, say something." I begged. I pushed him gently away from me and slipped my clothes back on. "I liked it okay? But I cant like it, I am not going to just fall back into your arms. That is not how it works or is going to work." I then ran back up to the gate, hoping Hayes wasnt behind me.

I had grabbed the throw blanket for the outdoor swing and layed into the blanket crying. I had stopped for about two minutes before I felt Hayes sit on the swing as well. We had starred at each other for a moment, I then threw my arms around him and began to cry again. "Im sorry Hayes, I just dont know what I want. I dont want to get hurt again," I cried into his shirt. He rubbed circles on my back to calm me down. "Loosing you, is the worst mistake I could ever make." are the last words that had came out of his mouth. He picked me up bridal style walking me back inside, I was soaking wet, and it was freezing.

I was half asleep as Hayes had changed me into new clothes. At that point, I didnt care if he saw me like that. He had laid me down on the bed. "Im so sorry. Goodnight beautiful." he whispered in my ear giving me a soft kiss on my cheek. before leaving my room.

I hope I wasnt starting to like him again.