I woke up late around 12 sunday. I remembered the events that occured last night. I knew it wasnt a dream.

I walk downstairs and get an apple. I walk back upstairs and change into skinny jeans and a tank top with my moms necklace.

I walked out the door and to the park. I needed some fresh air. I was still taking in what had happend last night. Where was Hayes? i didnt care anymore.

I walked over to the park bench and sat down. I was so confused. I looked down at my feet. "If Hayes cared, he would have been there for you." A voice in my head said. I shook my head to get the thought out of my mind.

I looked up and couldnt believe my eyes. Was it really? I scruntched up my eyes again to see if I was seeing correctly.

I knew what I saw. It was Hayes and Maggie kissing.

I didn't know what to think. Literally. I couldn't be mad that he did it because were not really boyfriend and girlfriend but I could be mad because he lied to me.

"L-Lynn?" i heard Hayes say. He pulled away from Maggie immediately and she smirked. "I knew he never wanted you. No one wants a fat cow. I told you to stay away. He was always mine."

Ouch.

"I mean, he left you at the party for me. I hope you know."

Ouch.

"He never liked you. He just did all that because his brother told him to."

He stood there speechless as my heart shattered.

Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.

I then was in tears. I didnt want to deal with it anymore. I turned around and began walking away.

The words repeated through my head. Did he really leave for her? did Nash really make him spend time with me?

I regretted everything. Excepting the apology. Letting him take me out on a 'date'. Going to the haunte house with him and the party. and most importantly, my first kiss, and all the others.

I had tears streaming down my face. I had no one. Shawn was on tour and so was Cameron and Matt. I have no friends here. Eve is gone for who knows how long.

I feel abandoned

I knew no one cared for me anymore. I just wanted to leave. I wanted to get away from everyone.

Especially Hayes.

I promised myself to never do this. But its not like anything is going to get better. As soon as school comes tomorrow, they are all going to go back to bullying me and Hayes would deny everything that happened between us.

Every kiss. Every hug. And every feeling.

I walked to my room and sat down. I pulled out a piece of paper and a pen.

Hayes,
I apologize for everything I have ever done. I knew it was too good to be true. To feel loved by anyone. I promise you i will stay out of your way. I regret everything that happened between us, because, in the end you will regret everything as well.
Im leaving. Everyone. I wont feel pain anymore. I just wish you understood. What its like to feel unloved. Hated. Abandoned.
I apologize.
Adalynn.

I folded up tohe paper and stuck it in my pocket.

I approached his house and knocked on the door. I knocked on the door. Nash answered.

"Hey is Hayes home?" he shook his head. "Oh well will you give this to him." I asked. He nodded and took the piece of paper. "Are you okay?" he asked. I sighed and nodded. "I will be." And walked away.

I got upstairs and shut my door. I walked into the bathroom and turned the water on. I want to do this but at the same time I don't. I sat in th water and turned it off. I grabbed the razor.

"Im so sorry for everything I have done. Im so sorry." I said and cut my left wrist once.

"This is for trying to find love somewhere."

Cut.

"And this one is for Hayes."

Cut.

Everything went black.