"Only know your high when your feeling low"-Passenger

That summed up my life. I had never really paid much attention to those delicate words. But I guess that goes all to well with just about everything in my life. Last year I would still be the same dork I always was. I would be a nerd, but a happy nerd.
Happiness was stripped from my life about the same time everything else fell apart. As if my family's death wasn't enough I knew it was my fault. If I hadn't wanted to go on a stupid day trip I would be the same dorky nerd reading books on the couch with coffee. Instead all I seem to be able to do.