grumbling in his sleep, jeffrey shuffled his position on the bed when the sunlight came inside the room and had hit him. he then had his brow furrowed, finding it strange how the light managed to get in the room when no one ever dares to come inside his own room except for his little brother. he always has his alarm waking him up and his parents knows how responsible he is in managing his time already. then his sister, she would sometimes just knock the door to wake him up but other than that, yanna just greets him down at the living room or annoy him inside the kitchen.

his curtains are always closed and he doesn't remember having it opened last night- wait, last night?

the wong shot right up from the bed and startled the small figure that got out of the bathroom with his dress shirt on, drooping down till it reached his thighs. ❝great, your awake!❞

❝oh my god, i'm so sorry.❞ burying his head down on the palm of his hands, jeffrey let out a sound of annoyance. ❝i didn't get to go home last night.❞

the younger that finally buttoned his dress shirt gave the male a small smile before going over to his closet and finding his slacks to wear for school. ❝it's alright, you were just probably tired.❞

❝did i fall asleep in the middle of helping you with your homework?❞ the older that's still on the bed then had his eyes trailing at the boy and can't help but stare at his petite body and how he wanted to have it in his arms. but for god's sake, it's too early in the morning to feel this way.

twenty mumbled a curse word when he couldn't find his school slacks and thus leaving him with no choice but to pick up any of his pants that's close to looking like it. ❝no, you asked for a short nap but ended up sleeping over for the night.❞

an apologetic chuckle was heard coming from jeffrey but was then surprised for the second time when he lowered his head down and saw that he wasn't wearing any shirt. that caused for him to panic, ❝hey, we didn't do anything last night, did we?❞

except for cuddling, no, sadly, they didn't. though, twenty didn't want to mention anything about cuddling as he did not want his heart broken into pieces with the older's words saying that it doesn't mean anything. ❝you were dead asleep, snoring so loud.❞

heat rose up to the wong's cheeks, embarrassed at what the smaller male had commented about his snoring being so loud. he had heard of this countless of times from jiro but he never really did care about it since he sleeps alone with his room and he never does sleepovers like that park. well, except during summer when all of his parents' friends gather at the beach resort. but other than that, he never bothered changing that trait of his.

not until now when the younger is mentioning it, making him conscious of that habit.

jeffrey turned his head to the side and took his phone from the nightstand. as expected, he got dozens and thousands of calls and messages from his parents talking about his whereabouts and why he didn't come home. as he was in the middle of typing an excuse, he had just received a text message for jiro saying that his parents called them last night and he had already lied and saved his ass by saying that he is with the parks.

satisfied with that, he sent a short thank you before throwing his phone down the bed and getting up to stretch his arms and body. not long after, his eyes went back over to the younger male and saw him having his arms folded across his chest and a frown visible on his face. opposite to the taller one who's smiling as he strode his way to him and wrapped his arms around his small waist, staring at the full length mirror that showed how disgustingly sweet the two of them are being in the morning.

❝what's with the long face?❞ he questioned, putting his chin down on the shorter's shoulder.

❝that's unfair,❞ twenty puffed his cheeks as he was genuinely upset, eyes still fixed on their reflection at the body mirror. ❝why do you have such a nice built? you're huge!❞

he was honestly flattered by the compliment but he couldn't help but be flustered at how he worded it, and how his mind was going to places with it. after having this kind of relationship with the younger, his innocent mindset was already being kissed goodbye and everything he thought of was never the same ever again.

❝i meant it in every way,❞ the shorter male continued when hen noticed the other being utterly silent. ❝you are so large.❞

❝d-don't say that.❞ a groan was herd from jeffrey as he buried his face down and snuggled to the crook of the younger's neck.

it was ticklish for twenty, especially with his warm breath teasing his skin, but he was more on to complaining. ❝seriously, how did you get that kind of built?❞

❝genes?❞ the taller shrugged. ❝or maybe working out.❞

❝but you don't work out! you just play basketball.❞ he told him, making hand gestured to show how frustrated he is with this. ❝i dance, i joined cheerleading, but i-❞

❝baby, you're beautiful just the way you are, okay?❞

twenty froze from his place with his eyes widened, looking like he was taken aback by surprise. though, he doesn't know whether it's because he was being reassured in the most sweetest way by the older or the fact that he heard the wong call him babe. ❝what?❞

and it seems like jeffrey was not aware of what he had just sprouted out awhile ago. he just smiled at the mirror and admired how the dress shirt is too big for the younger that it was flowing down on him like a literal dress. and if he stands up properly, the height difference between them was obvious and it's like watching a tree and a flower being together. ❝you're beautiful.❞

❝no, before that, what did you say-❞ taking a deep breath, he decided to shrug it off. it's not that important anyways. ❝nevermind, you should take a bath and call someone from your house to bring your uniform here. we still have classes, if you might have forgotten.❞

removing his arms around the smaller's waist, jeffrey moved back with a yawn and arms stretched once more. ❝i only have afternoon classes today so i still have time to go home and change.❞

turning around to face him, twenty first stared at the taller male for a few seconds before taking a step closer to him and throwing his arms over his shoulders. the wong was already getting used to how spontaneous the younger was. so, he decided to go with the flow and also settled his hands on the smaller's hips and brought him closer till he bumped to his chest. as twenty was tiptoeing and leaning towards him with his gaze down on his lips, jeffrey tilted his head to the side and closed his eyes while having his hands going under the dress shirt and feeling his skin underneath it. they were already an inch closer and they had expected for their lips to connect.

❝oh, wait. so, you're gay now?❞

but then, a voice was suddenly heard by the door that startled the and made them push themselves away from each other. with jeffrey immediately getting a shirt to wear just to look presentable, twenty was being a blushing mess as he covered his bare legs being exposed because of how he was only wearing the uniform's dress shirt and not slipping in to the pants he got from his wardrobe. damn it, he mentally cussed at how his sister had to ruin his moment with the wong.

❝h-hey, cess.❞ nervously rubbing his hand over his nape, jeffrey tried to be polite by greeting the girl by the door.

❝what the fuck are you doing here, fred?❞ despite of looking like he was about to blow up any second from now, his voice remained composed.

the female suh snorted at how flustered her brother is. ❝breakfast is ready and papa told me to also let your boyfriend join with us.❞

clicking his tongue, twenty approached her with a look on his face and brows furrowed. ❝princess suh.❞

❝what's wrong with being gay?❞ the girl chuckled, waiting for this perfect moment to tease her brother about it. ❝our fathers are one, you can just come out to them anytime.❞

one of the many things he hated the most was being two inches shorter that his sister and it might not be a big gap but he still had to look up at her whenever they'd argue like this. ❝whatever you saw awhile ago, zip it.❞

she annoyed him more by stating something without knowing the whole story. ❝admitting to them is just like counting, it's easy. you can just say that-❞

❝they don't know i broke up with yanna already.❞

❝oh,❞ the girl stared down at her brother before having her eyes darting at the much more older guy who's giving her a sheepish smile with a small wave. it took her a while, or a few seconds, before she finally got it processed inside her head. ❝oh?❞

hissing in disappointment at one of his family members has slowly come to find out how he was playing with his own life. he then raised his hands up and pinched the bridge of his nose to think of a way out of this before they all get fucked up with their own parents.

but looks like cess is still in the midst of understanding things. ❝so you broke up with your girlfriend, just to be with girlfriend's older brother?❞

well, yes and no. he had a long explanation as so why he ended his relationship with her but there's no way he's going to repeat it again here. ❝barbie, don't complicate the complicated, alright?❞

many might see her as a not so perfect sister, which she really isn't and would even admit to that, and even though she quarrels with him every second of the day- her brother's problem is still his problem and she didn't want to be part of it. although, she questioned what she just saw minutes ago. if the two of them aren't together, then why does it look like they were about to kiss?

what was her brother up to this time?

❝from zero to eleven, how bored are you with life?❞ she asked, wanting to know.

twenty squinted his eyes at his younger sister, having his brows knitted at the unexpected question. ❝i don't know if you're referring to the number or the xiao that's been getting to your nerves because of how your girl is taking a liking to him.❞

with the mention of the girl she had a small crush on, that hit the spot. as much as she wanted to get back at him for saying that, she knew better than to waste time and make their parents wait downstairs. ❝anyways, breakfast. bring your ex-girlfriend's older brother with you.❞

that was all she said before turning her back at him and started walking away. both jeffrey and twenty stood there in silence as they were starting to overthink how this family meal will end up now that the sister caught them almost kissing. well, at least she doesn't know anything about what they do behind curtains, right? or so, that's what they thought. the suh never really is the best at lowering his voice down whenever they do it, and it would always be at times where it's either their parents are home or just their siblings.

just when twenty was about to close the door, his sister's head then peeked out on the corridor with that bright and innocent smile of hers, making him raise a brow at her.

❝and wear some pants, you look like you just woke up after being fucked senseless.❞

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catching up with his friend at the library after his last class before break, twenty removed his bag and dropped it down to a table where he is at and made him flinch by that move.

chan dropped the book he was forcing himself to read for the practice test later on and then gave the smaller male sitting across him a look. ❝what's wrong with you?❞

❝you're so lucky that jiro finally had the guts to confess to you,❞ he then said, lifting his head up from the table just to look at the older. ❝and not to mention it being in front of everyone.❞

is this what it's all about? ❝you know how he is, twenty. he gets jealous easily and he wants every single one here to know what's his. i didn't favor his confession as it was getting too much unnecessary attention from everyone but hey, at least i got my crush to be mine.❞

❝right, after for so long.❞ twenty can even remember how it was always chan wanting to get jiro's attention, following him anywhere, joining in clubs just to be with him, doing stupid things just to get his attention, and even accidentally writing down his surname as park despite of being a lee. the only stupid thing that twenty has done just to get his longing liking toward a certain wong is probably gift himself as a boyfriend last christmas- that failed as jeffrey only took it as a joke.

which leaves him to his question, is this all a joke to him?

sure, they have done it, he would also get compliments from him time to time, they probably know each a little bit more than before just because of this agreement they have, but is this just nothing for him?

it was rare to see him quiet, which worried chan. ❝what's bothering you?❞

❝i don't think he likes me.❞

a name wasn't said but chan already knew who he was talking about. it's honestly making him frustrated at how not only the half thai, but also the innocent wong, were so oblivious about the other's feelings. almost everyone, if not all, had already seen how they grew up and they can even feel the spark between them and how they completed one another. but then, he couldn't blame either of the two for being so dense. chan had already known about jeffrey's feelings towards the other ever since they were kids but knowing how she he was in making a move, he understood him. then there's twenty, he must have been too focused on impressing and achieving his goal in getting yanna to even acknowledge what his heart truly wants.

he was also there when both twenty and yanna broke up, seeing how devastated the girl was when that happened but before he could comfort her, one of the twins had already came running and immediately pulled her for a tight embrace. chan knew very well why the half thai had to end thing with her, and that's all because of how he's starting to accept his feelings towards jeffrey.

❝why?❞ even if he does know the story on both sides, he wanted them to find it out themselves. ❝jiro told me that you two are getting closer. i would also sometimes see you both walking together down the hallways.❞

twenty blinked as he leaned back on his seat, almost forgetting that this guy had no idea what was going on between them. ❝u-uh, yeah, but i-it's different because-❞

looking serious as he found the younger's expression quite suspicious, chan opened his mouth and was about to call him out by his full name, but he then recalled how long it was and forgot how it goes. sighing, he still called him out. ❝twenty suh.❞

❝w-we are really great buddies right now, seriously!❞ he tried convincing him with that wide smile.

but chan would always know that something is odd, especially when he catches him acting like this. if it weren't for him being too busy with the nearest founders celebration on their school then he would have time to be with the younger. ❝i don't think you have seen me mad.❞

yeah, he hasn't yet, but jiro has. and when the park saw it, he once told him about how scary the lee can get when he's mad. he actually even thought for a moment that he'll have his throat being ripped apart just because he ate a box of macaroons that chan bought for himself.

which left him with no choice, he had to tell him. ❝jeffrey and i are fuck buddies.❞

twenty said it in just one breath that it took chan a second to understand what he meant. and because of that, his blood was boiling at the decision his friend had made. ❝are you crazy?❞

❝let me explain.❞ the younger took his hand out and stopped him from doing anything that could possibly make him lose a life. ❝so while you were busy organizing events for the founders week, i have made a mature decision by myself to make the first move towards him, since we all know how jeffrey is.❞

the older now had his brows furrowed and face scrunched at what he said. ❝mature decision my ass! how is being fuck buddies a mature decision?❞

❝listen!❞ the both of them flinched when the librarian hushed them down, their voices were getting louder. mumbling an apology at her, they got back down to their chairs and went to continue their conversation. ❝don't guys like it when we seduce them?❞

chan knew that already was a bent ruler from the first place but is just stuck in the straight phase because of his infatuation with yanna, which has him coming out just now, but where on earth did he get that idea from? ❝twenty!❞

the look on his face was telling him that he was getting angrier as time passes by which is why he had to explain himself real quick. ❝but i always notice jiro craving for you every single time! just one make out session can already make him an obedient chicken. and like, i'm a guy myself and i can tell that-❞

❝jiro is jiro, and jeffrey is jeffrey! the two of them are completely different, why would you ever think that way about jeffrey? he is such a nice guy and so sincere with everything.❞

and that's when his regret comes to show. actually, he has been thinking about this quite lately already, after that one specific day where he wanted to visit the older to his basketball practice. he wasn't himself after it, and his mind was starting to blame himself for being in this situation where he is having a hard time handling. he even dragged someone as kindhearted as jeffrey in this, just because of love, just because of his feelings towards him.

❝i know,❞ propping his elbows down the table, twenty closed his eyes and dropped his head down on to his palms. ❝and i'm so stupid.❞

chan also wanted to agree with that but it would be too harsh for him to do so. as someone who's close with the half thai and knows him better than most of the people around him, he should just come to understand that he is just conflicted with his feelings and also his desires with the person. though, among so many options to choose, this wasn't the best one and neither was this even part of the choices. ❝i don't know how this will end up but this surely is not going anywhere. you're seventeen, you're too young to even waste your body-❞

❝i don't mind, as long as it's jeffrey.❞

he couldn't believe that the half thai had already lost his first at that age. meanwhile, he's always trying to get jiro's hands away from his body even though he, too, has needs at times. was he disappointed? a tiny bit. but he should have already expected this since this is twenty suh he is talking about. ❝this is so fucked up.❞

pressing his lips to a thin line, twenty lowered his gaze and started fumbling with his fingers as he thought of a possible solution to fix this problem. ❝right, so, i was thinking, since this is no use and i'm just tainting him like this,❞

rubbing his temples, chan raised his head up to look at the younger who biting his bottom lip. he was patiently waiting for what he had to say.

❝hyung, what if i just stop and just distance myself from him?❞

since he's just no good for the guy.

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