2nd part of this lovely one shot for a lovely gal, buckstan !!! XXX

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The ride home in the taxi was filled with silence, but in your own ears, the thumping of your heart and the ringing in your ear wouldn't cease. Your mind was spinning, along with the confused thoughts of seeing your ex; a man you hadn't seen in over a year and the kiss. You couldn't help but envision his lips pressed against yours, his metal arm wrapped around your waist as you fell into him, your body moulding against one another as the kiss deepened.

Fuck, our feelings had to ruin everything!

The sudden jolt of the car signalled your arrival at the destination, quickly bringing you out of your thoughts and back into reality; a reality where you had to sweet-talk your absolute heart out to your boyfriend in an attempt to cover the previous occurrence that happened between you and your ex an hour ago.

You ran to the front door of the house, whilst pulling your house keys out of your handbag in the process. You cursed the strong shaking of your hands as the jingle of your keys became annoying to hear, but you couldn't comprehend why on earth you were shaking in the first place. You loved your boyfriend Noah, and you obviously didn't mean to kiss your ex, Bucky Barnes. Didn't you?

You swung the heavy door open as soon as your ears met the familiar click of the sound of the lock opening.

"Noah?" you spoke, your voice slightly cracking in the process. You shut the door behind you, your feet taking you toward the bedroom you both share. Your shaking hands carefully placed your handbag and keys on the table, before a voice slightly startled you.

"Elsa?" Noahs deep voice sounded, causing you to jump. "I thought you wouldn't come back home,"

Raising your hand to your chest, you exhaled with relief, your shoulders slumping back to their original stance. "Of course I would, because I-" you began to walk over to him in his chair in the dining room, but you stopped as he stood before you.

"Don't," he said sharply, but simply. His eyes never met yours as you stood there quiet and confused. "Don't you dare say that you love me. That's not going to fix anything,"

"Please," you pleaded, "Just let me explain-"

"You don't have to," he snapped, cutting you off, "I already have an idea of what you're going to say,"

You stood there before your boyfriend, and you couldn't recall if you had ever felt so confused and hurt in your life. "Don't do this to me, Noah. Please," you began to walk towards him, and when he didn't move, you extended your outstretched arm toward him. You received the answer you expected, a flinch away from your touch.

"He didn't mean it, he was drunk and he wont remember what he's done in the morning."

Oh how wrong you were.

"And you weren't Elsa!" Noah turned back toward you, his eyes bright with anger. You flinched slightly at his sudden outrage, but he was right. You weren't drunk, but you kissed him back. "What do you expect me to think now?!"

Noah waited anxiously for your answer, but nothing fell from your trembling lips. You couldn't help the raging thoughts inside your head, but what scared you the most is that the images weren't of Noah, they were of Bucky. They were of the past you had shared together, and of the occurrences that took place tonight. Several tears made their way out of your eyes as you processed the decision you were about to make, your eyes wandering everywhere other than Noah standing in front of you. "I don't know," you whispered weakly, "I don't even know what to think about myself right now,"

"You still love him," Noah said quietly, his eyes leaving the blank space in front of him and turning toward you. "Don't you?"

Your head snapped up to meet him, your eyes widening at the abruptness of his words. "What?" you exclaimed, telling yourself that you hadn't heard him correctly.

"Oh come on, Elsa," Noah scoffed, running his hand down his face in annoyance. "I saw the way he looked at you, it was like-" Noah shook his head slightly, "he looked at your like you were something that he had lost, but found again. He was happy, adored by your presence,"

You didn't answer, instead looking at the space in front of you, not daring to look Noah in the eye as you were terrified.

Terrified of the truth.

You couldn't bring yourself to correct Noah, to tell him that he was the only one you loved. But you couldn't bring yourself to say the words, but you also couldn't lie to yourself any longer.

Without realisation, the following words fell from your shaking lips, "You're right,"

Noah snapped his attention back toward you, as if he were dreaming, "What?"

You brought you face to meet Noah's his unexpected reaction mimicking your own. But you couldn't hide yourself from the truth any longer. You strongly fell for Bucky Barnes once again, and instead of being angered by your sudden realisation, you were relieved.

You hoped to god that all the drunken things he told you this very night were true, because you were coming back to him.

"I'm in love with Bucky Barnes."

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Bucky entered his small room he purchased for the night at the local hostel, his mind obviously quicker than his actions as he struggled to open the locked door with the key he was allocated, and cursed as the small key fell to the floor. He leant down to retrieve the key, his mind spinning in the process as he rested his hand against the door to steady himself. Bucky had thought it was the heavy amount of alcohol he had consumed that night, but as soon as he closed his eyes; the first thing he saw was her.

He saw the bright flicker in her eyes as he leant towards her, pressing his lips against her own, her small body against his as he pulled her closer to him. That was the kiss he had been waiting for over a year to receive, but now she didn't want anything to do with him. She loved another man, and Bucky began to regret his past decision for letting the one woman he had ever loved go, and due to his abrupt action, she now hated him.

All because he loved her too much to let anyone else have her, especially to the rat she called her boyfriend.

He shook his head violently, steadying himself before standing and walking into the small room.

Whilst simultaneously kicking off his shoes, Bucky slumped into the uncomfortable sofa in the lounge room. Before he could get truly comfortable though, a knock erupted on his door, and it sounded urgent.

Bucky ran a hand through his hair, whilst studying the door questionably. What the fuck? Who would want me at this hour?

Bucky rose from the couch and stumbled toward the door, the effects of alcohol lingering away from him as he sobered up. He gripped the door handle as the knocking began to rap against the door once again. Bucky growled with annoyance as he unlocked the door,

"Fuck, yeah I'm coming-" but with what he saw, he would have never been prepared for what to say next.

Elsa.

Bucky stood at the door, taking in all of her complexion. She stared back at him with her big eyes, her expression soft as her mouth parted, but nothing escaped her lips. She looked unable to speak at the sight of him too.

"Els," Bucky gasped, relaxing his figure against the side of the door. Instant relief coursed through his body, he prepared for the worst when she said she never wanted to see him again, but no words could express how happy he was to see her at this very moment. He still couldn't believe how beautiful she was, why did he let her go in the first place?

"B-Buck, I-I'm so sorry, I-"

"No," Bucky cooed, attempting to reach out to her, his hand ghosting over her cheek. He pulled away quickly though, he didn't know what she was thinking at this very moment. "You have every right to be mad at me. I just-" Bucky released a vast amount of breath he didn't know was lingering in the bottom of his lungs, a gentle ache that pulled at his heart, was now released at the very sight of her. "I cant help my feelings towards you. Even though you have a boyfriend now-"

"Ex," she corrected, looking at the ground before back up to his softened eyes, "I have an ex-boyfriend now," she gave him a small smile, but she looked at him as if it were a hard decision she had to make.

"Els, I'm so sorry. If it was because of me, I totally understand if-"

"It was not because of you at all," she stepped forward toward him, and he froze. He was used to being around beautiful women, but he hadn't been in love since he had been with her. He missed the way he felt around her, and the feeling in his stomach somehow recognised the feeling, as it began to rise again.

"I-I," Bucky stammered. This was the first time in a while since he was unable to find the right words, the first time in a long time since he felt nervous. "I can't help but think this was all because of me and my feelings-"

"Okay, I'm going to need you to shut up right now," she spoke, her lips pulling up at the side in a small smirk. She leaned in closer to him, pressing her palm against his chest, and he flinched. She looked up at him again, her lips only centimetres away from his. She could feel Bucky's hot, ragged breath against her cool skin as she began to flush, she could tell he was just as nervous as she was.

"Kiss me," she whispered, and without a moments wait, his lips crashed onto hers.

His hands were instantly wrapped around her waist, as if to pull her closer to him and if there was any space between them, there wasn't now as their bodies moulded together in familiarity. She smirked into the kiss as she felt his heart beating rapidly against her palm, then she wrapped her hands into his hair, pulling his head down towards hers, as if to bring more of him toward her demanding cravings.

His mouth left hers and trailed along her jaw, pressing wet kisses along it and down her neck. She whimpered as he knew from previous occasions that this was her weakness, and she gasped as he brought her skin softly between his teeth.

"I love you Bucky, I always have," she breathed, causing a soft growl escape from Bucky's throat in admiration. 

He brought his lips to her ear, "I love you more than you could ever know, baby," he brought his lips to hers once more, before repeating the same kissed down the other side of her neck, causing her to sigh with pleasure.

"I'm never letting you go again, ever," he whispered, before bringing her inside. 

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AAAND I THINK YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED AFTER THAT ;)

Okay, I just wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR THE OTHER DAY BEAUTIFUL buckstan !!! (this is my late birthday present for you, sorry it took so long!) 

And I wanna say to you guys, sorry about my unknown hiatus for quite some time, I've just finished my trial exams for year 12 (if you're Australian and from NSW, you'll understand what I mean), but if you don't, its school exams that are really important and count toward my graduation which is in like 2 weeks!

So I'm sooooo super duper sorry, I'll try and let you all know if I do intent to have some time off due to study in the future, but I'm happy to be back! And for those who asked for requests, you'll get them soon I promise!

Thanks again for all the love and support, and nearly 13K!!! I nearly had a heart attack when i checked up again the other day! You all mean the world to me, much love to all you guys!

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