I took this pic. These tsums are mine, and the back is a box I mod podged with Bucky and such. Anyways. Also I'm giving a warning. Nightmares filled with blood will be mentioned so if you don't like blood skip this. Also other nightmarish things. Not dirty. I keep my imagines clean however there is blood and sad events that can really happen that you're character has the nightmares about.

Over the years upon Bucky's homecoming (don't worry the words are outta his system) you managed to gain a crush on him.

Bucky was a hero (he is kind and reserved still sorta to himself), just like all the other heroes (you included. You lived with them in the tower) merchandise of him was starting to get popular. You really wanted to get some shirts of him or inspired by him, but you really didn't want to get teased by your avenger family. You also didn't want Bucky to see especially since he was your only neighbor/roommate on your floor.

It didn't stop you though. You sometimes wore his colors. You did manage to get a few shirts and loungepants you only wore in your large geeky beautiful bedroom.

It also didn't stop you from getting little figurines and such for your room. You had all his figures from the Funko brand. You had his tsums. You had other little trinkets.

You might've also sketched him a lot. Technically your drew everyone on the team. Even strangers. Bucky was just one of your more practiced drawings. He was one of your "muses".

Most the time you weren't afraid of him discovering your little collection. Mainly because he didn't go into your room. Also nobody else really comes to your floor other than Steve to check on you and Bucky alike.

It was all well until one day... Or rather night. You couldn't help what happened.

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"You know... Shopping really makes me exhausted." You sighed putting your shopping bags in the trunk of Nat's car.

"I'm just surprised you got some clothes other than tshirts. Or that you got clothes at all since you hate clothes shopping." Wanda giggled.

You all got in the car singing songs together.

"So... Are you going to actually go to Tony's party tonight y/n?" Nat looked at you through the mirror.

"Does it look like I want to go."

"Oh of course you do. Bucky is supposedly going to attend this one. "

You gasped and looked at her.

"Oh come on y/n. Everyone knows you like Bucky except apparently the man himself. Even Steve knows. He was the first to actually bring it up surprisingly."

You bit your lip looking at your hands.

"She's liked him since the first day she was introduced to him."

"Wanda... Please be don't read my mind." You glanced out the window.

"Sorry."

"Fine. I like Bucky, but I'm still not going to Tony's party tonight." Crossing your arms you looked back at the Wanda and Nat.

"Oh come on. You've never been to one. You might like it."

"Yeah I sure do like sweaty people acting stupid, barely enough room to dance, loud music noises, and people yelling into my eardrums only to give me a headache. Then men throwing themselves at you only because of the super hero status and not for you. Yeah that's all totally up my alley."

"Well someone's being very sarcastic today."

"Why thank you Natasha, but it's all true. Sorry to be a debby downer, but I just want to enjoy my time in peace on my floor level away from the noise."

Eventually you all returned to the tower, and you went to your floor. Upon entering you accidentally dropped your bags (good thing there was nothing fragile) because of the sight in front of you.

One James Buchanan Barnes was dressed in an all black tux and he was fixing his navy blue tie. He looked so charming, but when you dropped your bags he noticed.

"Doll you okay?" He rushed over helping you pick up your bags.

"Uhm... Uh... Yeah yeah I'm fine. I'm good... All good." You mentally wished you could stop yourself from blushing, but to no avail you were already red.

"Here you go." He smiled handing over the bags to you. You were glad you didn't see him look in one of the bags he picked up, mainly because it had a cute little Bucky plushie.

"Thanks." You normally weren't awkward with Bucky, but this was extremely awkward.

"Are you going to Tony's party?"

"Oh... No. I'm not. I was really just going to relax and read. Maybe watch a movie or something."

"Oh... Well I'll miss you, but I hope you have a nice, relaxing night." He winked as he walked to the elevator.

Oh no... What if he really did know you liked him. Maybe not... Steve did say he was a bit of a flirt in the forties.

You pushed the worry away and decided to take a nice bubble bath (or calming shower if you don't like baths) after putting your bags in your room. When your finished you put on your Bucky loungepants and t-shirt because you figured you wouldn't see him anymore tonight. You lied on your stomach when you got in your fluffy bed watching TV and reading for a while, while snacking on (food).

It went like this well past midnight.

Bucky had happened to come back to the floor before midnight. He put on his PJs after taking a shower in his own bathroom. He sat on his bed criss crossed and looked at the sky from his big window.

Eventually you managed to fall asleep with your electronics still on.

You and Bucky were sitting together one day enjoying yourselves at the park. His arm was wrapped around your waist and you were snuggled into his side. That's when you heard a gunshot, but you couldn't move. You began to cry because you know it was Bucky who was shot as you felt his blood trickle on your skin. Then a man walked in front of you pointing a gun at your head ,"hail Hydra" he pulled the trigger and your world went dark.

When you opened your eyes Bucky walked right passed you kissing some other woman.

A new scene showed you being shot and your wedding dress turning crimson as Bucky ran to you.

This time you looked to see a wedding band on your hand. Bucky sat beside you holding your hand smiling looking at a screen. A doctor was on the other side, and you noticed they were looking at a sonogram of your womb. This you was smiling with that Bucky, but the doctor frowned. You could see that Bucky saying what's wrong. You had had a miscarriage.

Next thing Bucky slapped you saying he hated you.

You tried to wake up from these nightmares, but you weren't waking up. Until you felt someone shaking you calling your name.

"Y/n. Y/n. Y/n." You finally woke up to see Bucky.

"Bucky." You couldn't help but start to cry. You wrapped you're arms around him sobbing uncontrollably.

He wrapped his arms around you rubbing your back. He kept whispering it's okay I'm right here. I'm right here doll.

When you finally calmed down you looked into his eyes. "Nightmares?" He asked softly.

"Many." You tried to pace yourself.

"Wanna talk about em?"

You sighed looking down. That's when you remembered you're shirt. Your lounge pants all the things in your room. You covered your chest where it said mentally dating Bucky Barnes biting your lip hoping he didn't notice.

"Hey y/n... I um... Noticed your collection. I think it's cute.... No need to hide besides look."

He lifted your chin up so you could see his shirt. His also was the same as yours except it said mentally dating   f/n l/n.

"You should see my room doll. I think it's safe to say we're each other's number one fans huh?" He smiled holding your hand.

"I... I guess so." You giggled.

"Still wanna talk about those nightmares?"

You sighed looking down. "They all involved you. You and I died by Hydra. Then you kissed some random girl in another dream. I died at um... Our wedding... We had a miscarriage... Another time you slapped me saying you hated me... I don't know why my brain was putting all that in my head. I mean we aren't together."

"We weren't together."

"Huh?"

"Well I thought we could go steady?"

"Oh. Yes."

"Secondly... I guess that's just what happens with someone you love. I... Kinda have had those same nightmares and much worse ones. I had one where Steve stole your affections and heart... Yeah I don't know. I do know that most of those things wouldn't probably happen. Hydra is gone. Your there only one for me. If we get married even before and after no one is going to hurt you on my watch. Miscarriages are sad and hard. Many women go through it. My mother did with her baby before me. If we had a miscarriage, I wouldn't love you any less. I'd love you more because you are a strong woman and we made it out together stronger though we'd miss that baby. We'd remember and love that little girl or boy even if they went back to heaven. It's not something you can control. Lastly I'd never hurt or abuse you. I'd never say I hate you. I love you too much that I would never manage to be mad at you for long okay. It's all okay. I love you alright? I love you so much."

He kissed you sweetly.

"Thanks Bucky. I love your too. Can you stay... I don't want anymore bad dreams tonight."

"Of course Doll." Soon you both fell asleep with no bad dreams.

I hope that was okay. I'm sorry about the dreams part. If it's  offensive please tell me and I'll take the description of the nightmares out. I'm sorry if any of you have experienced these things. Mainly the last two nightmares since the others really aren't likely especially the Hydra part. I haven't experienced those things so I don't know. If you have I'm sorry, and I will take those bits out just tell me. I don't want to be offensive or bad in any way. I just don't want anyone to think I am being mean, rude, or mocking.

With love Bucky's plums
      Buckybear.