I didn't know where we stood. Whether it was just a feeling I had for him or it was actually love. I had no idea at all.  All I knew was we were something more than friends but not lovers.

Waking up till late hours just to hear his ranting was nothing new to me. He completed the void in my life but still something restrained me to go to him and tell him how much he meant to me and my life. Of course it was a difficult imagining my life without his presence. It felt as if my body was adapted to his presence around. His scent was mixed with my breathe. My eyes were set to look at his angelic face. My hands reflexively touched his soft, silky brown hair. My mind was immersed into his thoughts. But my mind could not help but think of consequences after confessing. Maybe our relation will fall off but he may also accept me right?

So I finally decided to confess my feelings. He would be the one to take the decision on whether we should continue our friendship or... Even though the probability of ruining our friendship was very high but I just cannot supress my heart's desire and force myself to act all normal ,it was pure torture.

Our college journey is going to be over and tomorrow is the graduation day. I will pour out my heart into a piece of paper and leave it by his side. Ofcourse it is not easy neither simple but I had to do it for myself. Even though I was aware how incompetent I was to be his girl. Still I wanted to atleast let my heart spill out every emotion I hold for him.

Maybe once tomorrow when the sun rises that will be the last time when my eyes will lay on his face. That will be my last view of his dimple smile. Last time when his voice will reach my ears. Last time my hands will run through his hairs.

I wish tomorrow will last longer.

Taking a out a notebook my shaking hands held the pen. I was nervous as if he was standing there in person watching me write and he will interrupt me the moment I make a spelling or grammatical error. I quickly looked around feeling the privacy I encouraged myself to be the bold lover and write down every single word I wanted to tell him.

I stared at the paper for quite a bit longer then after enough of contemplation I stared. My mind my no longer the controller of my movements it was my heart. The pen smoothly ran through the paper as the ink flowed out into the paper. Sometimes I smiled thinking of the old times while during others my eyes swelled forcing out tears which ran through my cheeks down the neck finally reaching my shirt.

I completed writing or rather confessing to the paper and had no courage to go through the note again. Writing the letter was like awakening my feelings altogether which I was unable to stop. It felt as if my heart was bleeding and the drops of blood were the one which enrobed the paper. I ended up crying while laying my head on the table and under my vulnerable self which was exposed to all emotions, laid the paper. It was not the paper that was bothering it was the words that was written on the it. On the left side of the table laid the cap of the pen and the pen rolled down a bit further lying and ending up on the carpet beneath. I didn't know when I drowsing eyes met and I seeped into slumber.

The buzzing sound caused a break in my sleep and I could not figure out when the sun took over the moon. It was morning the most awaited day. The Graduation Day.

Quickly sliding down the chair I stood up and looked at the mirror and saw my face and eyes all swelled up. A fix was needed.

With hastened steps I entered the washroom. On entering I freshed up took a shower and came out. Soon my legs took me to the closet where my hands pulled out the uniform.

After putting on the dress I turned around heading towards the dressing table when my eyes fell on the paper kept in the table. My mind played the flashback when I was overwhelmed with emotions and my hands kept moving pouring out all my thoughts. Soon I felt the feelings in me rupturing and creeping through my veins. But before it could take over me I turned around taking a deep breathe I once again went on with my daily routine.

Looking at the clock I saw that I  still an hour left before the ceremony starts. Quickly I took the paper and folded it neatly and kept in my left side pocket.

After completing the breakfast I quickly wore my blazer and ran out of the house.

The thoughts of that very day was still very clear in my mind my eyes wandered around the known street while walking towards my old college when I  saw the beautiful cherry tree under which was a small coffee shop, ' Memory Spot'.

My feets halted as I remembered how we both used to  sit at the table on the right corner and had our regular order. A milk coffee for him and a strawberry smoothie for me. On thrusday's the shop had a special item called crispy golden butter bun which was a never-miss in our orders. A smile crept to my face as I could almost see us sitting on the empty right side table and chatting, laughing, creating memories. Unknowingly a tear slid my cheek and I realised that how we used to waste our time here hanging out.

My mind took me to
-“What are you doing here Y/n?”

-“ Nothing.”
Saying this we both started walking together side by side and he spoke once again,“I am so glad that I got a beautiful girl waiting for me outside my house”

-“ I was not waiting for you Joon I just was thinking about something.”

-“ You look bothered what happened shouldn't you be happy that finally we will finish our college and get some work, earn money and enjoy life”

-“Yeah after we finish this ceremony and leave college you won't be bothered about my lazy ass so yeah it's good for you”

-“What's wrong y/n?”

There was no reply to this and both of them walked in silence. On reaching the school gate they were greeted by a group of students.

“Hey Namjoon hello y/n”
The two joined the group and they started walking towards the auditorium.

Chatters and giggles rang through the whole auditorium. The students were unable to hok back their excitement and emotions but a girl among the crowd stood out of all.

Among all the students in red blazer sat a girl with open long brown hair falling behind her eyes had no excitement rather she was nervous and unsure if her decision. She sat quietly not participating in the talks around her. Her gaze was towards her hands kept on her lap which were fiddling with one another but little did she know that a particular person's eye laid on her, on her fingers, on her swaying hair, on her face. She was the center of attraction among all for that one person.

-“I wish I could tell you how much important you are for me y/n. I wish”

The ceremony started and sailed smoothly almost by the end many students had tears spilling out of their eyes. Soon the programme got over and students lingering to their friends one by one left the auditorium and promises of never forgetting each other were heard.

‘ This is the same auditorium where every year students carry the memories of their friendship, every year the promises are made of ‘never forgetting’ ‘never leaving each other when in need’ but those are the same people who move on with their lives and soon these people whom they call their lifeline become a memory folded neatly in the college and school albums. This is probably what we call life a story in which if one character is missed another can always comes in. Life never waits for anyone’, these thoughts crossed y/n's mind and she questioned herself,‘If Namjoon leaves me today then will there be any character that will be coming in my life's story? But again it depends on the author if they will allow the character to have access to their plotline. Likewise I also have a chance to choose and I choose to confess and break down rather than ignoring my feelings.’

She kept on convincing herself but did not realise that the auditorium and vacant all had left and she was the only one present there or was she?

A voice interrupted her thoughts as the sudden voice pulled her out from her thoughts realm and she turned around to see Namjoon.

-“What's wrong y/n? What is troubling you?”

She had no answers to give she just froze there as if he caught her raw emotions red handed and now there was no point of turning back.

-“Y/n? Y/n what happened ?”

-“Joon I have a very important thing to talk about and please don't interrupt in between let me finish.” Okay was the answer she received from him.

After a few seconds of silence she let out a shaky breathe and started-
“Kim Namjoon I know we are friends, childhood best friends but you know right feelings ? It just can't be stopped and even I could not stop my feelings. It was like a small seed of liking planted in my heart and every conversation with you, every time I spent with you, evey smile I received from you was like the water and sunshine for the seed. It grew into a sapling but like every other weed in my heart of useless thoughts I ignored it. I tried to ignore it but now my feelings for you has grown to a beautiful tree and every moment it spreads its branches through every part of my body. And my stupid self has finally realised that I Lee Y/n is in love with the campus's most wanted boy thr heartthrob Kim Namjoon. It's actually true that heart never listens to the person it goes on its own way and similarly even after I know I deserve anyone like you still my heart is not ready to let go of you. I know my worth but still I am running after a diamond which will probably end up cutting my own heart made of glass. I am nothing but just a mere student sitting in one corner of the class. I am nothing but useless no one but worthless contain nothing but flaws, I still dared to fall in love with the most perfect person I met in my own life. I know probably this is the end to our friendship but I hope you will always remember that a stupid girl named Y/n in the city of Seoul loves you from the bottom of her heart. ” Saying this she pulled out the paper she managed to fill with words the previous night. Her shaking hands extended towards him letting him take the paper.

Namjoon opened the letter and saw the exact words y/n spoke written on the paper some letters were smudged and there were patches of liquid on the paper enlightening him with the fact that the girl in front of him cried the whole night. He raised his vision to seen Y/n with her head lowered down and tears streaming down her red puffy cheeks.

“Y/n”,he called out ,“look at me. Hey Y/nah since when did you become such a great writer huh? ” ,he tried to lighten up the atmosphere but his own voice broke and he engulfed the girl in front of him in a tight hug.

Y/n was already preparing herself to face the heartbreak but the hug was unexpected. She felt as if he was trying to comfort her befor rejection. She felt her hands turn cold but her heart seemed to be light after a long time. She felt warm fingertips on her cheeks and a voice rang in her ears.

“Y/n you are not useless you are the reason I am alive today you the one who showed me my life's worth and how dare you call your self worthless and talking of flaws all of us have flaws because flaws are what makes us what we are it is a part of us it is us y/n. Without flaws we are just mere machines. And talking of you y/n stop belittling yourself first falling in love you anyone you should learn to love yourself. Before giving your heart to me first own it y/n. Learn to embrace yourself as you are ,stop to see yourself through the people's mirror but look at yourself through your own eyes. Are people not enough to judge our life that we should also join them in the judgement ? I love you y/n I have been admiring you for long evey action of yours makes my heart bloom in love. But before we are in a romantic relationship I want you to learn how to love yourself. Stop abandoning your flaws but start accepting them. Don't ever think that I rejected you or this is an excuse to leave you but this is for you to let you know your own self worth. So Lee Y/n the day you learn to accept yourself and start to love yourself that day I Kim Namjoon will not hesitate to go down on my knees and ask you to be mine. What say y/n?”

Tears did not stop streaming as she felt true love and care. She nodded and replied,“ I will learn to love myself I will learn to be proud of what I am Thank you Namjoon thanks a lot and don't worry because you will soon have to get down on your knees.”

Sound of happy laughter ringed in my ears I was again lost in our memories when a sudden boom sound startled me. On turning around I saw him.

“Namjoon” the only word left my mouth before we both gave each other a crushing hug and after quite a few minutes of the hug we pulled apart from each other .

-“Y/n it's been 7 years since  we met face to face ”

-“Yeah it's a long time but you still look like a little kid with those dimples.”
A round of laughter left both of our mouth.
-“ So where are you heading to?”
-“Towards college just thought of visiting it”
-“How about I accompany this beautiful lady on her trip
-“ It would be great.”

We started walking towards our Destination while talking of old things .
On reaching the college we learned that the students were on semester break but the college was open for the professors so the guard allowed us in.

“Everything is still the same isn't it?”
“Yeah all our old memories are flooding in my min....” befor I could complete she could complete her sentence I held her hand and ran towards the auditorium.
On reaching both of our feets came to halt and she gave me a weirdo look before questioning,“Was it necessary?”
Yes was the only answer received.

Luck was on our side as the auditorium was opened we both pushed through the wooden door and entered into the auditorium. Every object was at its place their graduation day's picture ran through both of their mind. The words that rolled out from their hearts reminded both of them of there 6year earlier promise to get together after accepting and loving themselves.

Namjoon turned around to face y/n and looked into her eyes before he took a step back.
The light breeze ran through the room the tension rose both hearts were beating crazily and breathes grew sharper.
The lights from the coloured mosaic glass windows enters the hall making it look like a perfect cinema set.

The time seemed to slow down as the man infront of me slowing kneeled down on his one knee and his hands held mine as he stared through and through my soul and his lips parted into a charismatic smile before he his voice echoed in the hall,“Lee Y/n 6 years back on this very day you confessed to me and I promised to get on my knees and ask you to accept me as someone important in your life and I can not help but fullfil my promise as you seem to complete your promise to me.”

“Namjoon I still remember each and every word you told me and it changed my life and I reformed myself into a better person who is not afraid to face her own flaws and faults and talking of love I never stopped loving you. My feelings for you never faded rather it stained my heart with a brighter red every moment. ”

I love you. Both of them spoke out at the same time.

Namjoon got up and he held y/n's hand in his own and they proceeded towards the door.

-“So we are offical now and I can't wait to reveal my girlfriend”

Nothing but a laugh came in reply.

“Allow me madame” saying this Namjoon tried to open the door but the door seemed to be locked. This earned another round of laughter from y/n.

“Its not funny y/niee the door is locked er are locked up here.”

“C'mon joon you are the God of destruction just break the door ”

“ You are still joking nah?”

“ Nah I am serious just break and let's run out ”

Namjoon looked at y/n and they both smirked as Namjoon gave 2 successive kick and a blow before the door opened and both of them ran as fast as they could in order to not get caught up. The college guard gave them a weird look without knowing the reason for the two's desperation to run away.

We stoped in front of the same cafe as out we struggled to breathe for a quite a few minute. After we revived our breath we went entered the cafe and sat in our usual seat the table at the right corner.

A waiter walked up to us and writing down our usual order a milk coffee for him and a strawberry smoothie for me. And the day being Thursday allowed us to order our most favourite crispy golden butter bun. But the weird thing was that Namjoon excused himself and walked upto the waiter and he took out something from his pocket and gave some instructions.

“What did you tell him?”, I asked him once he returned back.

“ I was just telling him that the beautiful lady sitting in the chair right in front of me is taken.”

A big smile broke out on my face that was the best day of my life.

He kept on telling me how he imagined this day would come and he would call me his, how he would take care of me, love me, bear my tantrums. And I kept listening to him as my mind was already immersed into him.

I stared at him when the same waiter walked up to our table placed two half heart shaped pastry.
“We didn't ord..”, before y/n could complete Namjoon interrupted
“Thank you”,said Namjoon and the waiter walked away.

“ You reject free food is this the same y/n?” ,he said in a highly dramatic way.
“Stop acting joon ”

The took up the spoon and took a small piece of cake but a ring fell out.
I was just too stunned. Did he propose me like they do in movies is this a coincidence. Oh hell it's impossible to be a coincidence. Before I could say something Namjoon held my hand as he came closer to me and said “Y/n even though I have confessed my love to you just a a few time ago but I want to mark this occasion with a special gift. Will you be my girlfriend and my future wife? Because I fell heads over heels for you and now I cannot resist myself . I love you and promise to love, trust and support you till my breath. Will you be mine ?”

Hot tears streamed down both of their eyes and both stood up and gave each other a warm hug full of compassion and affection.

“ I am waiting y/nah”

“My answer is definately a yes Namjoon”

No sooner did her sentence finish than Namjoon picked her up into the air and swirled around.

Her feets fell to the ground and Namjoon gentlely placed her down and kissed her forehead.

“Love you a lot y/n and please don't think that I love you because you changed . I always loved you but I just wanted you get out of your insecurities and see the real beauty lying within you . You are just too precious for me.”
“Thank you for everything”
“ It should be the other way round shouldn't it?”
Both went back and sat at their places as the hands of Namjoon and y/n held each other for infinity.

The waiter once again came and placed the coffee, smoothie and bun on the table. Both took a bite of the bun and their face expressed the absolute fantastic taste.

”They are still the same as tasty and mouthwatering as ever”, y/n spoke out loud.

“So aren't you gonna put the ring on?”

“No you will slide this ring through my finger on  the day we get married. ”

“ I can't wait to see you in a wedding dress.”

“It has not even been a 1 hour since I am your girlfriend and you are already imagining of wedding”

“Not my fault you started first”,defended Namjoon.

Saying this both of them gave out a bright happy smile and the sun set down slowing with the uprising of their love.

Thank you so much for reading this it's my first time writing a FF please let me know if there is any mistake in the story.

I wrote this as an homework assignment from LizSorora