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(A/n: Thank you so much for 44k reads, I know I say this quite a lot, but it really does mean a lot to me! I hope you all enjoy and have a wonderful day/night! ☀️🌈💕✨ )

Trigger warning: Insecurity. This is something almost everyone struggles with, and I hope one day we all will be able to love ourselves, for who we are. Flaws and all. I hope I don't offend or trigger anyone during this chapter! If I do, I deeply apologize, it's never my intention.

• This is an alternate universe, so I hope you like it! •
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M/N's P.O.V

I pulled my long, navy blue sleeves down, covering my arms as I looked in the bathroom mirror. I looked into the mirror, my (e/c) eyes gazing at my frowning form with pure hatred.

In my point of view, I was the ugliest human to ever live. I lived on a planet full of beautiful people, yet I could never be one of them. I would never be one of them. I was simply the cameraman, that's what every day felt like for me. I'm the cameraman, who watches everything through his camera, while not making any audible sounds. I was always the odd one out, I had grown so used to it. Being the one people would stare at as I walked down the sidewalk or the one people would look at and, then, quickly whisper to their friend before I walked away. It had all become so familiar to me, it was part of my everyday life, now.

I had grown to hate every part of my body, all at the age of ten. I can thank the bullies for that, and my head, as well, since it went along with the hatred.
"I blame myself for a lot I things." I giggled, covering my mouth as I laughed. I giggled, again, not caring about the unhealthy coping mechanism I had inhabited overtime. "Stupid me..." I glanced at the bathroom mirror, once again, automatically regretting it as my eyes quickly looked at myself up and down.

"Ew," I mumbled, quickly walking out of the line of view, of the mirror. "I shouldn't have done that." I sighed, running my fingers through my soft (h/c) hair as I walked towards the locked bathroom door. I unlocked it, opening the door before walking down the hallway towards the bedroom, that I shared with Jimin.

Park Jimin, the prettiest and kindest boy I had ever seen. He was truly beautiful inside and out, treating everyone with the utmost kindness and respect.

The prettiest boy had chosen the ugliest beast, that ever lived, in the land. He'd chosen the beast out of all the eligible people he could've chosen and lived happily ever after with. He chose me, me out of everyone else.
'What makes me so special?' I always pondered, rerunning his words that he had spoken to me on that wonderful day.
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↠ Flashback ↞
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"Would you like to go on a date with me, sometime?" He asked me, his beautiful brown eyes shining in the sunlight as they glanced my way.
"Me?" I asked, glancing around, knowing there was no way he was talking to me.

I was the lonely weirdo, who always sat alone. I was that one kid, who sat at a faraway table, in the courtyard, during lunchtime. I did that because I knew no one wanted to talk to me, there's nothing interesting to learn about me.

"Yes, you!" He cutely giggled, gently poking my nose. His gentle touch left me frozen, no one really touched or talked to me, they all probably think I'm cursed. "I asked if you'd like to go out, sometime. I really do like you, (M/n), you're different from all the other guys at our college." He grabbed the plain white napkin, from his food tray, before pulling a blue-inked pen out of his pastel yellow sweater pocket. He glanced at me, once again, before writing something down on the napkin. "Plus, I'd like to get to know more about the cute and mysterious boy that sits in the front row... aka you, (M/n)." He gave me his adorable, signature smile, handing me the folded napkin as he placed his pen away.

That damn smile. The smile I had grown to admire and enjoy so very much. It could lighten up the entire sky on a rainy day. It could lighten up my rainy days and fill them with sunlight.

He made me so warm and happy. Every time he came around: my dark skies would lighten into a pastel blue, my heart seemed to flutter, and my stomach filled with nonexistent butterflies, that wouldn't stop flying around...
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I tried to ask him, after our third date, why he chose to ask me out, but I only ever received the same reply, every time I had asked: because I really like you, (M/n), and I, genuinely, want to know more about you.

I wanted to believe his words. I truly did, but my mind wouldn't let me. My stupid, stupid brain, that never lets my heart decide.

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(A/n: Don't worry, there will be a part two! I hope you enjoyed! ☀️✨💛 )
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