I've known Suga for about three years and we've been dating for about a month. A lot of things have changed between us. Ever since we started dating, he hasn't been acting like he has feelings for me. Like last time we were with the rest of bts and I tried to hold his hand but he kept pulling away. And he ignores me when we're with other people.

I was waiting in the room while bts was having a meeting with their manager. When the meeting was done, I walked towards Suga.
"Hey Oppa let's go home and watch a movie", I said. He was talking to Jungkook and Rap Monster. Did he hear me? I tapped on his shoulder which made him look back.
"What happened?", he asked in a low tone.
"Let's go watch a movie. I hardly get to spend any time with you", I said smiling.
"Can't. I'm gonna go eat with the guys", he said as he looked through his phone. He put his phone away and looked at me.
"Maybe next time", he said. He turned back to the guys.
"You always say that though", I said. He wasn't paying attention to me anymore so I tapped his shoulder again. He looked back.
"What??", he said.
"Can I go with you?", I asked.
"It's kind of just us guys. Hey maybe you can go hang out with Yuri", he said before turning his back on me again. I walked away and I was sorta bummed out he was acting this way.

When I got home, I took off my shoes and sat on the couch. I listened to some music for about 4 hours. I called Suga to see where he was at.

"Oppa, why aren't you answering? Where are you? I would've thought that you'd be home by now. Call me as soon as you get this."

I left a voicemail and waited for his call. Thirty minutes pass and I called him again but this time he answered.

"Hey Oppa. When are you coming home?", I asked him.

"I'm with the guys", he said.

"Are you coming home soon?", I asked.

"What's up with all the questions? I'll be home when I feel like it", he said.

"Well excuse me for wanting to spend time with my boyfriend. You spend more time with the guys than me. You actually don't hang out with me at all", I said.

"This is my career. I can spend time with them if I want to. And this attitude of yours, I don't like it", he said.

"Well if you don't like it, maybe I shouldn't be your girlfriend. What's the point if you're not gonna be by my side. You changed a lot. We used to have fun. And now you don't even appreciate my presence", I said.

"I have a career I need to be focusing on", he said.

"Good. Then you SHOULD focus on that. I'm done", I said as I hung up.

I threw my phone across the room, probably breaking it. What happened to the sweet and caring Suga I fell in love with. Does he not have feelings for me anymore? Did he fall in love with someone else? Someone prettier? I covered myself with a blanket and fell asleep.

When I woke up, I heard a knock on the door. I got up to open it and saw Suga standing there.
"What do you want?", I said.
"To talk", he said plainly.
"We have nothing to talk about. Why don't you go talk to the guys instead?", I said before closing the door. Suga put his foot in the way and opened the door again.
"Can you just leave me alone???", I said pushing him. He cupped my cheeks and kissed me but I didn't kiss him back. I pushed him off me.
"I don't get you. When we're alone, you hug and kiss me all the time. But when we're with other people, you act like we're not even together. Why? Are you embarrassed to be seen with me? Or is there someone else? You can't be acting this way towards me. You're just confusing me. You don't do that to someone!", I yelled as my tears fell from my eyes. He tried to hug me but I slapped his hands away.
"It's just... I don't know I'm more used to having you as a friend around other people. And the idea of holding your hand or kissing you in front of other people, I'd feel weird", he said.
"So you are embarrassed to be with me", I said.
"No.... I'm not good at this. You've been my best friend for years now and when I confessed to you, I didn't think about all that couples stuff. It's complicated", he said.
"Well let me make it easier for you", I said as I opened the door. He just stared at me.
"If you're not comfortable being with me, maybe we shouldn't be together. Let's just forget about confessing to each other. If it's too much for you I understand", I said looking away.
"I WANT to be with you though. I can't stand thinking about losing you. And to prove it to you, I'll take you on dates, I'll show you off to everybody. Just give me another chance", he said. I looked at him to see if he was serious.
"Fine. But if you do that to me again, I won't hesitate to kick your ass out of my life", I said. He smiled and kissed me. He closed the door and pushed me against it. I widened my eyes from how much lip contact he's giving me. He's never kissed me this way before.
"Whoa", I said as he pulled away.
"Now let's go watch the movies you wanted to see", he said as he pulled me to the living room.