About over a week ago, BTS's manager had a meeting with the guys and I to talk about how I can't be in a relationship with any of them. All I'm aloud to do is hand them paper work and that's it. I can't even talk to them. What sucks about it is Suga agreed to it which broke my heart. We had a huge argument last time when he saw me talking to a guy. I wanted to explain everything but he didn't give me a chance. Now whenever they're in the room, I can't look at them without having some pain in my chest.
When my shift was over I was walking towards the elevator. As I was waiting, I over heard a girl talking about she has a date with one of the guys. I was getting impatient because the elevator was going so slow. I also didn't want to hear the girl. Before getting in the elevator, I heard the girl say Suga's name. I was the only one in the elevator when it was going down. It stopped on the 5th floor. When the doors opened, I saw them. I saw him. They got in the elevator and I gave them space. I was all the way in front. As soon as the elevator doors closed I couldn't breathe. This elevator is painfully slow. I tried to keep my tears in as I tightly shut my eyes. I felt a hand brush against mine. I quickly crossed my arms. When the elevator doors opened, I got out and sprinted to my car. I didn't bother looking back. I cried all the way home. I don't think I'll be able to handle working there anymore. I just need to look for a new job before quitting the one I have now. While I was searching on my laptop, my phone started ringing. Without looking at the caller ID I answered it.
"Hello?", I asked.
I heard breathing.
"Umm.. Hello??", I asked again.
"I miss you." Is all I heard before they hung up. Looked at my phone confusingly. Probably just a prank. I went back to my laptop but I heard a knock on the door. When I opened it, I saw someone who I didn't think I would see again.
"Suga?", I said.
He came in and looked at me. I was still in shock so I didn't know what to say. He closed the door and locked it.
"What are you doing here?", I asked him taking steps back.
"Claiming what's mine", he said before picking me up and headed towards the couch. He started kissing me roughly and took both of our clothes off. He positioned himself in front of my entrance and thrusted himself in without warning. I didn't know what was going on. At first he agrees with the manager not to have any contact with me and now he's here having sex with me. I'm so confused. I didn't think about it though at that time. I missed him and having him here with me feels amazing. About an hour passed when he pulled himself out of me. He started putting on his clothes.
"Wait. Where are you going? You're not gonna stay?", I asked him. He looked at my laptop.
"What's this?", he asked.
"I was looking for a new job since I thought I couldn't work there anymore", I told him.
"Oh. Look we shouldn't speak of this to anyone. Manager hyung will only get mad. Just pretend this didn't happen. I'll see you at work", he said.
"Wait. So you're still not gonna talk to me? Then why the hell did you have sex with me? Were you bored? Are you just gonna use me when you have nothing to do? Do you even love me anymore?", I asked him with tears in my eyes. He just stared at me and shrugged.
"You know what? You're right. Let's just pretend this never happened. And let's just pretend NOTHING ever happened between us. Get out", I told him.
"Hold on a sec-"
"I said get out!!", I yelled.
After he left I took a bath. I just cried for about an hour. When I got out I did more research on my laptop for new jobs. After what happened I'm sure it will kill me to stay working there.
The next morning I didn't show up for my shift. I was getting my paperwork ready for the manager so I could go and work somewhere else.
I knew there was gonna be a meeting today with the manager and bts so I thought that would be the right time to drop off my paper work.
When I entered the room, the manager stared at me.
"You were supposed to be here hours ago. Where the hell were you?", he asked.
I felt everyone's eyes on me. I walked towards the manager and put the paper work on the table.
"I'm leaving. I can't work here anymore for many reasons. All I need for you to do is sign that paper and I'll be out of here", I said. He stared at me for a couple of seconds and signed the paper.
"It was great working with you", he said. I know he was being sarcastic. I took the paper and walked towards the door.
"Wait!"
I heard Suga call my name but I kept walking. I walked and walked until I was no where near the building. I locked the door as soon as I got in my house. I felt like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Hours later I got hungry so I went towards the kitchen. As I turned on the light, someone was sitting on the counter.
"Suga what the hell are you doing here? And how did you get in? I locked the door", I said.
"I have a spare key remember?", he said.
"Get out", I told him.
"No."
"Get out or I'll call the cops", I said.
"You wouldn't", he said.
"What do you want?", I asked him.
"I want you."
"No you don't. You want my body that's it. I'm so sick and tired of being confused. I want you to leave. I never want to see your face again", I said as I tried to push him. He grabbed my arms and pushed me against the counter.
"You're lying. You want me. You love me. You say you're gonna leave but I know you'll come back and beg for your job back", he said.
"I hate you", I told him. He just smirked.
"I hate everything about you. I hate that you're selfish. I hate that all you want is sex. I hate that you can't man up and tell the manager that you could speak to me whenever you want. You're scared. You're just a scared little boy. And I want nothing to do with you", I said. His smirk went away.
"Get out", I said sternly. He looked at me for a couple of seconds and left. Days later I never heard from Suga again. I found a new job and I moved out of my old house. The other bts members tried to contact me but I never answered. I had to change my number so none of them could bother me. Sometimes I wish I could go back but that will only give Suga more power. Over a month later I found out I was pregnant. I didn't bother telling Suga. I don't want him hurting my baby like he hurt me. I'm happy I left.