I have never fought with Suga before. I've known him for over a year and we've been dating for five months. Last night I found out that he was with another girl while I was at home worried sick about him. The way he yelled at me made me feel like I didn't matter to him anymore. I fell asleep on the couch..well not really sleep. I most likely cried all night. The other guys didn't bother saying anything while we argued. I kept thinking if going out with him was a good idea.
The next morning I got up from the couch and went towards the kitchen to get a glass of water.
"Good morning Nita. How'd you sleep", Jin asked. I didn't bother answering him. I went back to the couch and covered myself with the blankets. I didn't sleep, I didn't cry. I felt nothing. I just kept staring at the ceiling. Everyone came down when Jin finished making breakfast. Suga didn't even look at me.
"Nita why don't you come and eat your breakfast?", Jungkook asked.
"I'm not hungry", I mumbled. I just heard Suga scoff.
"You need to eat something or you'll get sick", Rapmonster said. I slowly got up and made my way towards the kitchen table. I sat between J-Hope and Rapmonster. There was an awkward silence for a couple of minutes. I played with my food as I covered myself with the blanket. Everyone except Suga stared at me.
"So Nita are you gonna be going with us to practice this whole week?", J-Hope asked.
"No. I'll be packing", I said looking at my food.
"What? Why?"
"Where are you going?"
"Don't go"
"I'm your hope don't leave"
The guys kept asking questions.
"I'm going back with my family. It's been a long time since I've seen them. I thought maybe I should spend more time with them", I said as I kept my eyes on the plate of food in front of me.
"But your family is in the U.S."
"Are you coming back?"
"I don't know. Depends on how everything goes", I said taking a glance at Suga and back at the plate.
"Great. What are we gonna do now that she's leaving?", Taehyung said.
"What we were doing before we met her", Suga said with no emotion. Tears were forming in my eyes and I tried not to let them fall.
"Excuse me", I said softly and made my way to the room I shared with Suga. I couldn't breathe. After a few seconds I decided to let it all out. I cried so much. I heard a knock on the door and I quickly wiped away my tears. I looked back and saw Jimin with a small smile.
"Hey Nita", he said as he sat down next to me.
"So what's the real reason why you're leaving?", Jimin asked. I didn't want to answer. I kept looking at my hands. Jimin took his hand and put it under my chin so I would be looking at him.
"Suga hates me", I told him.
"He doesn't hate you. He's just really angry. But you have a right to be angry too. He was with someone else while you were alone here. Just..Don't leave", he said.
"I can't. If I stay here, I'll have to see him. And if I see him, it'll just remind me of when he yelled at me and what he said. It's gonna kill me. I really love him Jimin. Maybe if I would've told him that sooner, this wouldn't have happened", I said.
"It's not too late to tell him", he said. I shook my head in disagreement.
"I have to get packing. I'm gonna leave in three days so.." I said looking away. He just nodded and left the room.
A couple of hours later I didn't even have half of my stuff packed because I kept looking at pictures of me and Suga. I put all of those pictures and wrapped them with a rubber band. On the back of each picture I wrote one reason why I love Suga so much. I wanted to wait until I left to put it in Suga's drawer. After doing that I felt a little bit better.
"What are you doing?"
I didn't even see Suga near the door.
"N-Nothing. Just packing", I said looking down. He just stared at me and went to lay down on his bed. I felt uncomfortable so I went on my bed and listened to music. I can feel his eyes on me as I looked up at the ceiling. It was only 3pm and I had nothing else to do. Maybe I should go see what the other guys are doing. I got up from the bed and went into Jungkook's and Taehyung's room.
"Hey Jungkook. Where's Taehyung?", I asked him.
"He went somewhere with J-Hope and Rapmonster", he said. I came in and sat next to him while he was on his computer.
"Did you need something from him?", he asked.
"No. I just...I was bored so I wanted to know what you guys are doing," I said. He just nodded.
"So are you really leaving?", he asked. I nodded. He put his hand on my thigh and said, "hopefully you don't. If things don't work out with Suga, you can still stay here. I can help you", he said. I didn't even notice the sudden position he put us in. He was on top of me as he was softly rubbing my leg, slowly going up. It felt good but I didn't want Jungkook doing that. Although Suga and I have never done anything, I want him right now.
"Jungkook stop", I whispered. He was grinding on me which made me moan.
"Doesn't sound like you want to stop", he said in his deep voice. He kept doing that earning more moans from me.
"I want to...just not with you. Get off please", I started crying. He noticed how I was reacting so he stopped and apologized to me.
"Maybe you should go back with Suga. Seems like you aren't angry at him even though you caught him cheating on you", he said as he went back to his computer.
"I am angry! And he didn't cheat on me he was just hanging out with her! I love him ok?? Only him!", I yelled before I left to the room. I sat down on my bed and looked down at my wrists. They're starting to get bruised. He must have held them too tight. I looked over at Suga to find him already staring at me. I looked away quickly and massaged my wrists. I guess I was paying too much attention to my wrists because I felt a hand caressing them.
"Who did this too you?", he asked. I pulled away from him and looked away.
"It's n-nothing", I said. He gently grabbed my arms and put something on it so it would make the bruise go away. Then he put a bandage around it. He sat next to me while he put an arm around my waist.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have yelled at you yesterday. I was a little bit drunk but I didn't do anything with that girl. I should have just came back to you", he said as he tried to look into my eyes.
"You told me you hate me. You said I bother you too much. And that I over exaggerate about a lot of stuff. The only reason why I do that is because I lo-", I stopped myself.
"It doesn't matter anyways. I'm going back with my family. That's where I belong", I told him before getting off the bed. I was about to leave the room but Suga closed it and pushed me against the wall.
"I don't want you to leave", he said in his deep voice.
"You should've thought about that before you said all that stuff to me", I told him.
He just looked at me. I was about to say something but he cut me off with a kiss. I wanted to back away but I also didn't want him to stop. I kissed him back as I wrapped my arms around his neck. He wrapped my legs around his waist and push me a little bit more against the door. I could feel him get hard. He kissed down to my neck until he found my sweet spot. He started sucking on it until it left a dark spot. I softly moaned his name. He was rubbing against me so I could feel how hard his member was. I wanted him so badly. I bit my lip and moaned. He kept smirking. He carried me towards the bed and started to take off my clothes before he took off his. He was so beautiful. So pale and soft. He massaged my womanhood which earned him a loud moan. I felt uncomfortable doing that so I covered my mouth. He kissed me as he put two fingers in me. It hurt a little bit but I didn't pay attention to the pain as Suga stuck his tongue into my mouth. When I told him I was close, he took out his fingers and put them in his mouth, licking each finger. He positioned himself in front of my entrance. I started panicking because I didn't know how it would feel. He calmed me down and asked me if I wanted to stop. I thought about it and shook my head.
"This is gonna gonna hurt a bit but it'll go away. If I hurt you I'll stop", he said as he kissed me. He slowly entered me and I grabbed his shoulders tightly.
"I'm sorry baby", he kissed my tears away. After a while of adjusting to his size, I nodded so he could continue. He slowly went in and out. It hurt and felt good. He went a bit faster and I bit his shoulder to prevent me from moaning. He picked up my hips a little bit to go faster. I repeatedly moaned his name. I flipped us over so I could be on top. He was surprised at first but continued. I moved my hips as I held onto his chest. After a while I started bouncing on him until I was close. After we both came, we lied down next to each other as he pulled me close.
"By the way, I love you too", he said as he tried to catch his breath. I looked at him in confusion and in shock.
"I heard you yell when you were in Jungkook's room. And don't worry. I'll talk to him about what he did to you", he said before kissing me. I smiled and we both fell asleep.