You were in the bathroom, fixing your make up before heading out with the rest of the people. You weren't exactly excited since he was gonna be there. As you stared at yourself in the mirror, you remembered him telling you that there was no chance of you becoming an idol. But after working hard for the past two years, your dreams came true. You hadn't seen or talked to him during that time. Before any of that, your appearance wasn't so eye-catching. You ended up getting nose surgery due to your low self esteem. You thought maybe if you change your appearance, people will like you, and you were right.As you headed out of the bathroom, you bumped into your friend and him.

"Hey (y/n), we're gonna go in and dance. Wanna come?", she asked.

"No thanks. I have to...um..take care of something..", you mumbled before walking towards the other direction.

"(Y/n)", your friend called out for you but you just kept walking.

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The roof was the only place you can get some peace and quiet. You kept stepping on your long dress but you didn't care as the view amazed you.

"(Y/n)"

Your heart began to beat so quickly, you were sure it would hurt open. You hadn't taken your eyes off the sunset as Namjoon sat down in front of you.

"What do you want?", you muttered.

"..you look beautiful", he said.

You chuckled coldly and rolled your eyes. You wrapped your arms around yourself as the wind began to get cold.

"Now I look beautiful? Because before the surgery, you told me I look nothing like an idol. You never acknowledged me when I was just an assistant", you muttered, biting your lip in anger.

"I've apologized a bunch of times. I was wrong and rude. Just listen to me", he said, trying to grab your hand but you pulled away.

"No. I don't want to hear it", you said, standing up to face him.

"(Y/n)"

You looked back to see your boyfriend walking up to you. His arm wrapped around your waist while glaring at Namjoon.

"Is everything alright here babe?", he asked while still glaring at Namjoon.

"Everything is fine. Just go back inside", you said, lightly pushing him away.

"I still need to talk to you (y/n)", Namjoon said.

"She doesn't want to talk to you", your boyfriend said, getting closer to him.

You tried pushing him away but he was stronger than you were. He moved you away and pushed Namjoon.

"Back off", Namjoon said.

Your boyfriend pushed him again but a bit too hard, causing him to trip off the roof.

"Namjoon!!", you yelled, looking over the edge.

You notice he was already on the ground. You turned towards your boyfriend with tears in your eyes.

"How could you?!", you yelled while punching his chest.

You ran out until you were with Namjoon. He was hardly breathing and blood surrounded his body. You cried for help but no one was around.

"Namjoon, stay with me. Please don't die", you cried while trying to figure out how to help him.

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You were asleep in the hospital room where they kept Namjoon. Even in your sleep, you couldn't help but cry.

Jin has placed a blanket over you, noticing you kept shivering. Then while glancing over at Namjoon, he sighed. He had been in a coma for over a week now. You have been by his side 24/7, hoping he would wake up.

"(Y/n), you should go home and rest", Jin said as he caressed your head.

"Is he awake yet?", you asked, sitting up and rubbing your sleepy eyes.

"No", he answered.

"I'm not leaving. This is my fault. He could've died because of me. I don't even know he's gonna wake up. He has to wake up. He has to know that I still love him. He has to know how sorry I am. He has to wake up", you cried again.

"He is gonna wake up. We just need to be patient. And it's not your fault. You didn't push him off the roof", he said, comforting you with a hug.

"But if I hadn't gone up to the roof, he wouldn't have followed me. He would've been okay", you said.

"He is gonna be okay. Just go home. You need rest", Jin said.

"I'm not leaving", you stayed and laid back down on the chair.

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It wasn't until you were the only one in the room with Namjoon. You kept staring at him but your eyes began to close. You wanted to stay awake but you couldn't help it. You were so tired. As you closed your eyes, you can see a hand moving. When you heard mumbling, your eyes widened and got closer to the bed.

"Namjoon?", you asked as you held his hand.

He slowly opened his eyes and mumbled in pain.

"Try not to move too much. Oh my gosh. Namjoon..I'm so sorry", you whispered.

You wanted to hug him but you felt like you were gonna hurt him. He grumbled words that you couldn't understand.

"I hate myself for this happening. Jin said it isn't my fault but it is my fault. I'm so sorry", you cried as you rested your forehead on his hand.

"..mdkxncn..", he mumbled.

"I'm sorry. Namjoon I love you. I'm really sorry", you continued to cry.

"Do you..wanna marry me?", he mumbled.

You looked at him, tears still flowing down your eyes. His hand went up to your face and wiped away the tears, leaving his hand on your cheek.

"What?", you asked, gasping.

"You heard me", he lightly chuckled, groaning afterwards.

"..Namjoon..I want nothing more than to be with you. I just wanna make sure you want to be with me 100%", you said.

"I made the mistake of letting you go long ago. It's not gonna happen this time. I love you (y/n). And I'm so sorry for hurting you", he said.

"I don't care about that now. Just as long as you're fine. And..of course I'll marry you. But right now let's focus on you getting better. I need to call the doctor", you stood up and headed towards the door but Namjoon grabbed your wrist.

"Just...lay with me for a few minutes", he said.

You carefully got on the bed and laid next to him. You looked up at him and softly smiled as he kissed your forehead. The cut on his cheek had healed. You remember blood gushing everywhere.

"Let's get some sleep", he mumbled.

"Are you sure that's a good idea? You need to get checked out", you said.

"If they check on me, will you sleep next to me?", he asked.

"I'll do anything for you", you smiled before going off to call the doctor.
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So a little rant about why I haven't been updating daily just like I said. I have been trying to get something fixed but apparently I can't do anything about it. And I wanna say my side of the story since this specific person thinks it's funny to start rumors. All of you may know Jackie and I broke up months ago. I have done a lot of things to make her happy and even sacrificed a few things. I've done everything. Whatever I did wrong I apologized. She's been going around spreading nasty rumors about me at school and even her girlfriend threatened me. Just to be clear, she's the one who cheated,she's the one who has her own relationship to worry about, she's the one to create lies. I have moved on a long time ago. I've reported this to the school but apparently they can't do anything about it since there's no proof. I am tired of worrying about it so I'm just gonna let that go and only focus on transferring schools so I can start a new and healthy life with new friends..and my cute little wizard who I love so much. Anyways once everything is settled I promise to update daily❤️

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