This is kind of bit depressing but there's a reason.
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You were on the verge of crying. You were out in the empty streets, trying to figure out what to do. You called your boyfriend a bunch of times but hearing his voicemail only made you panic a bit more. You clutched onto your chest, feeling your body shake. You didn't realize that you were near your sister's house until you saw the street sign.

You frantically knocked on her door, hoping she would answer quickly. You can see your hands shaking. Your tears had already escaped your eyes, rolling down your face and staining your shirt.

"(Y/n)? It's 2am", your sister yawned as she rubbed her eyes.

"C-Can I come in?", you asked, stuttering.

She realized what was happening so she quickly let you in. You paced back and forth in her living room. It's like it was hot but cold at the same time.

"(Y/n), you need to sit down and breathe. Try to relax", your sister said.

"I can't. I can't breathe", you said, gasping for air.

She wrapped her arms around you, a tight grip. It took about an hour until you relaxed. She let go and sighed as she rubbed your back.

"What were you doing roaming around the streets at 2 in the morning? Something could've happened to you", she said.

"I just...needed some air", you sighed softly.

"Where's Hoseok? Why wasn't he with you?", she asked.

"He's working", you mumbled.

"He's always working. He should be there when this happens. Something could go terribly wrong if no one is around you", she said, scoffing.

"I'm fine. I should get going. Thanks though", you smiled softly.

"You're not going anywhere. It's late. You're sleeping here", she said.

"Really, I'm fine now. Hoseok will get worried if he doesn't find me home", you said.

"I doubt he'll even notice since he's always gone. Seriously, stay here. I'll call him to let him know you're here. I'll go get you some blankets. I would let you sleep in my bed with me but I sorta have company", she said.

"Gross", you rolled your eyes and headed towards the couch.

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The next morning you were still asleep. There were loud knocks on the door but you were too tired to wake up and answer it. Your sister quickly went over towards the door, knowing who it could be.

"Hey", Hoseok said, standing outside.

Your sister was leaning against the doorframe, arms crossed over her chest as she glared at your boyfriend.

"What?", she asked very rudely.

"You called me saying (y/n) was here. I came to check on her", he said.

"That was five hours ago. Why didn't you come then?", she asked.

"I'm here now. Can I come in so I can see my girlfriend?", he asked, getting frustrated.

Without saying anything, she stood aside to let him in. You woke up as soon as he touched your cheek.

"Hey sleepy head. It's time to go home", he softly smiled at you.

"She needs to eat", your sister said.

"It's okay. I'm gonna go with Hoseok. Thanks though", you smiled at your sister as you folded the blanket.

Your sister accompanied you and Hoseok out of the door. You went in his car but your sister stopped Hoseok.

"Next time when this happens, you better be there for her. Who knows what could've happened to her? She could've gotten hurt", she said.

"It was just a small panic attack. Nothing harmful. I should get going. She's waiting for me", he said before getting into the car.

~~~

A few days pass. You still get panic attacks but not too severe for anyone to worry about. Hoseok has been working hard to be able to get a promotion. He's been trying for over a year already...until one afternoon he received news that he got the promotion. You two had made plans to celebrate. You made dinner and were excited to have Hoseok over and congratulate him. You wore a dress just for the occasion. You couldn't wait.....so to speak, you really couldn't wait.

You cooked dinner over four hours ago. It was getting late. You were sitting on the dining table, dinner probably cold in front of you. Your fingers kept tapping on the table. It's past midnight and Hoseok hasn't texted or called you. You can hear the ticking on the clock. Your heart began to race and felt as if someone is choking you. You had the urge of just getting up and waking out..so you did.

The bright lights from the streets confused you and made you feel dizzy. It's like being underwater. The pressure just keeps tightening and you can't breathe. Your whole body was shaking. People pass by you and thought you were on drugs. If only, maybe that would've helped.

You tried breathing just like your sister practiced with you but it wasn't working, to the point where you ended up fainting.

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"Honestly (y/n), you scared the crap out of me. What were you thinking??", your sister scolded you .

"I needed air", you said.

She fixed the pillows repeatedly. But she should know hospital beds aren't very comfortable. She kept wiping away your tears. You were tired.

About an hour later, you were still crying. You sister was there to comfort you. That's when Hoseok ran in. Your sister stood up to stop him from getting any closer.

"Where were you?", you asked with a stuffy nose.

"I was at work. They gave me extra hours so I can-"

"I called you. I texted you. I really needed you! I was worried! I was scared!", you yelled, feeling all kinds of emotions.

"I'm sorry. It's just work has been crazy. Are you okay now?", he asked.

"Get out", you muttered.

"Wait a minute (y/n)-"

"I said get out!", you yelled one more time.

Your sister lightly pushed him out of the room.

"I thought I told you to be with her when this happens. Is work more important than (y/n)?", your sister asked.

"Of course not", he responded.

"Doesn't seem like it. She loves you Hoseok. But I think it's best if she moved in with me. At least I can take care of her", she said.

"She's not going anywhere except back home with me. I made a bunch of mistakes but I'm not gonna make another one. I'm gonna be there for her", he said.

"We'll see. Just give her some space for now. She'll tell us what she wants", she said.

When she walked away, Hoseok took out a small box from his pocket, opening it and gazing at the diamond ring.

~~~

It's been three hours. You've calmed down and felt a bit better. Your sister left to get some coffee so Hoseok took that chance to talk to you.

"Hey", he said.

"Hi", you softly smiled.

"I'm really sorry (y/n). You have no idea how horrible I feel", he said, sitting down and taking your hand in his.

"It's fine. It's not your fault", you said.

"But it is. I leave you alone almost everyday knowing how you get. You worry a lot more when I don't get home until late and when I don't respond, you panic. It's not what I want", he said.

"I don't..understand. What are you saying?", you asked.

"I don't want you to worry anymore. Your sister is right. I can't take care of you. It's best if you move in with her...and I don't think it's healthy for me to be in your life", he said.

Tears once again formed in your eyes.

"Don't cry. See, this is what I mean. I keep hurting you. I love you..but I want you happy and healthy. Please don't argue with me on this. You should be with your sister. Promise me that you won't think about me when I leave out that door", he said, caressing your hand.

"I can't-"

"Please. I promise that you'll get better", he whispered.

It was hard for you to respond so you just nodded. He kissed your forehead for a few seconds before letting go. As he walked towards the door, he took one more glance at you before leaving. He walked until he was at the exit, placing the small box on a bench and kept walking, forcing himself not to look back.
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Hopefully I won't get any criticism for this. This imagine actually meant a lot to me, which is why I made it a bit longer. I ended up having a really bad anxiety attack a few hours ago and I had trouble sleeping. It's currently 5am, I had no sleep. Thank goodness for Wizard, he kept me calm and made feel better. Just wanted to spread awareness I guess for those who have anxiety and depression. Most who don't, don't really understand. Some judge and say "you're over exaggerating" or "all you want is attention". Well duh of course I want attention because I want to feel loved even though I already know I'm loved by many people. It's a scary thing, anxiety. It can happen at anytime. For me it feels like I'm moving fast but everything around me is in slow motion, any noise fades away, heart races quickly that it hurts my chest, I start shaking intensely, sometimes they're so bad that I faint. Anyways, it's serious so hopefully everyone will take care of themselves mentally, emotionally, and physically so you won't have to deal with it. All love to you amazing children❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️