I was laying down on Jin's bed, hugging my knees as I kept thinking about Namjoon.

"See, this is what I was talking about. I knew you were gonna regret it", Jin said.

"All I regret is sleeping with Jungkook", I said.

"And look where that left you. Namjoon isn't talking to you and Jungkook is pretending that everything is okay", he said.

"Well what am I supposed to do?? All anyone cares about is how Namjoon and Jungkook feel. What about me?? It was my decision so I don't know why everyone keeps labeling me as the bad guy. Do you think it was easy for me to do this? I couldn't stay pregnant while being in love with someone else. I don't expect you to understand", I said as I turned the other direction.

"I'm sorry. You're right. I shouldn't have said anything", he said.

Jin turned as we heard a knock on the door.

"Can I talk to (y/n) for a sec?", Jungkook asked.

Jin left the room, leaving Jungkook and I in a very uncomfortable situation.

"Hey", he said.

I didn't say anything as I hugged me knees tighter.

"You okay?", he asked.

"What do you think? Anything I do to make myself happy ends up the opposite. Namjoon hates me. You hate me. I hate myself. I'm making everyone around me miserable because of some stupid mistake", I said.

"I don't hate you. It's my fault you're like this in the first place. And hyung doesn't hate you. He just hates what you did. Everything will be fine. I promise", he said as he rubbed my back.

"I'm tired. Can you let me go to sleep?", I said as I moved his hand away from my back.

I heard his footsteps fading away. I cried myself to sleep.

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After Jungkook closed the door, he stared at it for a while before sighing.

He walked towards Namjoon's room and checked if he was in there.

"Hyung, can we talk?", he asked as he saw him sitting on his bed.

"Sure. About what?", he asked.

"(Y/n)", Jungkook answered.

"What about her?", he said.

"She's really upset. Why don't you talk to her?", Jungkook asked.

"She shouldn't have did what she did. I know she cheated on me and that's my fault but what if you wanted to keep the baby? I just keep thinking about if she would do that if it was mine", he said.

"I didn't really like the idea of her getting an abortion but she was right. We are too young to be parents. And with me, I was gonna be too busy to help her with the baby. Either way, she's making herself suffer from one mistake-"

"Two", Namjoon interrupted.

"Two mistakes. Anyways, the point is she's blaming herself for everything. Do you really want to see her put herself down because of that? I know you still love her so why don't you just tell her?", he said, getting annoyed of how he's acting.

He got up and left his room, hoping what he said got to him.

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I woke up with my stomach growling and rumbling. I stood up and walked towards the kitchen to find Namjoon drinking water.

"Sorry. I didn't know you were in here", I said, which sounded like a whisper.

I slowly walked towards the fridge but Namjoon stood in the way.

"I want to talk to you", he said softly.

I was hesitant at first since I knew he was really angry at me but I nodded and followed him into his room.

It was silent for about a minute until he looked at me and asked how I was doing.

"I'm fine", I said.

"Are you sure?", he asked.

I shrugged my shoulders and looked around his room.

"Jungkook was telling me about how you're feeling. To be honest with you, I am still angry at you. But you shouldn't blame yourself for something you thought was right for you. And I guess I should stop being angry at you. I'm sorry for the way I acted towards you. I still love you but I don't know if I can trust you", he said.

"I'll do anything, please?? I don't want us to be over. These past few weeks have been hell. I really do regret sleeping with Jungkook. I wish it could have been you", I bit my lip.

"I don't know. I need time to think. But for now let's just move on from what happened. I can't stand to see you hurting", he said.

I nodded and smiled.
Finally I feel like a bunch of weight has been taken off my shoulders.

"Is it okay if I sleep in here?", I asked him.

"Just for tonight. I still need a lot of thinking to do", he said.

I nodded and laid down on one side of the bed. I had my back facing Namjoon so it wouldn't be awkward. I want to respect his space but I was surprised to feel an arm around my waist and lightly pulled me back.

I slightly turned my head and saw Namjoon with his eyes closed. I felt my cheeks turn warm as my eyes landed on his lips. No matter how much I wanted to kiss him, I want to wait until he decides what he wants to do. I got comfortable and closed my eyes so I could go to sleep and hopefully things will get better with Namjoon AND Jungkook.
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