I was sitting on the sand, staring at the ocean in front of me. I smiled as I watched two little kids play around on the sand, splashing each other with water. I let the sand invade the space between my toes as I stretched my legs. I took a deep breath and remembered all the memories I had on this beach.

"Hobi we're supposed to be in school. We're gonna get in trouble. We might go to jail or something", I said as I watched J-hope run on the sand.

"(Y/n), we're only twelve. We can't go to jail just because we're at the beach. Come on, I'll teach you how to swim just like I promised", he smiled and extended his hand.

I stood up and started walking around. I stopped when I was under the pier. I sat down on the spot where J-Hope and I usually hung out. I took my phone out once it started ringing. I put on a fake smile after noticing who was calling.

"Hey Hobi", I said as I stared at the screen.

"Hey (y/n), what are you doing?"

"At the beach", I said.

"You still go there without me?"

"Well it's the only way the memories are more vivid so...", I said.

"How have you been? I know it's been a while since I actually called you."

"Fine. Everything is fine", I weakly smiled.

The look on his face shows he isn't convinced. We've been close friends for 10 years so he knows when I'm hiding how I really feel.

"Are you sure about that? You know one of my favorite things about you is your contagious smile. And I know that small curve on your face isn't genuine. What's going on?"

I bit my lip as I struggled to find the right words to distract him from the real reason why I'm acting the way I am.

About 5 years ago, my parents died in a car accident so J-Hope has been taking care of me since. With all the affection he's been giving me, I started having feelings for him but never had the chance to tell him since he is now a billion miles away from me.

"I just miss you is all. I haven't seen you in over a year. Living alone sucks", I said.

"Sorry about that. I don't know when I'll be visiting but I hope it's soon. Anyways, I have to get going now. I'll call you when we arrive at the hotel. And eat well!"

I smiled and hung up. I sighed and went back home.

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When I got home, I didn't bother turning on the lights. I went towards the kitchen and looked inside the fridge.

"You hungry?"

I jumped and hit my head on the fridge.

"Oops sorry I didn't mean to scare you."

I looked back while still holding my head and smiled.

"Hobi!", I yelled as I ran towards him and jumped on him. He laughed and hugged me back.

"Wait, what are you doing here? I thought you said-"

"I lied. Manager hyung gave us our break so I decided to come and visit you", he smiled.

"That's great", I smiled back.

I blushed once I realized he was still carrying me. Our faces were just inches away. J-Hope didn't seem to mind though since he didn't move a muscle.

"I brought food", he said.

"Really??", I said excitedly as I jumped off of him.

As we ate, we caught up on a few things. I kept talking so much, I didn't realize I was talking about him.

"Am I talking too much?", I asked sheepishly.

"Did you really miss me that much?", he asked.

"I should go take this to the trash", I said, hoping to distract me from how red I was.

I sighed and leaned against the counter.

"I know."

I looked up and saw J-Hope smirking.

"Know what?", I asked him.

"How you feel about me. I've known for a long time", he said.

He slowly walked towards me as he kept his eyes on mine. I blushed and turned away from him. I felt his chest close to my back.

"Why didn't you say anything?", I muttered.

"I was waiting for you to tell me", he said as he hugged me.

"So....if you knew this entire time, that means you don't feel the same about me right?", I asked quietly, afraid of the answer he'll say.

"Hm?"

"Well you're the type of person who isn't afraid or ashamed of hiding anything, you would've said something", I said.

"You were going through a loss and I didn't want you to think differently if I told you. You would have been telling yourself that I'm gonna leave you, I don't really like you, that I feel bad for you", he said, kissing my temple.

"And I was gonna tell you before asking you to come move in with me", he said.

"What?", I turned around and faced him.

"Yea well you kept telling how much it sucks to live here by yourself. And there's still a lot of room at the dorm so....what do you think?", he asked.

I squealed and hugged him. I must have hugged him with a lot of force since we ended up falling on the floor.

"Sorry", I whispered.

He sat up, making me straddle him. I wanted to stand up so it wouldn't be awkward but he kept his hands on my waist. He started to lean in slowly so I closed my eyes.

"I love you."

I opened my eyes and blushed when our noses were slightly touching.

"I...I...", I couldn't say it back.

I felt like my throat was starting to swell up. My heart was beating so fast, I thought it was about to burst. My stomach felt like I was on a roller coaster, twisting and turning.

"Speechless?", he chuckled.

I laughed nervously and looked down at my fingers.

"I love you too", I whispered.

"What? I couldn't hear you", he said.

"I said....I love you t-", I couldn't finish my sentence since J-Hope's lips were on mine.

Finally, after years I didn't feel so alone now.
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Sorry this one sucks.