Your my happy pill,
The one that seemingly I smile looking at,
When I met you it was like happiness blew like a full force truck hitting me hard in the chest.
But it soon faded into utter sadness.
I tried to push it away I really did.
I distracted myself with books and music just to try to get the annoying thought out of my head.
but it didn't work.
in fact it didn't work at all.
So I let the time pass, for maybe a month. I lost sleep and it looked as if I was carrying a garbage can even under the large amounts of makeup I piled onto my face. I looked disgusting.
I cried myself to sleep each night thinking about how much of a failure I am.
I tried not to act like who I really am around people like you
but it just seemed to come out..
I'm sorry Jung Hoseok.
I'm sorry.

Fml^^