She was a happy kind of sad.
She wasn't exactly depressed.
Neither was she in a freak of happiness.
She was just.
Eh.

That's all she has felt ever since he left her. Without a simple goodbye. Just got into a car and disappeared suddenly. Not to return even weeks later.
She still attends class but doesn't talk to the normal people she would. She still eats like normal but doesn't find joy in it as she used to. Nothing is the same without him.
Sometimes she would feel more down then happy. But what's left of him. Pictures and texts. She awaits his return simply making time a ticking bomb.
She's not herself without him.
But when she saw him. That day she will never forget. It was when she learned the only reason why she can't trust it. She can't trust her heart.
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"Y-Yoongi?" You stood in front of your driveway a long grey sweater laying over your body. Keeping you warm in the cold outside.
"Hello Y/N-ah." He said. He placed his hand on my head. Moving slightly.
"Where.. Where did you go?" You asked your lip quivering. He stuttered no sound coming out of his mouth.
"You have no idea how much I've missed you." I continued.
"Y/N I'm not staying." He said rubbing his fore-arm.
"Wait.. what.." You asked your shoulders slouching and your eyes falling to your feet.
"I've been chosen. For BigHit." He continued a smile forming on his face but a frown slowly rising back.
"I thought we were gonna graduate together." You continued. He tried to talk but you stopped him.
"But I'm happy for you. I will... Just miss you a lot. I don't want you to leave. But it's your dream remember?" You pushed his shoulder slightly.
You smiled brightly as tears began to roll down your cheeks. A car pulled up and honked.
"I have to go Y/N-ah." He said grabbing your hand.
"Goodbye Now." You said pulling your hand away. Letting it be goodbye for a while. Marking less pain in your heart.
"Be Happy Y/N. I'll see you again. I will miss you. So much." He said pulling you into a hug. You smiled into his chest knowing deep down you will go home and let sadness take you.
"Goodbye-" you said as he got into the car.
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She was a happy kind of sad.
She wasn't exactly depressed.
Neither was she in a freak of happiness.
She was just.
Eh.