Requested by: JohannetheJoJo

{Trigger WARNING: this Chapter is depressing and will contain certain areas which can be uncomfortable to u....so if u are not okay with these type of things....I request you to either go back a chapter until I publish a new chapter or go on ahead and read a new chapter}

(That song goes perfectly with this chapter....it's on top 1 of my favourites in English)

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Ive acquired severe depression and I'm suicidal. Why I got depression? Hate comments,weight shamming, and the constant comments about me stealing their boys. I've never taken hate comments well, I tend to take them personally and I get depressed.

But this time, it went to another level.

(Y/n) is such a fatass!! Can she do the boys and us a favour and die already?

Why is that (y/n) stealing our boys, I want to kill her when she's lest expecting it.

Bitch go and die!!! Nobody wants u here!!

(Y/n)'s voice hurts my ears. Why can't she die and give my ears some rest.

Why was she even given a chance in the group? I bet she entered it through her slutty ways...such a bitch!!

Those were some of the examples. there are far worse. Like my personal favourite

I'm going to find. I'm going to hurt u in ways you've never thought of. Then I'm going to bury u so that no one can find u. Goodnight asshole.

Isn't that the best.

I've become anorexic, to stop the fat shamming, you can see only bones on me. So I've stopped going on stage and I missed my real ARMY's, not these fake bitches.

But I can't anymore.

Goodbye world

*Slash*

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Jimin's POV

"I'm going to get (y/n) then we'll have dinner" I said and Jin nodded. I hummed my way towards (y/n)'s room. On reaching her door, I knocked on it, but she didn't answer. Then I started to bang and shout her name. "HYUNG, COME QUICK. (Y/N)'S NOT OPENING HER DOOR" I yelled and soon all of them came running.

"Move I'll knock down the door" kook said and I moved aside, he slammed himself on the door twice, then on the third time the door got knocked of its hinges from the force. Kook went inside and got still seeing (y/n) laying on bed.

As we stepped a feet inside her room, kook just sat down on the ground and started to ball his eyes out crying, we hurriedly went to kook and when I looked at (y/n), my eyes got filled with tears. Lying on the bed in a pool of her own blood and a look of peacefulness in her face.

I also started to cry, I took some steps back and crashed into hobi, I turned and hugged him while crying.

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Today was (y/n)'s funeral. Yesterday while cleaning her room, I found a letter. It read:

Dear boys, mom and dad,

I'm sorry to leave you'll like this. But I can't take it anymore. All these hate is overrulling the love in my life.
I'm really really sorry, I've disappointed all of us and my parents tell them I couldn't be a good daughter to them and a good bandmate to u.
Tell everyone I ever loved that I'll always remember them and watch over u all the time.
Tell ARMY's to stop all these hate comments they can be personally be taken by people and lead to things like me.
Remember me always and I love you.

Yours
(Y/n)

It was the most depressing thing I read from her. I'm sad that she left us, but I'm more sad she left us cuz she couldn't handle the hate comments thrown at her.

Sometimes I really hate that I'm an idol, instead of being a help to the society. But it was always my dream to be an idol.

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Carrying her casket on our shoulders, was the biggest pain, cuz we know from the pain that she's never coming back to us.

Reaching the graveyard, we put her casket  down beside the grave and, we're called to say some words for her. Many people came, but interestingly no paparazzi were seen.

We urged her parents to go up first. Her mother handed me cherry and went up the stage.

"My daughter (y/n) was the most sweetest and brightest kid. She us-used to love animals mad nature so much as if she was part of it. *chuckles* upon hearing that she was n-no more in this world broke my heart so much, I felt like dying too.
I'm sorry (y/n) I didn't spend qua-quality time with u wh-while you were with us. *Breaks down in tears*"
She got down from the stage. And her father went up.

"Hello, ummmm....just to say that, (y/n) became suicidal after all the hate comments from depression and she got anorexic from the fat shamming. She was a beautiful girl, why did u do this to her? She brought u happiness with the boys. She worked hard to bring of collapse, to bring smiles on your faces. Why?" He sniffs and fists his hands and goes down the stage.

Then we'll walk up the stage and stood Infront of the mic. I started to talk. " Ummm, hello I'm jimin and (y/n)'s bandmate. Yesterday while cleaning her room I found a letter writing by her. And I want to read it out to u *gets the paper out from the pocket and starts to read*

Dear boys, mom and dad,

I'm sorry to leave you'll like this. But I can't take it anymore. All these hate is overrulling the love in my life.
I'm really really sorry, I've disappointed all of us and my parents tell them I couldn't be a good daughter to them and a good bandmate to u.
Tell everyone I ever loved that I'll always remember them and watch over u all the time.
Tell ARMY's to stop all these hate comments they can be personally be taken by people and lead to things like me.
Remember me always and I love you.

Yours
(Y/n)"

I folded the paper and put it back in my pocket. Then Joon came over the mic and said "today we lost our (y/n) and losing many more girls like this every hour at many different parts of the world. Stop hating the world is beautiful without hate" he said and we all went down the stage.

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We all placed single white roses on top of her closed casket and by asking the priest we seven and her mom and dad, nine white roses were given placed in her hand.

The caket was lowered on her grave and everbody threw some soil on it and the grave was covered.

Rest well (y/n).

We all walked away with a heavy heart and a sad soul.

Hope u liked it 💙

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Writing this and listening to "thousand years" made me so emotional. Fuckkkkk...I'm crying. My phone screen were holding my tear drops. It's so depressing to know that this kind of things do happen.

Like the Incident related with yoongi at the airport. I wanted to jab my elbow in her throat, fucking bitch.

Anyway, stop hating. And tell me know the comments about how I wrote this chapter(if it was good or bad) and if there should be modifications done.

Love yourself live yourself,
I love you

Xoxo megan