Requested by: songrheeya

In your new album every one of us (of the vocal line) has their own single song and so did I. i was excited to make a song that i can sing only. I've been trying to write song lines and all but nothing seemed to work really well that would match up to the scale of Jin's, Tae's, Kookie's and Jimin's singles. i mean those are so catchy yet heartbreaking with a story behind it. 

Currently sitting in front of laptop trying to find lyrics for my song is causing me to stress out as i'm not getting any ideas and putting my head in my hands and letting out long sighs. "hey (y/n) how's the song coming up?" i looked up and saw Joon peeking his head inside my room with a cheeky smile. seeing me all unruly and in a depressed atmosphere, he's smile vanished and he came inside my room and sat down beside me and pulled me in a side hug "hey little bean..what's with this depressed atmosphere and that long face?" he said and rubbed my arm as he hugged me "it's just i can't get any lyrics i want my song to be on Jin, Kookie, V and Jimin's level but i can't seem to even write anything" i said sighing and leaning into him more. He let out a small hum in  approval "listen (y/n) Jin is Jin so are the other members and so are u. i want your song to be like u, what u feel and what u want other to feel via your song. Jin's song was to convey the message of self love, Kookie's was to show all the hardships, friendships and youth through his song which he's slowly loosing because he's growing up, Jimin's and V's were what they felt. u don't have to make a song that is up to their scale, make a song that is in your scale, and if you're worried about army's not liking your song, army's will love your song just the way u make it. i know writing a song is hard, so why don't you look up some poems or stories, they can give u inspirations and ideas to write a song. i know u can do it (y/n) you're talented and really bright give it some time, something will come to u eventually. okay?" Joon finished leaned down to put his face in front of me as i nodded my head slowly "good girl...now take some rest u can work after that anytime u want but so take some rest" Joon said and placed a kiss on top of my forehead "okay Joonie" i said slowly "fighting" Joon did a fist pump to the air and laughed, making me laugh in the process as he walked out my room.

taking his words into consideration i searched for sad love poems and i instantly found one, it was short yet very deep which left a deep impact on me. words instantly started to flood my brain as i opened word and started to write down the lyrics. In 2 hours a new song was born.

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Today was the day, the MV for my song is to be recorded. i had 5 outfits for this MV . most of them in a grunge style, the MV was made in a gloomy kinda look. the song was about the bond breaking in between two lovers and the thoughts that are running inside the girls head (aka me).

The shooting starts, the rest of the members were all sitting here and there and looking at me recording. 

Then a blast happened and everything become blurry, screams erupted from everywhere, smoke filled the set, i heard feet scrambling sounds came to my ear but they're just ringing sounds in my ear, i slowly got up to my feet swaying from side to side, my eyes sight still blurry and hazy,i coughed as i looked around and saw bright orange and red colours, slowly my vision cleared and saw was fire. fire was everywhere, i heard a metallic groan i looked up and saw the metal cage coming crashing down straight towards me. 

A body crashed into me making me and the body fly to the side, i sat and saw Kookie "wtf (y/n) why weren't u outside?" he yelled and coughed from the smoke "i-i ko-kookie what happened here?" i asked groaning and coughing "no time to explain (y/n) i've to get you out of here first" he said standing up "can u walk properly?" he asked "Well i'm swaying slightly" i said "ok i'll pick u up then" he said bending down and picking me up bridal style and walking towards the exit"

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i was sat at the back of an ambulance, the paramedics put on some medicines and bandages on my cuts and wounds and put a blanket over me as it was already night outside. the outside scene was full on chaos, fire brigades were putting out the fire the police were asking questions to the set workers and even to some of the boys.

soon kookie walked up to me "you're an idiot. why did u go inside?" i said as soon as i saw him "and leave u there to die? well u are the idiot if u thought i'll leave u there" he said sitting down beside me and looking at the scenes happening in front of us."you know (y/n) not seeing u outside with us, made me realize something which i never knew i had in me?" kookie said while looking out to the scene still not moving his eyes from it, i looked at him "what?" i asked, he turned his head towards me "my love for u and the fear of losing u" he said putting a hand on my cheek caressing with his thumb as he slowly leaned forward and gently kissed me on my lips. his soft lips meeting my chapped ones from the fire, making all the sound from the outside world vanish as if it felt only him and i were present.

"(Y/N)" I heard someone yell as i quickly detached myself from him "i'm so happy you're okay" Jin said a pulling me in a hug. "whatever u did was really dangerous jungkook" i looked to my side to see Joon scolding Kookie, i small smile graced my lips, his bowed head turned slowly towards me and smiling back softly to me.

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hope u guys enjoyed this chapter as much as i did writing it.

the poem that helped me in getting the MV idea is down below:

What's Next?

© Amanda

I lie awake tonight,
Wishing of things I can change.
I try to convince myself,
But it's all so strange.

Is it me,
Or is it you?
Do I try,
Or are we through?

So long we've shared
Just to walk away.
But so much hurt
To want to stay.

Why do we do this,
Try to hurt the other more,
Only to watch one
Walk right out the door?

I love you so much,
Yet I push you to the point of breaking,
But why do you play with my heart
And never stop taking?

Is this the end
Or a new beginning?
Only one can guide me
When my head is spinning.

Don't push,
Don't try,
Don't stress,
Don't cry.

That is what plays
Over in my head
As I try to close my eyes
And just go to bed.

this was the poem it was really touching somehow to me. anyways by my little/big rings. i love u

your lovely,

lazy author