Trigger Warning!

Summary: Everyone in the school knows that Brendon and Ryan are dating. But what the don't know is that they are also dating Ryan. Ryan gets sick of being a secret and takes matters to his own hands.

[A/N: I recommend listening to Secret Love Song while reading this.]

Ryan's P.O.V 5:03 PM:

I stood by the railing of the bridge and looked down at the large river underneath it. My memory went to all that happened today to bring me here.

2:30 PM

"I heard Dallon is planning on asking Brendon to prom." I heard some girl say as I walked the school halls.

As I walked down all I heard was 'Brendon and Dallon this', 'Brendon and Dallon that'. Don't get me wrong, I love my two boyfriends dearly, with all my heart. But it makes me sad when no one knows that they are also dating me.

I hated the fact that they would act like they didn't know me at school and then would cuddle with me when the doors closed. I wish I could just scream 'I love Dallon and Brendon.' On the top of my lungs but I couldn't. I wish I could go to prom with them and dance on the dance floor with them, but I couldn't.

I opened my locker and fron the corner of my eyes I saw two people whom I love and hate at the same time. Brendon and Dallon walked down the halls hand in hand, they looked at everyone and looked at me like I was a stranger. At that moment my heart broke into a billion pieces.

I couldn't stop the silent tears from coming down my face. I dropped my stuff onto the ground and quickly ran home. When I got home I quickly ran up to my room and cried. I cried and cried, holding my knees close to my stomach.

"WHY CAN'T I SHOW THE WORLD THAT I LOVE YOU GUYS!" I screamed out loud. My sadness had turned into anger, I got up and trashed my entire room. It went from pulling out my bedsheets to pushing everything off my desk to banging my fists against my bedroom walls.

But soon, that anger was yet again replaced with sadness. I dropped down beside my messy bed and cried again.

'They don't love you.'

'If they did they wouldn't hide you.'

It was true, if they truly loved me they wouldn't hide me behind the close doors. I got up from my spot next to the bed and went to the mess in the middle of my floor. I picked up a pen and paper and started writing.

'Dear Dallon and Brendon,
I am sick.
I am sick of being hid behind closed doors.
I am sick of hiding my feelings for you two.
I am sick of it all. I love you guys too much to hide it.

I am sorry but I have to do something you guys would never approve of. Please, tell my mom that I love her dearly and I hope she can move on and forget about me. Most of all, I hope you two move on and be happy with your life.

Love, Ryan.'

I grabbed my phone and two pieces of tape and the picture and exited out of the house. I taped the note on the front door and made my way highway that had a river underneath it.

I looked down, the rough waves were hitting the bottom of the bridge. I looked around, there was no one except the people in their car minding their own business. I felt my phone vibrate from in my pants. I took it out and saw that it was a FaceTime request from Dallon.

They deserve one last call.

I answered it and I saw Brendon in the passenger seat of a car and Dallon driving. "RYAN! WHERE ARE YOU?" Brendon yelled, there were tears in his eyes.

"I- I'm s- sorry, guy. I l- love you g- guys so mu- much." I whispered, choking on my sobs.

"Ryan, please don't, we're almost there. Please stop." Dallon begged, tears filling his eyes.

Soon I saw a dark grey car pull up to where I was and two people coming out of it. "Ryan, please don't do this!" Brendon cried, walking towards me.

"Ryan, we love you so much, we were wrong to hide you!" Dallon said, crying.

"I- I'm so s-sorry to d-do t-this but I-I have to." I say, hiccuping. "I-I h-hope y- you two will m-move on." Tears were streaming down my eyes. "Brendon, Dallon, I love you guys so, so much." I cry, before going over the railing and falling down.

Before I closed my eyes, the last thing I could hear was Dallon screaming 'Noo' and Brendon crying.

I love you, Brendon and Dallon.

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[A/N: Well am I the only one who wants to kill me? I was listening to Secret Love Song my Little Mix while writing this and I was crying so hard. And know I have to reread this to make sure there isn't any errors.

Kill me.]

~ Mari