This chapter is unedited so expect wrong grammars and typo.

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Azulrietta's POV

Being a psychiatrist is challenging yet rewarding. Witnessing patients overcome depression brings a profound sense of satisfaction. Depression, though invisible, demands keen observation. Unfortunately, societal understanding often falls short, dismissing it as mere drama or labeling those suffering as "crazy" instead of providing the needed support.

Kaya hindi na rin ako magtataka kung minsan ayaw magpatingin at manghingi ng tulong ang mga nakararanas nito sapagkat natatakot sila, natatakot silang makutya at pagtawanan, natatakot silang maging pabigat at natatakot silang tanggapin sa sarili nila na may sakit sila. It was the common thing na napapansin ko sa mga naging pasyente ko lalo na 'yong mga nasa twenty plus palang ang edad, it took them a months and years to open up and sometimes kung kailan malala na saka sila nagpapatingin.

I admired those people who stand up and lend a hand to help those people who suffered from the harsh reality of depression. I admired those people who kept on fighting despite the negativity, the loneliness and the emptyness within them. I envy them 'cause they finally learn how to fight which is not the case for me.

All of my thoughts were interrupted when I heard a knocked on my door.

"Come in," I said and ready my smile, smile that how I wish was true. Smile that I learn to plaster on my face deceiving people that I'm okay.

The door open revealing Jenina, she was a nurse here in the mental institution slash my secretary, she was willing to do it specially because of her hidden agenda.

"Good Morning Jen, how was your day?" pagbati ko. She excitedly ran into me but immediately halt when I stop her, this girl is radiating positiveness and I cannot stand that thing.

"Oh, you don't have to worry about my day it was all full of fantastic days, how about yours Dra? Ang doktorang hanggang ngayon ay single pa din," I chuckled with her remarks, hindi ko alam sa babaeng ito at gustong-gusto na akong magkaroon ng boyfriend.

"Nevermind, so what's with the folder?" tanong ko upang mailihis ang topic.

"Dra. Rietta you have another patient," ngiti nito bago iabot sa akin ang files, bakas dito ang galak at pamumula ng pisngi.

"Wha'ts wrong with you?" takang tanong ko hindi kasi ito umaalis sa harap ko na tila bang asong hinihintay bigyan ng pagkain ng amo.

"Dra. ang gwapo ng last patient mo ngayon," bahagya na lamang akong natawa. Jenina and her habits, this is what her hidden agenda is. Simula ng mapadaan siya sa ward ko noong nagtratrabaho pa ako sa ibang hospital ay hindi na niya ako tinantanan hindi ko alam anong mayroon sa akin subalit aaminin kong karamihan ng naging pasyente ko ay masasabi kong may ibubuga ang mukha.

Napapailing na lamang akong tiningnan ang laman ng folder. Ang unang pumukaw ng aking tingin ay ang luntiang mga mata ng lalaki. He has those green orbs that will make you feel at ease but as I observe more I can see those pain behind it.

"Pogi doc diba?" Kinikilig na wika ni Jenina.

"Naku tantanan mo ako Jenina, just let him come in on my office wag mo ng masyadong paghintayin also cancel all my appointments ikaw na lang muna ang bahala sa ibang patients you already know what to do I need to leave early."

"Oh I remember it's today right?"

I just smile at her a little, she looked at me with those sad eyes before she left. I shrugged those memories off I don't want to remember it again. I scanned the report for this patient and I can't help but to feel a little sad for him, it must be hard surviving this one.

The door creaks indicating that the patient is inside, "Come in please, you can seat on the sofa just give me a little bit to read your report," I said without taking a glance to him.

When I finally reviewed his records I looked at him at ang unang sumalubong sa akin ay ang luntian nitong mga mata na puno ng kaguluhan at gulat.

"Y-o-u, you're that girl!"