Mark POV

" OMG MARK !!! JACKSON !!! JAEBUM !!!"

This yelling woman is mine and Jackson's mother
Yeah , we've been at our parents house for literally 10 seconds and she's already screaming .

She hugged Jaebum , then Jackson and I was the last .
And oh god , she hugged me so tightly that I couldn't even breathe properly

" Oh my god Mark , you got really skinny " she said while looking at me with worried eyes

I frowned in confusion

" Uh , mum I think you need to go to an optician because I didn't lose any weight . I'm fatter than before"

I saw Jaebum glancing at me and then at Jackson .
What now ?
Are they talking telepathically or what ?

Ugh I hate this

Mum just rolled her eyes and didn't say anything about this anymore .
Good

Apparently dad is not home so we didn't have a lot to talk about so mum just showed Jaebum his room

I went to my old room and Jackson did the same

As soon as I got there, I locked the door and threw myself on the  comfortable bed .

No one else was in the room so I took off my shirt ,  revealing new cuts but some old too .
I kinda liked the sight of dried blood on my arms

I deserve this

I looked at myself in the mirror......
I looked disgusting
Fat , covered in blood , pale and I had teary eyes
I hate this
I hate the way I look
I hate that I can't be as skinny as Jackson
I hate mysel

(A/N : the following lyrics are from the song above )

My tears are always frozen

I cry almost every night but no one sees it
No one cares at all

I can't see the air I breathe

Can I even breathe at all ?

Got my fingers painting pictures

When I do paint something , it turns out to be something really dark .
Sometimes I paint myself with black eyes

On the glass in front of me

My fingers are painting with the blood from my arms

Lay me by the frozen river

I feel so empty

Where the boats have passed me by

Can those boats bring my happiness back ?
I guess not.....

All I need is to remember how it was to feel alive

I'm not alive
I want to feel that again

Jackson POV

I'm scared

I'm so scared

Why ?

Well , i'll tell you why

I could hear Mark's thoughts from the room next to me
And
I'm scared of Mark's thoughts

I have so many questions

One of them are :  How did I hear his thoughts ? 

I have no ideea but I can't tell anyone . I just have to keep an eye on Mark
I have to

Suddenly , I heard a knock on the door

" Jackson ?"

It was Jaebum

" Come in "

I have to keep this a secret

I have to save Mark

But I don't know how

Heeey ! :3

I hope you liked this chapter and pls go and listen to the song from above !
It's beautiful 😍

The song is called "Winter Bird" by Aurora