Sometimes it must hurt....

And sometines we want the love we can never have....

Sometimes it hurts so much that you wish you didn't feel anything at all

Ps : pls listen to the song

BamBam's POV

" Our comeback is in less than 2 weeks and I'm not physically and mentally prepeard for that "

" Ok BamBam..... calm down and tell me why you don't feel ready " said Yugyeom trying to calm me but no  success

" Well.... I know that the album is ready and that we all know the choreography perfectly but...... so much is happening lately and I don't feel like I can stay in front of the iGot7 and lie straight to their faces , pretending that everything is alright when it's not" I said while trying to keep the tears from falling

" BamBam please just-"

" It's killing me "

I didn't want him to see me cry so I just ran to the bathroom and locked the door
I'm planing on staying there until I calm down and Yugyeom forgets about our conversation

The last thing I want right now is to put more pressure on the others
I have to deal with my problems alone

" BamBam..... please.... open the door " I heard Yugyeom's voice

" If I open it ....... you're going to see what I don't want you to see
So please..... please just leave me alone until I calm down
I need to think about something and I need to do it alone"

" Are you sure about that hyung ?"
I could hear the sadness in Yugyeom's voice
I didn't mean to hurt him . I just want to be alone

" Yes Yugyeom "

And with that..... he just left

Jaebum's POV

I have to do this

I'm fucking scared but I have to
I don't want to suffer anymore

I knew that Jackson was in the living room so I went there

He was on the couch, peacefully  watching TV

" Hey um.... Jackson? " I was almost shaking
Why is this so hard ?

" Oh , hi Jaebum !" He said, smiling brightfully

I sat next to him slowly
I was so afraid that I was going to say something wrong

" Hey,  are you ok ? You are pale "
Jackson's face turned from smiley to worried in matter of seconds

" Uh.... no . Not really "

" What is bothering you ?"

Jackson's right hand was now on my knee and that didn't help me at all

I looked at him in the eyes and just said it
I don't want to hide it anymore

" Jackson I-I like you . In that way "

He didn't respond for a few seconds

Does he hate me ?
He probably does

Suddenly , I felt Jackson's lips on mine for a quick kiss
I wanted more so I deepen the kiss that now was a making out session
We pulled apart with heavy breaths

" I-I ...... you don't hate me?"

" If I hated you , would I do this ?" he said and kissed me again " I like you too Jaebum "

I just noticed that someone was behind us
Mark .....

He ran upstairs and I don't know why but Jackson ran after him

Mark's POV

I can't believe this
Jackson and Jaebum? 
How could I not see that coming

It hurts so fucking much
And the worst part is that Jackson knows about my feelings for him

" Mark , wait !" I heard Jackson's voice behind me

He grabbed my wrist and that made me stop running
I turned around to face him and he let go of my wrist

" What can I say ? Congrats ! " tears were running down my cheeks but I didn't care

" Mark..... "

" I'm sorry "

" Wha-"

" I'm sorry I couldn't give you the love you needed . But you know..... it's not my fault that I fell for you . Yeah...... I fucking love you Jackson  apparently   Wang not Tuan "

" Mark I know that-"

" It hurts but I'm used to it
You deserve a normal person not a fucked up hybrid who just wants to die more than ever
I'm happy for you Wang
See you on the news " I said smirking at the last part

" What are you talking about ?"

All the feelings were gone for a second and they were replaced with a devilish smirk

" You'll se "

I ran out of the hallway , down the strairs , right out of the penthouse not forgetting to shut the door behind me

This is going to be so much fun

Yeah...... sorry if I disappointed  you with this chapter...